Guest guest Posted May 2, 2006 Report Share Posted May 2, 2006 Dear Mahadevan, what Iswari wrote : "..what I really needed was surrender, acceptance, faith and the willingness to allow Amma to heal my heart. That may sound like a strange thing to say. If I was suffering so much, why would I not be open to healing? Because I had to be willing to give up my grasping...and that took me a long time. " --------------------------- Iswari expresses so beautifully what has been my own experience with Amma. Thank you Iswari for your inspiring post and reply to Mahadevan. It is my own experience over the years of begging Amma to heal me ( I suffer quite much with many physical health problems and disabilities), that Amma is healing my mind, soul and spirit. Wonderful miracles have happened in my life, that I am eternally grateful for.............but not the physical healing that I prayed for, and still pray for . I would never have wanted to miss the many miracles that have happened in my life, through Amma; they have been truly transforming and I am a happier person . Sometimes I still get upset and angry with Amma about my physical problems( like for instance last night when the cramps and pain in my leg was so bad that it prevented sleep). Every year I go to Amma and ask Her advice on how to have better health, and sometimes I have been sorely disappointed over Her answers to me. But then, at the most unexpected time and moment, She has given me such wonderful gifts. For instance, last year, for the first time maybe in my life ( and I am 58 yrs. old) I felt that my mother ( who is in a nursing home) really apprieciated me, was happy with me and liked the person her daughter turned out to be. That my mother and I can now say to each other.." I love you "... is a huge healing miracle for both of us. This has only happened because of Amma's Great Grace. Even 6 years ago I could not have imagined this could happen, nor did I ever pray about it, or even think to want it to happen, as my mother and I had had no contact for over 25 years, and as far as I knew she really disliked me. It is sound advice to go and talk to Amma about your lonliness and ask for Her Healing Grace, and then as Iswairi wrote, be open to what happens. We often get the healing we need, but maybe it is not exactly in the form we thought we wanted. Thank you very much Mahadevan for being open and sharing with us. I pray for you and wish you the best. In Amma's Love, sarama ____________ Ammachi, "ammasiswari" <ammasiswari> wrote: > Dear Mahadevan, I still wouldn't necessarily say that I have any "answers," but even though we are still childless, I've learned and grown so much from this experience that I can honestly say that I don't regret any of what I suffered, even as I wouldn't wish it on anyone! > Rumi once wrote that, "There is a secret medicine given only to those who hurt so hard they can't hope." I can attest to the truth of this...although it's often not what you'd expect. Sometimes, our needs aren't what we think they are. I thought I needed a child. While I still hope to have a child someday, in whatever way that may unfold....what I really needed was surrender, acceptance, faith and the willingness to allow Amma to heal my heart. That may sound like a strange thing to say. If I was suffering so much, why would I not be open to healing? Because I had to be willing to give up my grasping...and that took me a long time. For a long time, I had this fantasy of being able to share a story of Amma blessing us with a child. At present, I'm not sure when or whether that particular story will be mine to tell....but the story that I do have to tell is a rich and miraculous one, in its own right. > In Amma's Love, > Iswari ---------------------------- Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Terms of Service. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 3, 2006 Report Share Posted May 3, 2006 sara <saramj33 > wrote: "It is sound advice to go and talk to Amma about your lonliness and ask for Her Healing Grace, and then as Iswairi wrote, be open to what happens. We often get the healing we need, but maybe it is not exactly in the form we thought we wanted." Well said! In my experience, too, I have not always received what I wanted or asked for from Amma, but I have always received what I needed. In 2004 in Los Angeles, Amma said something which at first confused and offended me, but later sank in quite deeply as sublimely truthful; "We rarely get what we desire, but we will always get what we deserve." To me, this is a big hint about how to use our time in these bodies. Desires are never-ending, but if we can just keep establishing ourselves in Being, and then going out and performing action, as Krishna says in the Gita, surely grace is forthcoming, even if it doesn't take the form of our desires. In fact, I would guess that grace rarely takes the form of our desires. love, Prajna Messenger with Voice. PC-to-Phone calls for ridiculously low rates. Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Terms of Service. