i wont

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i wont

kill myself

 

 

just expert at staring over that cliff, but I got good shoes on, and

they aint slipping that direction, just staring, for about 7 years now

 

trying to turn the other way

 

it's hard

 

but i ain't gonna off the boy, no way

 

dont worry about that particular thing

 

just saying shit, i know the pain, oh yeah, about 2555 fully conscious

days of it now, in a row, ceaseless seemingly

 

i know i'm blessed and gifted and all, and believe me, so sensitive just

going shopping is excruciating, ok, so we're all different, what's easy

for one person is painful for another

 

think of howard hughes, vincent van gogh, etc., it's just about where

your sensitivities are at, what level, we're all different

 

i feel pain when i see rusty cars, the death and loss is painful

 

really.

 

it's that sensitive ok? but i wont off me. no.

 

any sign of aging or death makes me feel tremendous amounts of feelings

for the soul or souls involved, call it hyper empathy

 

when i feel lonely, it's a big feeling, like overwhelming, ok?

 

don't go to worrying about me doing that, no, i'll change my life

instead, i'm smart enough to know that's a better choice