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Dear Mahadevan,

 

what Iswari wrote :

"..what I really needed was   surrender, acceptance, faith and the

willingness to allow Amma to heal my heart. That may

sound like a strange thing to say. If I was suffering so much, why

would I not be open to  healing? Because I had to be willing to give

up my grasping...and that took me a long time. "

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Iswari expresses so beautifully what has been my own experience with

Amma. Thank you Iswari for your inspiring post and reply to Mahadevan.

 

It is my own experience over the years of begging Amma to heal me   

( I suffer quite much with many physical health problems and

disabilities), that Amma is healing my mind, soul and spirit.

Wonderful miracles have happened in my life, that I am eternally

grateful for.............but not the physical healing that I prayed

for, and still pray for .

  I would never have wanted to miss the  many miracles that have

happened in my life, through Amma; they have been truly transforming

and I am a happier person .

 

Sometimes I still get upset and angry with Amma about my physical

problems( like for instance last night when the cramps and pain in my

leg was so bad that it prevented sleep).

Every year I go to Amma and ask Her advice on how to have better

health, and  sometimes I have been sorely disappointed over Her

answers to me.

 

But then, at the most unexpected time and moment, She has given me

such wonderful gifts.                                             

For instance, last year, for the first time maybe in

my life ( and I am 58 yrs. old) I felt that my mother ( who is in a

nursing home) really apprieciated me, was happy with me and liked the

person her daughter turned out to be. That my mother and I can now say

to each other.." I love you "... is a huge healing miracle for both of

us. This has only happened because of Amma's Great Grace. Even 6 years

ago I could not have imagined this could happen, nor did I ever pray

about it, or even think to want it to happen, as my mother and I had

had no contact for over 25 years, and as far as I knew she really

disliked me.

 

It is sound advice to go and talk to Amma about your lonliness and ask

for Her Healing Grace, and then as Iswairi wrote, be open to what

happens. We often get the healing we need, but  maybe it is not

exactly in the form we thought we wanted.

 

Thank you very much  Mahadevan for being open and sharing with us.

I pray for you and wish you the best.

 

In Amma's Love,

sarama

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Ammachi, "ammasiswari" <ammasiswari> wrote:

 

> Dear Mahadevan,

  I still wouldn't necessarily say that I have any "answers," but even

though  we are still childless, I've learned and grown so much from

this experience that I can  honestly say that I don't regret any of

what I suffered, even as I wouldn't wish it on anyone!

> Rumi once wrote that, "There is a secret medicine given only to

those who hurt so hard  they can't hope." I can attest to the truth of

this...although it's often not what you'd expect. 

Sometimes, our needs aren't what we think they are. I thought I

needed a child. While I still   hope to have a child someday, in

whatever way that may unfold....what I really needed was

surrender, acceptance, faith and the willingness to allow Amma to

heal my heart. That may   sound like a strange thing to say. If I was

suffering so much, why would I not be open to   healing? Because I had

to be willing to give up my grasping...and that took me a long time.

 

For a long time, I had this fantasy of being able to share a story of

Amma blessing us with   a child. At present, I'm not sure when or

whether that particular story will be mine to

tell....but the story that I do have to tell is a rich and miraculous

one, in its own right.

> In Amma's Love,

> Iswari

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sara <saramj33 > wrote:    "It is sound advice to go and talk to Amma about your lonliness and ask

for Her Healing Grace, and then as Iswairi wrote, be open to what

happens. We often get the healing we need, but  maybe it is not

exactly in the form we thought we wanted."

  

  Well said! In my experience, too, I have not always received what I wanted or asked for from Amma, but I have always received what I needed. In 2004 in Los Angeles, Amma said something which at first confused and offended me, but later sank in quite deeply as sublimely truthful; "We rarely get what we desire, but we will always get what we deserve." To me, this is a big hint about how to use our time in these bodies. Desires are never-ending, but if we can just keep establishing ourselves in Being, and then going out and performing action, as Krishna says in the Gita, surely grace is forthcoming, even if it doesn't take the form of our desires. In fact, I would guess that grace rarely takes the form of our desires.

  

  love,

  

  Prajna

 

           

 

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Om Namah Shivaya!

 

   I can tell what I understand. Again each person can interpret these

statements in his/her own way and how each person feels about these

statements is what matters for that person.