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 3, 2006 Report Share Posted May 3, 2006 Om Namah Shivaya! I can tell what I understand. Again each person can interpret these statements in his/her own way and how each person feels about these statements is what matters for that person. Many questions can be made. Do you believe you can get what you want? If your heart trusts you can get something, definitely you can get that. And we don't have control of the 'time' which itself is a paradox. What we desire today, we could get after one year. But in Amma's World both the times are present. If you think you can't get what you desire, you won't get that and you will be agitated and you will suffer. Desire is really God knocking at our heart's door and making us to ask Him on something. But if we are confused on a desire, we eventually suffer which is the major cause of suffering. Every person is confused one time or the other with the ways of the World. That is where Amma wants us to awaken. mahadevan venkitaraman Ammachi, "Rachel Barrett Gallop" <hipstorian> wrote: > > Besides the Rolling Stones lyric, "You can't always get what you want..." > I find two competing phrases in my mind: > > a) The Guru grants the heart's desire > b) Desire is the root of all suffering > > How do we resolve that paradox? > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Terms of Service. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 3, 2006 Report Share Posted May 3, 2006 I think that may have been "the" Buddha who taught about the root cause of suffering. Amma's taught about some desires being like a spring in a mattress -- if you push it down too tightly it will jump back with force. Just back from a few hours in Her presence. What a royal treat. Thank you Amma. Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Terms of Service. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted May 3, 2006 Report Share Posted May 3, 2006 Om Amriteswaryai Namah. The Tuesday night satsang was very large, and indeed anticipatory. Around 6 p.m. or so the word had gone out that Mother would be giving Darshan at 10:45 p.m. and that we were invited to come over to the apartment. I heard from some people who did go to the museum "to catch a glimpse" that there were about thirty devotees waiting outside and she told some of them "I'll see you later." I'm not sure how many people crowded into the spacious penthouse, maybe 150 or 200 or so. When the swamis came before Mother arrived, they had us rearrange the furniture and the setup, so now people in the back of the room ended up right in front of Amma's couch. (And it was a carved wooden bench couch like one might have in your living room.) It was a very peaceful environment, like a museum itself with gorgeous artwork, and Amma sat in a windowed alcove with potted plants behind Her and facing a gorgeous full-wall screen of Krishna and the gopis. Everyone seemed so happy to see each other, many of us seemingly stunned or overwhelmed by the surprise of the visit and the suddeness of the announcement. By the time Amma came in (closer to 11:30+) and I could see Her form, She was carrying a very small infant cradled against Her chest, itself covered with a red rose mala. After sitting and gazing at everyone's face, She asked us "How did you all find out Amma was here?" Huge laughter, some shouted out "the internet," and one joking fellow behind Her said "We have divine powers like you." She made a funny expression that I couldn't quite see, and looked around to see who the wise-guy was. Then a very sweet Darshan began, with a child throwing her arms around Mother, and then Prasida and then... and then Bob and his mother... and then those friends... it felt like I knew almost everyone going up for a blessing, albeit not by name. And you could see such differences in people's faces and health and circumstances over the last ten months. The vibe was so gentle and relaxed. No tokens. Much laughter. A sort of quiet, unreal quality to all of it even going down. Niranjan offered Mother a large container of payasam, apparently without sugar according to Amma's announcement, and She enjoyed it very much, bringing it back to take another large spoon after the first taste. When we got a taste of the prasad, the sister next to me exclaimed, "no wonder She wanted more, it is soooo good," which I heartily agreed with. That would be a nice recipe to post to the files, if it's not a trade secret or something. Yum yum yum. People chanted "OM Namah Shivaya," and then "Durga Jai Jai," and then it was almost 12:30 and we quieted down out of consideration and respect for the neighbors. We were asked gently to leave after receiving Darshan, since it was a private apartment, and so things cleared out fairly quickly. I'm not sure what time Mother went to Her room, perhaps around 1 or a bit after? Whenever it was, I was stunned to realize I had never gone up for a hug! Maybe this will be the summer I give up that attachment. There seemed to be at least ten or twelve or more who had gone to the awards ceremony, but I didn't get a chance to hear about the speech or any details of Her giving darshan to people there. I'm sending this off now, albeit unpolished, and forgive any mistakes or omissions. Love to all. Prashanti Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Visit your group " Terms of Service. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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