Living with a predisposition

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Having less Dopamine receptors is correct. That's what some of us are like.

 

This ultimately means, in plain terms, the bottom line, last word:

 

We cannot handle stress very well.

 

The reason this is the bottom line is that you can learn to improve and

manage life in this condition. But you'll never be equipped to long handle

stress. Hence, my Dad lost it mentally whereas others survived, and I lost it

under the deress of unrequited love for 5 years.

 

Sattva-Shanti is necessary to keep around me at all times, then I'm pretty

good. With too much stress, my system is going to panic.

 

That's how it works, that's why addicts are short tempered. It's not that

they are "angry". Quite the opposite. They are not actually NOT capable of

holding anger at all, that's why they drop it on your ears first chance.

 

The world is generally the opposite of what we think. The "strong" are really

weak, etc., the crazy people, often the most enlightened. The dead, often

more alive.

 

war

 

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Dopamine deficiency tells your mood:

 

"you are not safe, you are not loved"

 

So people with this, are going to have weird ways of behaving because they

actually think everyone is looking down on them kindof and they are convinced

they are unloveable.

 

This is true.

 

Think about it. Their disposition and thus their actions, are helpable by

dietary change.

 

 

That lady behind the counter, who is shy, tweaky, a dinky red head who seems

to be really like a scared little animal, won't look you in the eye, evasive,

very helpful, very quick and good, well, you probably aren't seeing her. You

probably can't meet her. You probably like everyone else don't really know

who she is, and neither does she, because she's malnourished right now, and

nobody knows it, and this is an attrocity. Her life will be far less than it

could be, because she needs something she's not getting, and nobody knows

this. How sad.

 

Until that day when everyone is well fed, nothing else can expect to be good

really. As long as some of us are walking around in disease, and all are

unaware of it, how can we have a good society?

 

There are people in jail because of doing exactly what test monkeys do.

 

Think about it. Doing nothing but what is natural, has put them in jail.

 

Is that possibly called Genocide, the attempt to extinquish a race? Can

hardly mate and raise families in jail after all.

 

They were made to be in jail, it's in their charts, and it's natural. They

had no choice, and neither did the policeman, the judge, us, our tears, so

many injustices, due to ignorance.

 

Seeing her habitat dissapearing, the Sasquatch went a wrentching.

 

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War

 

The Beginning

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(truetype postscript: remember, it's writing, not reality- it's color, art,

meant to cause YOU to enjoy some thoughts- I'm a word whore, give me a moment

of your time and I'll give you a momentary thought that might be out of the

ordinary, and so entertaining- philosophical entertainment- What do I REALLY

stink for myself you wonder, ahh'll never tell the truth, or will i? )

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gjlist, goravani@a... wrote:

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> Dopamine deficiency tells your mood:

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> "you are not safe, you are not loved"

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> (truetype postscript: remember, it's writing, not reality- it's

color, art,

> meant to cause YOU to enjoy some thoughts-

 

>What do I REALLY stink for myself you wonder, ahh'll never tell the

truth, or will i?)

 

Om Amrtesvaryai Namah!!

 

Namaste dear sisters and brothers!!!

 

Thank you all for all your inputs re the dopamine issue...i really

appreciate the love with which everyone has invested their

replies..and ongoing conversation...as well i'd like to thank everyone

for their kind and helpful comments re Ayanamsha...interesting to

learn thru Ernst that Sri Yukteswar himself used the Lahiri one.

 

Koti Koti Pranams to you Dasji!!you have such an interesting way with

words....that one quote above:

 

dopamine deficiency tells your mood:

"you are not safe, you are not loved"...

 

do you EVER hit that old nail on the head there!! only since meeting

Ammachi have i been able to work a little with that one...because when

we meet Her we become instantly aware that despite all our glaring

faults, and no matter how serious they might be...here is ONE person

in the whole world Who really Loves us for ourself...

there are no words for this, so i am really in a way destroying

slightly the actual feeling by trying to fit it into a sentence of dry

woody words....but it is still an ongoing challenge, when thru Guru

Prasad, or Ishta Devi Prasad (which ever you please!)...one is

confronted almost daily with the shifting nature of this world, and

when one is Saturn Atmakaraka and Lagnesha....this feeling of darkness

and unsafeness is very strong...

