Isolation

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om gurave namah------------------------Dear Raghu,

SATURN has had his way. Admit it or not. In the 12th it is the personal life and

spouse he removes, then in the first it is you yourself who is isolated and

finally in the second it is the work front that takes a beating. Thats Sade

sati and it can be horrible, especially for strong Jup in trines kind of people

who are here just to spread the good cheer and the meaning of being inthis

world. Saturn has his terrible ways with Jupiterians, debilitating them with

work (Capricorn) and promising the heavens, which God knows when will it all

happen.

Point is Raghu, it doesn't just happen like that with a dream angel dropping by

at your door. The Moon causes the neecha bhanga of Jupiter and you need more

MOON, more of that society and Mana's to share your isolation and in the

process they all lose thier Saturn (Sorrow and Isolation). Its mutual and not

exclusive - all benefit.

In any case that lousy Chandala Yoga in the skies will be over in a fortnight

and we Jupiterians have a cause to celebrate. Any plans? Lets start a chat room

and agree to meet there in the web. Nice way to start. These impersonal e-mails

are killing the speech within us, that Tara Shakti which is necessary to

'Tarana' (Cross over) this world of Brahma (Saturn's deity)....let's just start

connecting..Missing you,

I remain,

Sanjay Rathhttp://sanjayrath.tripod.com

Hello,This is my scene: I have a 3 bedroom house. My two independent,

reallygood, teenage kids occuppy two rooms, and use the kitchen. My room islike

a renovated garage, so it's big. On one side is a whole circulararray of

computer gear- lots. On the other side is an area partitionedoff by Indian

print madras sheets hanging from the ceiling. In there ismy bed. That's it.I

live in this room 24/7. My kids hardly need me. They drive and havecars. I

don't need anything. I do everything from this room, from soupto nuts, my whole

business, alone. The courier man delivers the goods Iorder, and I turn them into

software, and take them to the post office.I buy groceries and go to the bank.

At these places I see faces. I don'ttalk to them, as is the way in America. I

go home, where I never see faces.I have just a couple local people who know me,

and I hardly ever seethem, and we're not that close really.I do not want to go

to clubs or anything at all, to try to stir upsocial life for myself, because I

feel like I'm leaving my work post forfolly. It takes so long via this route to

create real relationships anda spouse, so I'd rather not bother. The good lord

is going to have tosend one to my door.So I will stay in this room, 24/7, and

just keep doing this, because Ireally don't see anything out there in America

worth going to or doingat all. So I never meet anybody, and nobody ever comes

over. I'm totally isolated.I am trying to handle this but I must admit, the

isolation alone is abig life stopping issue. It gets in the way. I don't really

know how toactually, effectively, solve that problem. It's hurting

productivity,and that hurts my core, because artistic, meaningful, divinely

relatedproductivity makes me happy and I feel I have to do it to be happy and

alive.So isolation, which I've created, is my enemy. But the people whointerest

me are a tiny sliver of the population, spread asunder. What todo. I've tried

everything locally that you can try, to no avail so far.I guess I just have to

tolerate this never ending aloneness bravely. Itseems impossible to end it.I am

trying to cut it through it and finish this gosh darn GJ3enigma.... it's taking

forever only because of this issue and all it'srelated symptoms and outcomes.If

you have this too, how do you bear it?I wish I knew surely how to handle this

without making a blithering foolout of myself.Isolation sucks.