Das's Data and Troubles with Woman

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Hi

 

That's my chart. The Westerners will point out that an outer

in the 7th makes me an idealist in relationships.

 

Actually, my wife was cute enough, and very nice, but very

religious, not very passionate towards me, I felt. And so,

the religious aspect hurt me there. Notice my seventh is 9th

from my Moon, meaning again in aone small way, and they all

add up, that my spouses will be to me "religious"

 

Then the next relationship, a very beautiful woman, of high

qualities and character in many ways, but too high quality

in a way... I am a missionary guy you know, care about

"doing stuff for people and for the world", so I have a

natural appreciation for the downtrodden or little people,

and so on. This she did not re. I felt like I was with a

classist, she felt she was with a low class befriender, and

there was always this grind of "class", where I'm the "low"

and she the "high".

 

I divorced my wife and met this next woman both in

Saturn/Venus, which are conjunct in Scorpio in 6th in Navamsa.

 

The manifest real reason for my woman troubles is this: I

get proposals, that's not the problem, but they are either,

older than me, married, not good enough looking, and I'm not

that picky really, or they are deeply into a Guru, and I'm

too freaked out about that subject to accept that in my life

again. I have had a very skewed life- imbalanced. When I

present what I am and what I've done and do, this seems to

scare most normal people away.

 

I think I'm "wanted" by woman but nobody dares, or

something. Because I'm phobic about aloneness, I clung to a

very bad relationship since nobody else at all was in my

life. It killed me. Now common knowledge will tell you that

I'm damaged, high maintainence, until I'm better, etc. Fine,

hope I live til then. They tell me I will.

 

The right mix of spirituality, capability, looks, and

devotion to cause is what I want I suppose. Probably it's my

fault. Everything seems to be.

 

So now you know what to look for rather than speculating

about it. You know, someone else could do this. It doesn't

always have to be me that opens up a real case all the way.

 

Look at the 11th. Alone. Why? Too much religion, ultimately,

is what it always seems to come down to with me in my life.

I don't like people's normalness. That's what it's been so

far. Lately I'm discovering spirituality in the other

people's of spirit, the non-HK ones, and finding some

friends there slowly. I love devotees, but they don't accept

me, break me, put me down. They'll say they don't, but the

little constant quips do it for them with a sensitive person

like me. My relationship was no exception. Every day I felt

like I was being put down.

 

She herself sums up the movement as saying "You're never

good enough". This is the slogan she shares with friends.

But she did it to me constantly. I know I've done it to

other people. Where does this constant put down pain come from?

 

If you sort that out both in the world and my chart, then

you'll know my troubles and will have solved them.

 

ps: I really personally think, that simply due to bad karma,

I haven't met the right woman. I've gotten entangled and

have lived, knee deep in midgets for years, including many

devotees whom I was under and beholdant to. Sorting out

these days when I was loved verse oppressed.

 

I am absolutely not used to caring about myself, like many

devotees. I feel guilty taking time out for my body, like

most, but not guilty smoking it to death. There's something

really wrong in the balance here. I've known woman who were

really good for me overall, but because they ate meat, I

stayed away (and still would). Vegetarianism wipes out 99 %

of the choices out there in America. Start there. Then move

onto God and spirituality and you have why priests are often

alone. I thought by working hard in the public I could

attract and find a "right one", but no go so far. Once one

came really close.

 

I've got to get away now from a foreignor who for years has

tormented me not by will but definitely factually in the end

that is what happens. The bhuktis look as if it might at

last happen. At this point, I have barely the will to live.

I'm kindof being rescued and helped. I hope it's enough.

 

Peace

 

Thanks,

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Das Goravani , President

 

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Eugene, Oregon, 97405

USA

 

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