 

Because in truth, if we care to look in that direction we are NOT safe

except insofar as we may have taken refuge at the Lotus Feet of our

Ishta Devi...in that refuge i see my only safety, but still i'd like a

little daily help to take the edge off my nerves...that doesn't mean

i'm nervous, but that i'm TOO sensitive to all sensory input (raw

nerves....which hurt easily!!!)...as i said yesterday i, for example,

tried for a while, 5HTP which is a precursor to serotonin, and if i

took the higher of the two recommended doses i would get a

headache....not long after..... as well, what might give an ordinary

person pleasure may just as well give me a migraine....so this body's

constant message to the dweller within is: "Please take PROPER care of

me!!! as i am a very sensitive instrument, and you are abusing me with

this style of life you are ignorantly choosing to live!"

 

and even when we DO take care of our vahanas...our bodies, still we

must consider ourselves to be merely little birds perched on a very

dry twig on a tree, high up, and while there we are eating and

sleeping and carrying on...but we must never forget that it is a very

dry twig and that it may break at any moment, and thus we should be

ready to jump off and fly away at any time....it is not in our hands!!

 

However it is a little more in our hands what we are doing while ON

the branch...and when body is complaining thru headaches, depression,

addictions and so on....then we should possibly pay more attention to

see what it is that body REALLY wants...good food and good air, and

water...and friends and all that...so thus we experiment with new

therapies as they become part of the consciousness....

 

Over the years i've tried MANY approaches...and often for quite a long

time...nothing seems to work very well except avoidance of the

triggers (and hemp sandwiches!)...and as they (triggers) are in the

hundreds it seems...just ordinary foods...you wouldn't believe the

list...and then there's changing weather...sunlight on water....too

much emotion of any kind...crying too much...(histamine related i

suspect!) so if the histamines get out of whack...headache...if the

adrenaline gets out of whack...headache...if the food intake or the

sleep is out of whack...headache...Migraine is a Major advocate of the

Sattwic life style!!! if one tries too much Rajas or Tamas....the

delightful reward of Migraine will ensue...all this after asking Amma

What to do about Migraines and chronic headaches...was getting tired

of all the pills and their long term negative effects on body....

 

Amma said..."just put this Vibhuti on your head when you have

headache...and Amma will make a sankalpa for you!"

 

i went away thinking that those headaches' days were Numbered exulting

in my wise choice to aske Amma for help!!!

 

What an idiot i was!!!That only brought the whole issue out into

formal notice, with a formal assertion of a Sankalpa...She didn't say

WHAT kind of Sankalpa...and only later i found out that Mother

immediately subtly rearranged the whole system such that foods and

activities that used to be fine, now delivered a nasty Whack on the

behind!!MIGRAINE...i had no alternative but to realise that Mother is

now using these little tricks to discipline Her lazy, addictive little

boy!!! Immediately (like the same day!!)after i asked...the list of

triggers expanded an hundredfold...old cheddar cheese used to be

FINE...so did chocolate, and smoking the weed...as well as wine or any

alcohol,....nuts became off limits...you name it...it's really an

issue of living a very EXAMINED life...even if i don't really want

to...Old Saturn is FORCING me to concentrate on the issue with those

Migraines....

 

what's the weather today?...cloudy, stormy with an 80% chance of

Migraines....that's my life...but they (migraines) seem to be Guru

Prasad too...and are often used to discipline this devotee...

 

"you don't want to observe the Yamas and Niyamas son??You want instant

enlightenment...just put it in a cup and add boiling water???? Well,

son, how about some of this delicious instant headache, when you

pursue those behaviours which may lead you away from contemplating

your short life, and the Loving Divinity within you, Who is always

knocking at the doors of your heart...wanting to come out of

jail...and help everybody...but what do you say??? "No thanks!! could

You please go away??? I'm too busy to talk to You right now!!""

 

And what does that Loving Indweller say but "Yes." She won't force

Herself upon us, but She may make it harder to live without thinking

of Her!!!

 

Dasji i love all those scintillating little sparks you shed on this

list...they do get the mind going...and raving too...and filling up

the servers with useless, but highly entertaining essays that no one

will ever read!!!(except the devotees of course!)

