Answers to those who answered me

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It is early the next day. I took a lot of Lithium and Klonopon (an anti

convulsant given to epileptics which also helps stop panic and mania) and I

had some solid deep sleep. This helps tremendously. It¹s the same result as

shock therapy which is what I¹ll need next if I continue in the way I have

been. Many people still receive shock therapy. It wipes you out so deeply

you get peace from the mania, which is indescribably painful.

 

So, right now, I am peaceful. I feel ³normal² as most of you do most of the

time. Just calm and gathered. Not especially bothered in any way. This is

how I was most of my life too, like most of you. Neither high nor low. I

am thankful that yesterday is history. It was a VERY bad day.

 

Only a few of you wrote, out of 1400. A couple off list. A couple on. 3

woman and 1 male. The woman were sensitive and caring, but the male wrote

this religious thing:

 

quote:

 

The root cause of all fortune / misfortune happiness/ unhappiness lies in

adherance / neglect of dharma. When you tried to have a relationship with

Bernadette who was married elsewhere you seriously violated dharma. Now you

are suffering loneliness. But how would Bernadette's partner felt if he she

had left him for you.

 

End quote.

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Well, it might help you and anyone else who thinks this to know she pursued

me, and, that her husband wanted her gone so badly he did yagyas to make

this happen. Then, when we did get together in Œadharma¹, I tried like hell

to get them back together, but they didn¹t want it, so they both declared

repeatedly. But then began this strange thing where they stayed together

anyway. I divorced my wife to marry Bernadette, but she just kept

³visiting² me and yet ³staying² with him platonically, which continued for

many years. Now she¹s left us both and returned to Switzerland. There¹s

even more subtle details, but I don¹t think in this case I acted

adharmically. In fact, I worked dharma hard in this case, very hard, and

yet, suffered.

 

It¹s one reason I¹m tired of such talk and the moods and judgements of the

likes of HK devotees and other simplistically minded hindus. I don¹t think

this is why I²m suffering. My suffering predates Bernie and was only

extremely exascerbated by her inability to make a clear decision.

 

And no, I don¹t and won¹t always talk about my private affairs here. In

fact, the day may come, in fact, very soon, where I resign this list never

to return, as being on it, and everything else I¹ve done for years, has not

brought me happiness, in fact, I suffer like crazy. (no pun intended but

gosh it¹s present)

 

The above paragraph, from one well wishing Hindu hopeful reminds me of any

statement by any stubborn solidly book-driven unbending dogmatic priest of

any order. I don¹t believe in that method anymore. That¹s one major pain I

have. The coming of Christianity to the pagan places like Ireland and

Britain. Paganism was more fluid and changeable, more sensitive to the

differences of each situation. I prefer that. Rigidity is inflexible and

snaps under preassure and is not the way of nature. This is one of my

biggest pains. Also, that Hinduism has become like the above paragraph of

the well meaning- under the influence of Christianity and Islam.

 

 

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As for my meds being adjusted, I adjust them myself. After all these years

on them, I know what works and doesn¹t, and in what levels. The only thing

I¹m waiting to hear about is something that creates an opiate like peace

without the addiction, but I think that¹s impossible.

 

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Now I feel weak again.

 

Ree means king in Gaelic, and as it¹s also in ³Rishi² and ³Richard², I claim

it for my declining times pleasure of mind, and perhaps, a hint of truth lie

therein, maybe. MacQuoid. Son of Fire.

 

 

And what would you rather me talk about, the Pope¹s coffin? Balmoral? How

the Tudors should not even be in Scotland? How Scotland is named after a

Pharoahs daughter? Yes it is. Iraq? How weird Fox news seems to me?

(Americans only would understand that one I think). How about the spread of

the religious right in America?

 

 

I guess I am still messed up, even though a bit rested.

 

I really don¹t know how I¹m going to pull together and survive. I¹m so

broke. And broken.

 

 

 

 

 

Ree MacQuoid

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Hey Dear Das/Ree,

 

As always best wishes to you and for this to pass and you to be feeling

better as soon as possible. It does always pass and will again now, hang in

there.

 

Just wanted to briefly check a couple of astrological things to see why

yesterday - and if you could become aware of the Moon's transits and see

this, wondering if that might help during these times. Yesterday Moon

transiting in Venus star.

 

Venus, which is in Rasi 1H, was in extreme gandanta yesterday in Mercury's

star. Is still in gandanta today as well, but in Ketu's star, and now again

in your 1H versus 12H yesterday. - I wonder if you keep track of the Moon on

these kinds of days, if this would give you some information to know when

and how these are developing and just that knowledge may be of some help to

you.

 

So yesterday Moon in Venus star, this Venus in gandanta (conjoined gandanta

Raha and gandanta Sun and RMercury itself yesterday - and Sun rules your 5H

and Mercury your 3 and 6). - Also yesterday this TMoon in Bharani right on

your ascendant with Venus also receiving 10H aspect from Saturn.

Understandably a very tough day...

 

Today Venus now in Ketu's star, this Moon is now on your 2H, still Venus

ruled house, but Moon now exalted there, but not giving it's full effects

with Venus in deep gandanta today, this TVenus now in Ketu's star. Somewhat

less intense perhaps for you, as Venus today is also receiving TJupiter's

aspect versus Saturn's yesterday, and Jupiter also conjoined this Ketu.

 

Tomorrow Moon will be in own nakshatra of Rohini. This 2H is still Venus

ruled. I think this gandanta Venus is difficult and with these transits for

Moon. When Moon next enters Venus star, Venus will no longer be in gandanta.

 

Friday, Moon will be in Rahu's star, and TRahu is still in gandanta in 12H.

TMoon will be also then conjoined TSaturn and in your 3H. This might be

another day to be aware of and take this knowledge to help you through it.

Something maybe you could watch and see how this affects you.

 

Just thoughts here on this but maybe try to keep track of this during these

phases. Knowledge is power in this kind of thing and may be helpful for you

to know and understand these transits of Moon dear Das.

 

In May Ree, I'm sure you know you will be entering into a new dasa entirely.

Going from Saturn mahadasa to Mercury. Saturn is badhaka planet for you and

also your 11H has Moon there so this makes sense to watch these Moon

transits. Entering into a whole new dasa in May, bringing a new phase to

your life - hang in there.

 

All best wishes and blessings,

Patrice

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Dear Das,

 

Today a similar situation with Moon transiting in gandanta Sun's star. Now

though in your 2H and in exaltation, but with the gandanta Venus, not much

help.... Sun is receiving that same 10H aspect that Venus was yesterday as

well... with Sun in your 12H... again where Venus was yesterday.. and Sun

exactly conjoined Rahu, your natal Moon's star..

 

This TMoon is also about to transit over your natal Sun, and then natal

Mercury in a couple hours... Hang in there today, again this looks like a

difficult transit for you.. Not until just around 10 minutest past 11 PM

tonight will Moon move into own star.

 

All best,

Patrice