Guest guest Posted August 14, 2003 Report Share Posted August 14, 2003 Sakhya, Das Goravani has a soul, why are you so cruel? Lydia - <spot <gjlist> Thursday, August 14, 2003 10:12 PM Re: [GJ] Solutions out of reach > u r nuts > sakhya > Quoting Das Goravani <>: > > > > > When I try to think of solutions, like, go to a store which is lively, and > > set up a booth in the corner with owners permission, for doing free charts > > maybe, and just say positive things, and be lively and bubbly, I think, > OK, > > that could work, I'll make friends, but the fact is, that as I see the > > woman, who listen then walk away, and who never call, I will suffer > extreme > > inner pain, which I'll take home, and which will make me cry. If I reach > out > > to them, they ALWAYS reject me, never call, use excuses, look at me funny. > I > > obviously don't know how to "do it right", hence I think I'm autistic. > > > > These days you can buy a shotgun easily. You can saw all the barrel also > > easily. Take it to the woods, and blow your brain via your mouth sky high. > I > > saw a picture of a guy who did this- nothing above the top lip remained. > > Pretty total. End of problem. > > > > The pain is great. 8 years of trying to figure it out. 8 years of pain and > > longing. So many recommendations. No humans in my life. I can't believe we > > are to be so alone. They tell me I'm loveable, but I"m alone. It's so > hard. > > I should'nt write this but I am overly compelled to say something. > > > > Please forgive me. I have to write or do something. The quiet and lack of > > possibilities or answers is knawing away at me, day after day. > > > > One day they'll realize that some people need another to be their leader, > > guide, whatever, their balance, their mast, their rudder. THey'll realize > > it's a condition that some have. It will be too late for me. I didn't get > > it. Nobody was there to do it. I was wasted, allowed to go to waste, > despite > > whatever gifts I have left to offer. > > > > Don't get freaked out in writing back. I probably won't buy a shotgun > > anytime soon. I will continue to sit in a mess, drink, empty fridge, cry, > > wander around, collapse on bed, check email hoping for answers, hope that > > something happens, nothing will, one day, one day, one day, end it. > > > > > > > > > > Om Namo Bhagavate Vasudevaya; Hare Krishna; Om Tat Sat > > : gjlist- > > > > > > > > Your use of is subject to > > > > > > > > > > > > Om Namo Bhagavate Vasudevaya; Hare Krishna; Om Tat Sat > : gjlist- > > > > Your use of is subject to > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 14, 2003 Report Share Posted August 14, 2003 There are all different levels of perception of mental disease and emotional pain. Some people are on very basic levels of understanding these things, not having seen anyone they truly love deeply in pain. I forgive them their ignorance of something they will come to know eventually. das goravani Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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