 

 

 

the reason that i'm checking it (that yellow oil) out, is because i DO

come from a family of "addicts"!!!with a tendency towards

depression... my grandpa was an alcoholic when he at 55 or so moved to

Canada from Norway in 1927...my dad also i think qualified in this

department...as his personality would change from loveable to angry,

frustrated and abusive when too drunk (he wasn't drinking all

the time, but when he did this happened!)...also didn't know when to

stop...he would drink you out of all your booze if you let him at a

party...the same with my brother...only now that he's been in AA for a

few years, he is a radically different and most loveable man...and

even is very sensitive to Divinity...at least as far as a logger can

be sensitive to Divinity and still continue to cut them trees down for

a living!!..and turn landscapes into roads and landings!!

 

my dad sought help from a doctor once for depression, and my uncle

"died" of it...he died literally of a "broken heart"...Weirdly enough

it was true on two levels, physically his heart exploded..so they

couldn't patch it up!!!

and emotionally he had been broken hearted (i would call it depressed

now!) ever since his most beloved wife deserted him for a drunk...and

moved away...so when Dasji talks of family and depression and

addiction, dear brothers and sisters, he is ringing that bell at the

door of my heart...i hear Mother once again asking "Can i come out and

help you all now???" what will we answer? "no thanks i don't believe

in alternate therapy??" or "thank you Mother i'll just try this!?"

 

an hallmark of the true devotee is to be willing to grow, and to take

everything coming his way as Guru Prasad...and when such comes our way

in the lovely Guru colour of Yellow...and is an essential fatty

acid...without which the mind doesn't work

properly....hhhmmmmm....what do you think????it seems to be worth at

least checking it out! Possibly the Ishta is here providing some help

for the 'electro-mechanical' functions of the brain...such that one is

able to grow to be adorable, such that further, one may merge at last

in that Sacred Om....

 

i can see that addictive nature in myself, and i have felt quite

similar to Dasji over the years, especially when i was married,

towards the end and for a few years afer...probably if i had gone for

help to a psychiatrist, or my doctor even, i might have found myself

on the SRI's... My doctor in putting me on Ativans in 1983,

(Lorazepam...one of the benzodiazepene family, which includes Valium

and Librium) was unwittingly (for both of us!!) stimulating an

addictive behaviour in me...

 

The drug HELPED as it is a "muscle relaxant"...and my headaches were

very related to the stress of two new babies only 16 months

apart...the daily headaches began within a week of the younger child's

birth!! daily headaches..migraine types... so Ativan was very

useful...TOO useful...it worked too well...but eventually as in all

drugs, the effect wore off, and you'd have to INCREASE the dose

slightly to compensate...by the time i went cold-turkey over Labour

day weekend in 1988, i was consuming around 20 mgs a day, and you're

not supposed to be taking any more than a max of 6mg...and only that

for a short while...the usual dose is one half a miligram, or one

miligram....so this was the addict...and his withdrawal...it's

actually DANGEROUS to do what i did, and i wouldn't recommend the

method...Cold turkey is NOT the routine advised by doctors for Ativan

withdrawal..it can provoke SEIZURES!!!...but i was not so blissfully

unaware of all this potential danger...it felt very bad though, and i

was basically stuck in bed...for days and days..the whole world

speeded up, and all sensory input became UNBEARABLE...it was a very

strange experience to get myself out of the hooks of that seductive

pill...."Mother's little helpers" as the Rolling Stones used to sing

(i'm not a fan!! he protests)

 

So when i have been reading Dasji's manifesto to the world over the

last year or so, i felt that he was a "brother" to me in his

experience of the world...and that i can very well fit right into that

mold...i think it is a question of the round peg in a roundish

hole...it may help and maybe not....as it could be one of the other

imbalances....but i've ever been into experimenting with likely (or

possible) therapies...have tried St. John's Wort oil for example...

 

so i'll be undertaking this "experiment" while expecting nothing in

particular...just as experiment..and it's all useful experience

anyways!! at least i'll learn what doesn't work, if nothing good

results!

 

thank you all for the useful information...it is all useful to

consider...

 

in The Mother's Divine Love,

and in Her Service

 

as ever,

your own self,

 

visvanathan

 

Om Amrtesvaryai Namah!!