 

   Many questions can be made. Do you believe you can get what you

want? If your heart trusts you can get something, definitely you can

get that. And we don't have control of the 'time' which itself is a

paradox. What we desire today, we could get after one year. But in

Amma's World both the times are present. If you think you can't get

what you desire, you won't get that and you will be agitated and you

will suffer.

 

    Desire is really God knocking at our heart's door and making us to

ask Him on something. But if we are confused on a desire, we eventually

suffer which is the major cause of suffering.

 

     Every person is confused one time or the other with the ways of

the World. That is where Amma wants us to awaken.

 

              mahadevan venkitaraman

 

Ammachi, "Rachel Barrett Gallop"

<hipstorian> wrote:

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> Besides the Rolling Stones lyric, "You can't always get what you

want..."

> I find two competing phrases in my mind:

>

> a) The Guru grants the heart's desire

> b) Desire is the root of all suffering

>

> How do we resolve that paradox?

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I think that may have been "the" Buddha who taught about the root cause of

suffering.

 

Amma's taught about some desires being like a spring in a mattress -- if you

push it down too tightly it will jump back with force.

 

Just back from a few hours in Her presence.  What a royal treat.  Thank you

Amma.

 

 

 

 

 

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Om Amriteswaryai Namah.

 

The Tuesday night satsang was very large, and indeed anticipatory. Around 6

p.m. or so the word had gone out that Mother would be giving Darshan at

10:45 p.m. and that we were invited to come over to the apartment.  I heard

from some people who did go to the museum "to catch a glimpse" that there

were about thirty devotees waiting outside and she told some of them "I'll

see you later."

 

I'm not sure how many people crowded into the spacious penthouse, maybe 150

or 200 or so.  When the swamis came before Mother arrived, they had us

rearrange the furniture and the setup, so now people in the back of the room

ended up right in front of Amma's couch.  (And it was a carved wooden bench

couch like one might have in your living room.) It was a very peaceful

environment, like a museum itself with gorgeous artwork, and Amma sat in a

windowed alcove with potted plants behind Her and facing a gorgeous

full-wall screen of Krishna and the gopis.  Everyone seemed so happy to see

each other, many of us seemingly stunned or overwhelmed by the surprise of

the visit and the suddeness of the announcement.

 

By the time Amma came in (closer to 11:30+) and I could see Her form, She

was carrying a very small infant cradled against Her chest, itself covered

with a red rose mala.  After sitting and gazing at everyone's face, She

asked us "How did you all find out Amma was here?"  Huge laughter, some

shouted out "the internet," and one joking fellow behind Her said "We have

divine powers like you."  She made a funny expression that I couldn't quite

see, and looked around to see who the wise-guy was.

 

Then a very sweet Darshan began, with a child throwing her arms around

Mother, and then Prasida and then... and then Bob and his mother... and then

those friends... it felt like I knew almost everyone going up for a

blessing, albeit not by name.  And you could see such differences in

people's faces and health and circumstances over the last ten months.  The

vibe was so gentle and relaxed.  No tokens.  Much laughter.  A sort of

quiet, unreal quality to all of it even going down.

 

Niranjan offered Mother a large container of payasam, apparently without

sugar according to Amma's announcement, and She enjoyed it very much,

bringing it back to take another large spoon after the first taste.  When we

got a taste of the prasad, the sister next to me exclaimed,  "no wonder She

wanted more, it is soooo good," which I heartily agreed with.  That would be

a nice recipe to post to the files, if it's not a trade secret or

something.  Yum yum yum.

 

People chanted "OM Namah Shivaya," and then "Durga Jai Jai," and then it was

almost 12:30 and we quieted down out of consideration and respect for the

neighbors.  We were asked gently to leave after receiving Darshan, since it

was a private apartment, and so things cleared out fairly quickly.  I'm not

sure what time Mother went to Her room, perhaps around 1 or a bit after?

 

Whenever it was, I was stunned to realize I had never gone up for a hug!

Maybe this will be the summer I give up that attachment.

 

There seemed to be at least ten or twelve or more who had gone to the awards

ceremony, but I didn't get a chance to hear about the speech or any details

of Her giving darshan to people there.

 

I'm sending this off now, albeit unpolished, and forgive any mistakes or

omissions.  Love to all. Prashanti

 

 

 

 

 

Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha!

 

 

 

 

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