Lesson-2 Creation

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Om sri Gurave Namah

--

Respected Solaiji

Namaskar

 

Please forgive me for the delay in answering the questions. I thought that I

should remain silent in answering this lesson , because , my relation to God

is so sacrade and secrete that it is better to remain silent .But after

receiving your mail of 24th , I thought over the matter and it appeared

suddenly in my mind , that not answering the questions on the above mentioned

ground is one form of the ego , because I am not discussing the matter to any

one and everyone , I am discussing this with my Siksha-Gurus and my fellow

disciples- my gurubhai and gurubahens , and believe me , though I never have

met anyone of you , a feeling I have is that you all are very near to me , and

my God -Lord sri Krishna, who directs my every step of life , has some purpose

in His Mind to bring me here .

 

Q1. Role of God in my life--

 

To describe the role of God in my life , I think , I should describe in short ,

my life's journey to Him . Our family is a traditional bengalee brahmin and

vaishnav family of West Bengal . So , from my early childhood I was following

those traditional things like puja , Gayatri japam , visiting temples etc. ,

but those things had not much of any meaning in my life . Samskar of our family

was the force that was , perhaps , responsible in my doing all these . But the

real thing started a few months before my final MBBS examination . It was a

dream . I woke up in the middle of one night , my whole body was trembling .

Whole world with all it's manifestations and activities started appearing

useless to me . I could not concentrate in my studies . What's the use of it ?

Everything , what a man does, appeared so insignificant to me , that I could

do nothing . I started spending hours and hours sitting and meditating in the

room of Sri Ramakrishna at Daksineshwar , in the temple at Adyapith , near

Dakshineswar , at the bank of the Ganges and at Belur Math . Books of medicine

lost all it's interest to me , I was frantically searching for spiritual

literature . In this situation , I passed the exam with all my detachment . The

result of exam was not bad . My frantic search for spiritual literature brought

me close to Sri Aurobindo and the Mother . And at the same time God was kind to

me to send my Guru to me in !981 . At last , months of inner turmoil and

churning came to an end , and my jurney to God started from then .

 

Years and years have passed by since then . It is a story of hours of aspiration

for the Lord . It is a story of days after days of inner struggle , and nights

after nights of painful sufferings . Sometimes in these hours of pain and

struggle , there was downpouring of His love and joy .These downpourings

sustained me in my hours of spiritual despair .

 

My profession suffered tremendously for this . I was searching for Sri Krishna ,

whose " presence is always there , it is enough to turn silently inwards and we

detect it ".

 

after a few years , I thought , in this way , with one step in this material

world and one step in the spiritual world would bring me nowhere . I was

contemplating to leave this material world to become a sanyasi .

 

But nothing of that sort happened . And the struggle to rise above the lower

nature and to find the presence of Sri Krishna inside and outside continued .

 

My father was anxious about me . It was pleasing to him that his son was leading

a spiritual life .But my indifference to material thing , my austerity and my

refusal to get marriied was painful to him . Without informing anybody , he

met an astrloger to know about my future . He assured my father that I

definitely would marry and he also gave pitaji a time -frame of it .

 

Then something happened . A realisation was gradually dawning in my conciousness

that , this austerity , this denial of everything material and this '

ever-losing battle ' will lead me nowhere . Let me make a balance between

matter and spirit . And I started to give attension to my medical practice ,

and a few months after that , I got married to a lady whose parent had come to

my father with a proposal of marriage of their daughter with me about 10 years

ago . See the destiny , I married that lady 10 years later . After the marriage

, my father disclosed the episode of the astrologer . I was surprised . After

that incidence , I developed interest in astrology and started reading books on

astrology .

 

At every steps of my life I feel an invisible hand of God .

This is His role in my life , whenever He wants to play with , He has been

playing with my life - bhramayan sarvabhutani yantrarudhani mayaya .

 

Q2. what you have done in past one year to come closer to God.

 

Ans. Nothing extra . The sadhana as it was before , has been continuing , with

all its ups and downs .

 

Q3. What statement is more relevant ,

God is all

All is God.

 

Ans. It sould be answered by the person who has realised God . The answere is in

the Gita , as it is in many other holy books . Sri Krishna says

Aham sarvasya prabhavo mattah sarvam pravartate

---I am the birth of everything and from Me all proceeds into developement of

action and movement .

 

Maya tatamidam sarvam jagadavyktamurtina

---By Me , all this universe has been extended in the ineffable mystery of My being.

 

Both the statement are true , but to realise it one has to go beyond this human consciousness.

 

Q4. Difference between jyotishi and priest.

 

Ans. Both are for the welfare of fellow human beings . Jyotishi knows the

destiny of a person and to avert suffering he prescribes remedial measure ,

which the jyotishi himself may perform or he may direct a priest to perform

Puja etc. as remedial measure . A priest need not know the destiny of a person.

 

 

With regards

Dilip.

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