apology

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In a message dated 5/9/2001 12:01:03 AM Eastern Daylight Time,

wenvas writes:

 

 

> my heart

> is sorely bruised.

>

Wendy,

 

I am truly sorry --I did not mean to hurt your (or anyone's) heart, and I

apologize for causing you sorrow. The intent was not to personally and

viciously attack you, but to express disagreement with the "self-styled guru"

statement and to give my personal experience and perceptions. I am not good

at expressing things and apparently didn't do this right either. The whole

letter was not about, or more importantly against you--while in the postings

it is true there was quite a bit of a power struggle going on, I was speaking

in general terms at that point about power struggles ( re: outside the cyber

world) and I wasn't intending to be subtle about including myself in the part

about having "problems caused by our egos in various ways ", and jealousy,

and about love and power-over-others not co-existing well, and (wounded )

vanity. I struggle with all of that; I think most of us do; we 're all in

this world of maya. It came off sounding less "we" than was intended.

Just for the record, I am reading books on Jaimini for the learning

experience, but do not belong to anything or anyone. I rely mostly on my

own intuition and heart, but feel it's possible to learn from everyone. There

is a hunger to learn. I do believe kindness/compassion is the highest

virtue, and in defending against a particular statement my kindness was not

in evidence, and I apologize to you for causing you to feel under attack

personally. Obviously I am a clumsy writer; I hesitated to write this for

fear of misstating things and causing more stuff, but you deserve my apology

for hurting your feelings.

I don't mind a good debate, and it seems like a great learning tool; in

general I find it interesting when someone disagrees with me and explains

why; but feelings are a different matter --I am stung and sorry that you

were hurt. Your statement about your heart being sorely bruised is haunting.

Sorry,

Robin