2-Cynnared, re. Saturn's intense grief, Saturn's transiting my natal Moon!,.....> Mark Kincaid 5/1

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Cynnared  (Original Message) 5/1/2005 2:16 AM

I never would have thought that transitting Saturn conj my moon in cancer

would send me into over work mode. though I have mars in cappy, which is the

sign of the workoholic, I don't like to go overboard in work...

 

My special needs daughter has been home fulltime for the last two

months..leaving me no time to myself and not being able to work due to lack

of childcare and the daycare that was looking after her refuses to look

after her any more. So I have 16 hour days - from the time my daughter wakes

me to the time I go to bed at night. (Mon to Fri)

 

On Sat and Sun I work two 12 hours shifts that is very tiring. Come sunday

night i'm dead tired. So with this i figure i put in around 104 hours of

work combined with looking after my daughter and working. Which leaves me to

split 64 hours a week for sleep and/or time to myself.

 

I just pray that saturn hurries up and gets off my moon.....I can't wait

till July....or july can't come soon enough.

 

Is this the typical occurance with Saturn conj the moon? (I am also

concerned about my mother.....Saturn also conj my brothers moon and pluto is

sitting on my sister's moon.....transitting saturn and pluto are

inconjunct....I have no clue on what that means but I hope it's not the

worst...

'

Cynna

 

 

Dear Cynnared:

 

In the Eastern system of Astrology, this time, when Saturn's returning to

where your Moon is in your natal chart, is a very classic, and generally,

dreaded, Saturn experience.

 

Quite often it's symbolic of much struggling, frustrations, and losses, to

name just a few of Saturn's more choice charactreistics.

 

I'd like to add, however, that Saturn's true nature and purpose is to

reflect back to us, how balanced and in-tune we are with 'Life'....

 

For example, I've been watching Saturn, transit through all the different

signs and houses, of my own chart, for over 15 years, now, and it's been

very revealing watching it move all around, especially as it moved over

spaces where Planets are in my chart, too.

 

However, recently I've had this particular insight into Saturn which I

thought might be helpful and appropriate for your messge I read this

morning.

 

Last fall, I noticed when Saturn was supposed to be moving from my 9th to

the 10th house, in my chart, I literally felt like it was a huge bolder,

that had begun, slooooooowly,...moving across the terrain of my 10th house

of career.

 

I watched, and as I perceived it's presence, I noticed I would run around

the boulder, this way, and then, that way.

 

Eventually, Saturn stopped and then went backwords, or that Retrograde

motion, we always hear about.

 

And, then, I noticed that huge boulder, slowly gradually moved back into my

9th house.

 

Then it occured to me, I was not getting the idea or the wisdom of my

Saturn.

 

I was running all around it, and laughing and remarking how interesting it

was.

 

Of course normally we want to be able to go fast, be dynamic and accomplish,

especially in our careers, the primary symbolism of our 10th houses.

 

Then, all of a sudden I got it,... Saturn is trying to teach me something.

 

Then, I remembered it wasn't just slowing down all the 'things' in my 10th

house.

 

Even during it's brief movement into my 10th house, I noticed, seemed like

things were taking forever, to transpire, to develop and get accomplished.

 

Then, I realized.... Saturn wasn't just being a curse, or a dark influence,

disruppting and frustrating and causing me to work sooo hard, for no reason.

 

Now, I 'got it'. Saturn is the literal presence, of silence, and as it

moves around, in our lives and even through the different areas of our

lives, as indicated by the different houses, or our lives; it's real

symbolism....!

 

ahhhhha!

 

Is....to show us when and where we need to bring and develop more Silence,

or more balance....

 

Now, I understand.

 

Saturn's really trying to show the way, to where, and when, we need to be

putting our attention on the inner development.

 

Of course, this all sounds very nice, but when one is experiencing the

worse, that Saturn has to deliver, one hardly feels like one has time,....

to develop....

 

especially something as lurxurious as inner peace! hehehe

 

Then I remembered the Saturn in my own birth chart. Saturn was in my 12 th

house, which represents many lessons due to financial losses.

 

I experienced that too, much time in life, living on the edge financially,

and not careing or having much in the way of a stable wealth situation.

 

Then, I remembered what it was like, to begin to interpret the symbolism of

this configuration differently.

 

At some point I realized, I was lacking in the wisdom of balance, and

especially related to finances, or SAVINGS!

 

Though of course, my dad, had tried to teach me differently, but

'I',...wouldn't listen...

 

Well, Nature has a way of trying to show us where we need to grow, and after

much trial and tribulations due to lack of 'savings', I thought what the

heck, I'll try the oppositie for awhile.

 

After spending about 6 month's trying to 'save', eventually I saved up even

a small amount, but still an amount that was more then, I'd ever had.

 

Then, almost immediately, I noticed something profound shifted.

 

I, for the first time in my life, having some remnants of even a little

savings, noticed, that all the ways in which grief, came to me regarding

debt, and expenses, suddenly had gone away.

 

And, all of a sudden I got it!

 

Wow, that's what my chart, and Saturn was trying to tell me.

 

I needed more inner balance, first of all within, also due perhaps to my

Moon being there, in the 12th house with Saturn;

but also more inner balance, with finances....

 

Now, I refuse to venture forth, to do really anything unless I have more

rest, and money saved!

 

Sounds soooo conservative, and unspiritual, I know.

 

In fact, that was the other thing I thought would happen to me if I was more

practical, and worried or paid more attention to quote: "finances"!

 

But, after I learned this lesson, something miraculous happened....

 

Just the opposite happened. Learning how to handle money and health, with

more rest, actually made me more spiritual.

 

In other words, it didn't make me more materialistic, but it helped me to

feel more grounded, and safe.

 

Like that, I want to encourage you, to think more about how you can try and

secure more inner stability for yourself, in spite of all those demands, and

literal, stress, that you're going through.

 

I'm also sending a copy of another Saturn article I wrote awhile's back,

that you might find interesting.

 

Good luck!

 

 

Sincerely,

 

 

 

Mark Kincaid

 

 

 

Astrologer

Teacher of meditation & Ayurved

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