Parthi (Mukti) Yaathralu - Parthi trips

[Guest guest]

Paramahamsa. During my 9th class and 10th class, the thoughts of patriotism,

devotion and spirituality filled and enthralled my mind. When I am going to

step into Intermediate I was asked by my father to write the entrance test for

Sri Sathya Sai Institute. The merit that I have accumulated over countless

previous births started fructifying exactly at this point. I was introduced to

Bhagavan Sri Sathya Sai Baba. I did not believe in Him initially. Dont know why

but I did not believe in Him. My father got the application form for Swami's

college. In the application form, there was a column which is something like,

"Your objective/aim in life". I wanted to write a big story there, putting all

my aspirations and inspirations. I was a bubbly young lad then...lol..... My

father dictated what I should fill there....in just one sentence - To become a

noble and worthy human being.I did not want to put the whole thing in such a

simple sentence as I thought my ideas and ideals were much higher and

complex....lol...I cannot stop laughing now when I am reminded of the mindset I

had in those days... But my father is not an easy person. It is not easy to say

no to him, I had to write what he said. Then I went and gave the entrance test

on my father's force. Inspite of all my efforts to write the exam as worse as

possible, I was selected for admission. My father was very happy while I

refused to join the institute. He said, "You are going to study in Swam's

college till post graduation. And then I want you to apply for a teacher's post

there and settle in Prasanthi. This is my prayer to Baba." '"No way!" I

shouted back. "I am going to study computers and then MBA. I want to help all

the people in need. I want money for that! I cannot become a teacher." My

father patiently replied, '"You are still a child. I am showing you a path that

is best for you. A path that sanctifies every moment of your life". I retorted

strongly, "Dad! You have always thought very less of me. I am not a silly brat

as you think. I too have great ideals. I too have noble thoughts. I too know

what is body, mind and soul...I know what is spirituality....If you want a

proof, see this..." So saying I ran and got my diary in which I made a silly

translation of a part of Sri Aurobindo's Savitri. After that, an hour of much

more senseless yap about my wonderful comprehension of human life came from my

side, all of

which could just bring a smile of utter sympathy from my father's face. He

finally said one word, 'I am sending you to the Feet Of God'. I did not listen

to him. But I knew he would not leave me without joining the school. So,

inorder to esacpe the admission date, I ran off to Tirupathi (a holy shrine and

pilgrimage centre in India) . When I came back home, the admission date had

already passed and my father was rendered helpless. I was afraid he would scold

me or even beat me. But he did not. He simply picked up one edition of

Sananthana Sarathi and showed me a poem of Swami and went away. I dont remember

the whole poem but the last sentence, I remember as clearly as sky. Because that

is the sentence which I was to repeat with eyes full of tears in the coming

days. That is: "Poyina dhorikadhu Partheesuni Paadha

Sevayandi"(meaning "Once you loose the chance of serving the Lotus Feet, you

will not get it again easily") I did not realize the truth then. I did not.

Hmmm.... When I ran away to Tirupathi to avoid admission in Parthi, I ran in

search of God to save me and lead me in future!!! I don't know if I ran

"towards" God or "away from" God!!! But Bhagawan always comes towards us,

irrespective of our direction of running. His effect still continued on me. I

managed to join a private college in my hometown itself. I still kept reading

Sanathana Sarathi and other books of Bhagavan. I dont know...I started missing

Him. See how compassionate He is! I could clearly feel one distinctive feature

in those Discourses. They were not simply words of morality or inspiration.

There is something

more in them. It is in fact the same truth that you find in scriptures, the same

philosophy, but....there is more. It took time for me to realize what

distinguishes His words, but I realized......They are the very words of God.

Yes, God Himself. Not just one time, every time I read them, I find newer

meanings. Not any meaning which I cannot correlate myself to! He speaks to me!

