KARAKAMSA

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Dear Marcia

 

Welcome

 

<<Do you think that the loss of your health during this bhukti is related at all

to the AK house position?>>

 

No. because in other dasas i was ok but i saw losses and a change of direction

in each one. I will say that this present situation is due to my Saturn dasa.

Saturn is in the 12th and it is lord of 6th. Also, the attack came during my

Mars antara which rules the 3/8 houses. Also, maybe the most important think

to give a clue to the karmic knot of previous life is that the Atmakaraka is

with Mars, the lord of the 8th.

 

<<I am sorry about your health, and have prayed with the others here on the list

for your full recuperation.>>

 

Thank you for your concern about my health. Definitely the prayers of those on

this list and well wishers are of much help. I think that i have made it but

my doctor reckons that i will get back to normal in 1-2 years and it is only

now my 9th month. If i compare my situation of 8th months ago in hospital with

my present situation, i can see a very slow recovery but also a great

improvement.

 

While in hospital i had to walk to the toilet with the help of a metalic frame.

Since then i had walked about 2 miles without any frame although supervised.

mind, i felt tired for 3 days after that.

 

After the 4th month, my health started to have set-backs. Forwards and

backwards. 3 weeks ago i started to walk around the block by myself once a

week. It is like being very drunk. I remember long ago in my natal country, i

had better control of being drunk than this. This is something new and big but

somehow i can manage.

 

Slowly recovery but it is not terminal or permanent.

 

<<Its hard to know when to surrender and when to gather upthe energy to take

action and swim upstream>>

 

One day in 1976, Prabhupada, a self realized soul, said that a new married girl

may want a child inmediately, but that she has to wait at least 9 months to see

her child.

 

Also, he said that one day a pregnant lady having her first child told the

mother "mum, please wake me up when the child is going to arrive, i do not want

to miss a thing". Her mum knowing better said to her "Do not worry about it,

you will be awake when the time comes"

 

Surrender comes to every single soul either in this life or the next. Just when

we are ready,The experience of the swimmer gives him the best knowledge of when

to do it.

 

<<Surrendering lately has felt more like falling into a depression, but maybe

because i think of it>>

 

Surrendering gives always an optimistic, happy and compassionate nature,

depression is a symptom of still being attached to the relative plane rather

than to the absolute.

 

Someone may pretend that is on the right path, but his/her negative attitude betrays him/her.

 

Many want to cross the door to eternity, but how many will wait until the last

soul has crossed that door?

 

Many will say that they have seen the light or the guru. But we only see things

according to our conditionments and that is not very helpful.

 

My guru said one day that a guy went to the dark dungeons and found a person

that was born there and had never seeing the sun-light.

 

The guy ask the person to come outside the dungeon to see the sun. The person

not knowing better asked, "should i bring my torch to see the Sun?"

 

<<It sounds like you have more clarity about using this time as a spiritual excercise.>>

 

It is due to my training of 30+ years, and also when i see that there is only

one way up, what i can do but to go for it. If i walk or move around i feel

very dizzy because of my lack of balance. But i can seat or stay still for a

long time, enough to surf, read, write, meditate, think. So all that helps and

clarity comes thanks to higher sources.

 

<<Maybe b/c it is my moon bhukti, I have just been totally absorbed in the

feelings and moods ofthe moment, with a distinct lack of clarity or vision. >>

 

Yes, the moon bukti brings a lot of cancerian trends. It is very difficult to

control the mind during those buktis. Try meditation, yoga, reading,

concentration. It is a great challenge, try to take advantage of this present

situation.

 

Thank you.

natabara