Protection verse Service

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Hi, Das, what you wrote really makes me think. Inside, I feel that to

serve is very pleasurable, it's hard for me to even distinguish between

the two. Like I have this friend, and like 10 years ago he moved to

Seattle, he moved there to be with this woman whom he loved and he

thought she loved him too, but it wasn't like that, she treated him very

badly and he got his heart broken, came with everything, left with

nothing, risking everyrthing for love sort of ordeal. And that was

really sad to me, I always thought to myself ~`if only I knew you back

then, things would be different, because you'd have me, and I'd help

you, and you wouldn't have to go through all that pain`~ ~``sniffle``~

 

And then like a couple of weeks ago I saw this man walking on the

highway, and I thought of my friend. I usually don't pick up people,

but this time I did, it was all very spontaneous.

 

Anyways, we talked, just chit chat, and it turned out his name was John,

and my friend;s name is Jonathan, and as it also wierdly turned out, he

was trying to make his way back to Seattle and one of his buddies he

said had ditched him. So I smiled inside, and I really felt so good and

I felt like that was my chance to do whatever it was that I thought I

could do that I couldn't do 10 years ago. But, then that feeling

started fading when I thought about that experience, really when I

thought about it, it did nothing but make me feel good, satisfy soething

inside of me, it really didn't change anything.

 

Well, so that's why I think service and pleasure are confusing, and of

course I know you're service is very directly related to God, preaching

the Bhagavad Gita and Srimad Bhagavatam, helping people to see things

rightly, but mine's sort of twisted, more based on my own ego I would

say, because pleasure I think, even in a service kind of way seems very

egoish.

 

Oh, and then the masculine, feminine ~ mother, father principle, that's

confusing in it's own ways too, well, for me anyways My dad always

says ~`I honor the divine from within`~ and I always try to remember

~`honor thy father and thy mother`~ Well, they seem to be doing an

overlapping kind of thing, that's why I think it's so confusing. Well,

maybe it'll click sooner or later, thanks for the great post Angie