Permanent Pain Damage

[Guest guest]

I too can relate to having what feels like a permanent nerve damage from

some loss in life, and feeling that it destroys everything, including being

able to relate to "love of God". Having feelings seems to include the

possibility of being truly hurt.

 

To keep this Jyotish, there are arrangement possible in charts which show

extreme things, which lead to say violent or early death, or in my case,

really strong derpession or sorrows. They come true. I've seen it over and

over in my study of charts. I've also seen no way out. I've seen the

"marked" people simply eventually learning how to eek out some way, some way

for themselves to hobble along through life, like myself, at least for now.

 

 

 

Rick

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hello!

 

I had suicidal thoughts due to loneliness. It was in

december/january. And i still feel lonely. I was depressed at that

time, lost my work after 13 years, my computer didn't work, my car

didn't work, my family members irritated me always, i don't like

them in some way, my spiritual indian group i don't like to go to

anymore, feel i will figure out what's wrong myself, not to

meditate... i was at a hospital because i got paranoid, mostly

because i had so much fear. Fear for phones and people. Hurt/ stress

in my legs.

Im still vegetarian and refusse to take drugs or medicin. I like

ayurveda if to take any.

 

It was a shock for me that this happend. I think it started when

saturn transited my 7th house in cancer and Jupiter went to the 10th

house libra. I have debilitated saturn and mercury in my horoscope

(fear)

and also my moon is in the 12 house with no planets around in

capricorn, so my lagna is aquarius(double saturn). My strongest

planet is mars in aries, but that is not good since it is with this

debilitated saturn in the 3rd house. Venus is also in the third

house aries. Rahu in the first gives lots of changes(no stabillity),

ketu in the 7th in leo gives problem with married partner.

Jupiter try to help me, in the 9th house libra. And sun in the 2nd

with mercury pices. Sun makes me to kind, that gives fear if i don't

know how to speak my will to others as happends.

 

It has always been importent to me to have relationship, that will

benefit me, and help me. But it has been a struggle to get. I was

with a girl for 4 years, but she was not nice and i didn't want it

to go on. Or i was no nice.

 

Now i met another one from Asia. My worry is that i will loose here.

And my worry is that she will have children alot and i don't. I

don't like children but i don't know. I may go on with that.

 

I think that the good thing about all thing is that i now how it is

to be lonely, and now, can be more careful... so that i don't loose

what i have got and take less egoistic steps.

For my work, i hope that i can get back some of the energy, but i

think it will be a struggle anyhow..

 

May jupiter grant me what i want? I'm into jupiter dasa now from

des. 2004.

 

 

 

valist, Das Goravani <> wrote:

>

>

> I too can relate to having what feels like a permanent nerve

damage from

> some loss in life, and feeling that it destroys everything,

including being

> able to relate to "love of God". Having feelings seems to include

the

> possibility of being truly hurt.

>

> To keep this Jyotish, there are arrangement possible in charts

which show

> extreme things, which lead to say violent or early death, or in my

case,

> really strong derpession or sorrows. They come true. I've seen

it over and

> over in my study of charts. I've also seen no way out. I've seen

the

> "marked" people simply eventually learning how to eek out some

way, some way

> for themselves to hobble along through life, like myself, at least

for now.

>

>

>

> Rick

>