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Dear Kundalika

 

you

<<It is amazing how you can come up with this level of insight into a chart

while suffering so much. >>

 

me

I do not think that it would be amazing if your soul were inside this body. But

anyway, thank you very much for your concern.

 

I think that it is a question of accommodating to the present circumstances. I

am learning useful lessons.

 

The first lesson that i have learned was on my 3rd day in hospital, once i

started to realise where a was. I wanted to walk out of that bed and my legs

were not moving. Things that i took for granted were not there.

 

The 2nd lesson was to stop worrying. When healthy, i used to get worried to do

my duties. While in hospital i learned not to worry about anything. If i do

not have the energies to do it, i do not have energies even to worry about it.

 

When in pain or unable, i just take rest.

 

I have learned as well that by doing a reading of a horoscope it is not as

simple as drinking a glass of water. It requires intuition to do so apart from

knowledge and experience.

 

Every astrologer develops a certain kind of reading. Therefore, a horoscope can

be read in different ways or levels.

 

The way i explain the use of intuition is realated to the physical functions.

 

I can enter into a room in which i can find rods of different weights. 1 kg,

5kg, 10kg, 20kg, 30kg, 50kg, and 100kg.

 

At present, in my condition i can lift 1kg but i will get tired soon. Perhaps,

i could lift 5kg with some efforts. And i could lift 10kg but only to my chest

level. I have tried to lift a luggage of that weight above my head but i cannot

do it.

 

In a healthy condition i can do that and even lift a 20 or even a 30 kg over my head.

 

Perhaps with some training and exercises, i would be able to carry 50 or even 100kg.

 

Intutition wise, i have learned that when i am reading a chart, i can only read

lighter things. Somehow i cannot do deep readings as before. I have not lost

anything in my brain, i know that i still have old term memories and short term

as well, but my intuition to "lift" heavy readings is still no there. It is

there but i cannot use it.

 

Sometimes i have crossed beyond my present limits, physically wise, like when

walking more than i can, and i had paid dearly by being sick and dizzy for 2 or

3 days afterwards.

 

Therefore, i can see that a astrologer uses a lot of phsichic energy when doing a reading.

 

Doctors told me that perhaps i got this brain haemorrhage due to my blood

pressure going up. But my blood pressure is low in general, and at the time of

the attack i was seating down, in a relaxed mood.

 

A clairvoyant friend of mine did a test while doing a reading and found that the

blood pressure goes down during the reading.

 

In a brain haemorrhage, the cerebellum gets flooded with blood. Therefore, the

cerebellum reacts in self-defence by sending strong messages to the body of

being sick, dizzy and tired.

 

One of the main functions of the cerebellum is to make activities a routine or

automatic. In that way, the cerebrum does not have to think everytime that we

do a routine job.

 

When the cerebellum is affected we have to think all the time and therefore we

lose balance and become easy tired.

 

The good thing is that there is an slow improvement although nobody knows how

much % a person will get back eventually.

 

you

<<I just want to let you know that I deeply admire and respect your

determination. >>

 

me

Thank you very much. I would tell anybody in my condition to have patience and

determination. 8000 people a year in the UK get this attack and 50% die in the

first 3 weeks. The survivors, like me require a long slow recovery of between 1

to 2 years.

 

Regarding the readings or writings that i do, are done due to inspiration and

because i can do them. Otherwise, i would no do them at all.

 

Last Friday i went to stay for 2 days to the house of some friends that live on

the coast. Although i saw the beach on the first day and it was inspiring (2

guys were surfing on the cold waters of the British beach and in winter), the

2nd day i was planning to walk the 1.5 miles to the beach, but somehow i did

not have the energies to do it and i only had a walk of some 100 yards.

 

I do not care, if i cannot do it, there is a reason for it even if i do not know

it. Later on i will have the opportunity to do it.

 

you

<<Best wishes for a speedy recovery>>

 

me

 

Thanks again

 

best wishes

Natabara Das