Guest guest Posted September 16, 2004 Report Share Posted September 16, 2004 dear Das , > "Some one has told the native that she may have loss of life in near future.If > some preventive action is taken then she will live long." This was in my Question regarding a girl.She is ill and facing problems thats why her parents consults every astrologer. There are people who try to fool and tell lies to earn money or just a sansation. But believe me the situation is not so pathetic. People do not believe blindly. They apply their own reasoning and wisdom earned through experience. you need to worry but not to be dismayed for it.........Believe me. You know why i fell in love with astrology ......its because it gives the very kind and so obvious explanations to my spiritual quests........ I am very novice to astrology but craving from so long for my thirst of spiritual peace. Astrology always attracted me but i was very much confused..... 6 years back i started learning palmistry..... now one year back i was moved towards astrology........ Always HE provided me with the right things for my questions....... While wandering here and there(in books or other stuff) for learning astrology i was put to you for my answers....... Oh...i found the right explanations ....the real connection to spiritualism in your Lessons.... And you are thinking of selling out the business?????????????? Shiza:::You gave your life for astrology and Hinduism......thats why you were able to give me answers..........the things you gave your life to gave me answers which i could have found after same long search/wandering.........................I am indebted to you oh,dear. Pain:::Oh the Gods way of giving us real lesson.......i have seen people with answers to all the problems. If I cry in front of them they will give me a lot of answers........that there all in Vedas and others. I was happy thinking that i know .....i know.....i know..... then PAIN came. the same like when your most loved one dies . more than that it yelled on me.......oh you culprit.....you did nothing... i was down...dismayed.....distressed....obscured...and all. pain gave me more strenghth and reason and will to dig deep and deep..... And i came up after all the struggle with answers that are written nowhere .........but are same as all. Also...you are so honest in your emotions.........why should i not love you. i wish you were a child and i could take you up in my arms............................. I am worried for you...... I do not know what to do...what are the answers..........when will your pain end....... Give me answers.....................give me answers..... But do not take downers......... when you hit a Celt real hard, he bounces back stronger :::::::::Oh i am in bliss on hearing this............... ha ha ha.... Love Amit Das Goravani <> wrote: So much pain, so much, unstopping, never ending, tried piercing, easier than I thought, now I havea bloody needle on Morrigans altar, will I ever have the love I seek, will the lonliness ever end, I can't stand this pain, unednding, unending, nobody says a word, none of you respond hardly, just one, what to do, where to go, will a woman ever be my wife, of is death the way, year after year after year uneding, meds help, but not enough, it's STRONG pain, unending, many pills don't stop it, the longing to be loved, by a beatufiul woman in person, a wife, never mine to be it seems, only pain of longing, Somesay its borderline personality disorder, but nobody cares to read and heal me, I don't know what to do, the piercing felt good, the blood, the ability to contorol my bodily life, to feel in control, that was new, the bloody pin looks beautifukl, freedom Don¹t call the cops, the ir padded cells cost $1000 per day here, really, they do, call Sacred Heart and ask...you get sick and they profit, that's all, nothing more, hell this is I have no other but you, the only other, Bernadette, doestn't love, just talks, no touching, married, lives away, long over, long over, I feel like dieing, Whatever, you don't want to hear it, I'm with the street people in India, just in pain, liying in the gutter, in pain, abandoned, but in America, not much different All my work, has brought many words of love, but very little to none of other, no wife I love, selfish you say, perhaps, but when you are obsessed, borderline they say, it doesn't matter what you call me, I still HURT very badly I try to drown it, so many pills, much more than supposed to, many many, it still doesn't stop How long, til I just say forget it, and cut off the hands or something, under so many pills, in the shower, or lay on the tracks, or something. How long, how much pain, a life of pain? I think not. It's already so many years. You think I do this easily, write this to the world? No, it's only because it's so great I don't care anymore Don¹t care, don¹t care, losing everything anyway, due to pain Cant watch tv, so many pretty girls, why wont one be mine Selfish you say, perhaps, but pain deosn't stop in me because of your judgemental workds upon me The pain doesn't stop because you say some words about my character that you perceive, it' keeping on going And I have to bear it, it's hard, hard hard pain, like when your most loved one dies, but picture it never stopping, NEVER shit Mail - You care about security. So do we. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted December 30, 2004 Report Share Posted December 30, 2004 Dear Das; I have been reading your e-mails for years and know I can't do anything to make your pain go away. If I volunteered to marry you you would probably reject me because I am not young enough or smart enough or pretty enough or have the right body. It doesn't matter. For what it's worth the suffering you are experiencing is know by this consciousness and as you know many others. I think that that knowing has value; that is the people out there in the world, like me, reading your cries keeps you afloat. I would do the same if I were in your perdicament, reach out to who ever would listen to keep at bay the harsh reality that as a separate self we will always end up feeling lonely and miserable. I hope you find the love and connection you crave. You must be very strong to endure so much agony. Sue Ann Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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