Directly to me. They answer my questions, soothe me and guide me. Only later, I

found that this happens to every Sai devotee - finding answers to all their

doubts in Sai literature, whenever they want, wherever they are. I learnt much

later that it is a common practise, a speical boon to all Sai devotees! All my

arrogance became ash in no time. I just could see what all I dreamt, what all I

wanted to achieve was in fact, nothing but His Love. That till then, I was just

deluding myself with many lofty ideals covered with a sense of

self-achievement. I could see a path, the Sai path that is far more nobler than

patriotism. An outlook digging into the very existence of me. An idealogy that

encompasses all the good and noble idealogies that have ever existed in the

world from times unknown. A superset of all that is pure, auspicious and

virtuous. The path that gave me a feeling which is much more than

self-confidence. Self-realization? I started reading Rama Katha Rasavaahini. I

was just crying all the while I read it. For every page, I cried. If someone of

you has not read it, I sincerely urge you to read it. You might have read many

other Ramayanas. But they are all third person narrations. This one is first

person narration. As original as it can be... A caption could have been added

to the book's title as " Rama Katha RasaVaahini - The AutoBiography of Rama". As

you can expect, Swami delineates the whole plot from the

viewpoint of Rama. It fills you with inexplicable love, bliss and faith. No

words. One day, while reading it, I got a strong impulsive desire to go to

Parthi. I took permission from college hostel and went and told my desire to my

dad. He smiled. I still remember how his eyes shone when I said I wanted to go

to Parthi. His eyes said to me, "I knew you would say this, for He promised He

would not let anyone fall away from Him...and I believed in His promise". He

assigned an uncle of mine to take me to Parthi. But through-out the journey, I

never remembered that there was another person with me. I was simply chanting

His Name continuously. I did not know how 13 hours of bus journey went by. I

was almost in a state of unconsciosuness. When I think of that journey now, I

cannot believe myself that I could feel so much of longing for Him during that

journey! As the bus entered Parthi, I felt homely. I felt its my home. The

feeling I did not have the previous time I came. I realized it after I lost the

chance of being there in His school. Friends, one moral this unfortunate soul,

would like to convey to you all through his experience is, "Friends, never ever

lose an opportunity Swami has given you. Never." I think I am like Ravana, who

gives a message to the world when he realizes his faults just before dying. But

Swami is more compassionate now than when He was Rama. He makes Ravanas realize

their mistakes much earlier, not exactly when they are about to finish their

tenure here. ...thus giving them a chance to make up for their mistakes. I

had just one day to spend there in the Divine Abode. But that was completely

and thoroughly fruitful because every moment I beholded Him, I beholded God. I

just felt God was speaking to me. He gave a Discourse that day which ended with

the Bhajan -

Sathyam Jnaanam Anantham Brahma....I remember every detail! They were not

words of inspirations but commands. Ready-to-assimilate guidelines for me. Made

specially for me. And then when Arati was being performed, I just cried and

cried. My uncle who does not believe in Swami was sitting beside me. May be he

would have felt strange, I did not care. I just cried. We came out of Darshan

and went to a restaurant. Even there, I did not speak a word to him. Actually I

am very close to that uncle. We talk a lot each other, but I did not know, I

did not care to strike a conversation. I was feeling very disinterested. And

from that Darshan, my exciting Sai journey took off. Hope I did not bore you. I

shall continue with my actual experiences of Swami's Love ( 'miracles' in common

parlance ) in my next mail. Thanks to ur patience, if you had reached till

this point. May Swami help us to make

full use of His existence amidst us. JAI SAIRAMSandeshsourced from

group/saibabanews/message/12983

Personals Single? There's someone we'd like you to meet. Lots of

someones, actually. Try Personals

[Guest guest]

Sairam partha sarathi.

Your msg deeply touched me. I felt crying with your every sentence.

Swami bless you.

Sairam

papu

-

loveall serveall

 

Monday, December 05, 2005 3:46 PM

[sBOI-post] Parthi (Mukti) Yaathralu - Parthi trips

 

Fwd:

Journeys to Parthi OR Journeys to Salvation

 

Parthi (Mukti) Yaathralu

 

Sairam my fellow flowers on Swami's Lotus Feet! :-)

[Guest guest]

feel we are made to walk in his path. My aim was to become a Software Programmer

and to work at some MNC. and help poor,to do other service.( but not interested

to earn money). But as soon as I completed my Msc, I used to get the

oppurtunities as a Teacher/Lecturer. and I am not interested in a teaching job

( one of the reasons is becoz of the stage fear,(as I feel) and the main reason

is my interest was towards Software programmer ), I never thought that I

should not do a teacher job, I would have chosen that, but the main reason is

the thoughts of all the people around us, every time they used to say to my

parents and me that " why do u people want that (high level) software job,u

must get adjusted to what ever u had." That type of words used to influence

me a lot, then I thought " why these people demand us and rule our thoughts,,

it

is not impossible to get anything if we try for it and education does not belong

to status, if some one has an aim to achieve a position in his/her life then it

can be done according to one's determination towards it." At every moment I

used to pray swami. I was taken to Parthi for seva , at his 79th birthday.It

was my first service at Swami. Before that I used to believe Swami and attend

bhajans,satsangs. But from the time of that service, I came to know the actual

path of Swami. Again I was taken ( by Swami) to service for Ugadi (in April

2005) festival. One thing I would like to say about the service at the time

of Ugadi at Parthi. Our Mandir Committee was thinking to send members for

service for the second batch but they were infomed to send the members for the

first batch We started to Parthi immediately on the day itself.As

we joined the service by one day late, we did not get the chance to serve with

in Kulwant Hall. The Organizer of Mahila Sevedal, asked me if I am interested

to serve as a teacher for the people at Deena Janodharana School. As soon as I

heard that I felt' " Oh Swami! What is this, again u are showing me the way

towards teaching," I replied them, " I cannot teach, and I haven't worked as a

teacher before" The Organizer said " Oh what is this, U need not be at teacher

inorder to do this service, Do you know who this children are, They are being

adopted by Swami and looked after by Swami with special. care, U should feel

great to get this chance. Go and do this service, U can do it" In this way,

Swami made me to do this work. I cannot explain this in words but the happiness

I felt and even I feel it now every moment , the time I spend with that

children cannot be

explained in words and I learnt a lot from them about the (Selfless)Love they

show for Swami. As I was asking Swami that I need a Software Job, at last he

gave me. But I did not realize that I am going far from Swami's place.

Unexpectedly I got a chance for a job at USA. We never asked Swami for a job at

USA, and we are not at the back of earning money or luxurious life, but as a

part of my small wish I asked him to give an oppurtunity as a Software

Programmmer becoz, I want to tell every one around us, that we can also achieve

something. We did not feel great on getting a chance to work at USA. But we (

my parents and myself) just thought only one thing " Ok now you got a chance to

work in ur interested plaform, do ur work properly and work towards Swami's

mission" Now I am at USA. But I could say that now I am realizing that

What a big mistake I have done. I could not notice that I am taken far away

from Swami's place. Just I realized it at the time of Swami's 80th birthday. My

sister chats with me every day online, as she said she was going for Seva at

Parthi for Swami's 80th birthday with all the members at our Mandir and she

used to call me from Parthi to explain each and every moment taking place at

Parthi. Since then I started to realize that if I were with my parents or at

my home , then I would have attended that auspicious event.Nothing is important

than to be with Swami and do his service. That was the time I cried for Swami

I never felt home sick though I cam this far from my parents, I had but I used

to bear it. It became unbearable for me to stay away from that event. I cried as

if for a Mother, as if I l came far from my home of

Service. Here the way of life restricts us to think about the service, we can

do the service here but inorder to concentrate on that it is taking some time.

But I could realize that We should stay with Swami to the extent possible and

nothing should be given importance other than that and we should work for him

and help him to achieve his mission instead of achieving our's Nothing is

said to be Our's, our thoughts are swami's and our life is Swami's. Just then I

decided that I must go back to Swami when ever I get a chance, as soon as

possible. I apologised Swami for my way of thinking about my career and

promised Swami that I will never ask anything further but I just want to stay

with him and to walk along the path shown by him. That's all. I had never

expressed my feel in this way, I am

not good at writing the experiences , but it is my first attempt. Hope you

share your ideas and experiences further. Sairam Swapna Ankam loveall

serveall <saiberay > wrote: Fwd: Journeys to Parthi OR Journeys to

Salvation Parthi (Mukti) Yaathralu Sairam my fellow flowers on Swami's Lotus

Feet! :-) Somehow a thought came in me to write down my Parthi trips and

experiences which I believe are the only worthy moments of my life...lol...and

I thought you might also relish those

moments in which the Cosmic Being, the Creator has showered His infinite Grace

on this hopelessly imperfect instrument of His....:-) With loving pranams at

the Lotus Feet, I briefly introduce my story to you, (though the pre-SAI period

is of no significance). The name given to me is Pardha Saradhi. My father is

an austere, disinterested and principled person. He is my first teacher. Right

from my childhood, he has taken every care to nourish good qualities in me. His

simplicity, disciplined life and above all his placid nature have set the needed

examples to mould my character. My mother is a also a very caring and loving

person. I was right from my childhood, more interested in literature than in

any other subjects. I liked poems, stories. From my 10th class, I think, I have

been into writing also. I liked to sing, entertain people. My father introduced

me to Mahatma Gandhi. I was strongly inspired by Swami Vivekananda and Sri

Ramakrishna Paramahamsa. During my 9th class and 10th class, the thoughts of

patriotism, devotion and spirituality filled and enthralled my mind. When I am

going to step into Intermediate I was asked by my father to write the entrance

test for Sri Sathya Sai Institute. The merit that I have accumulated over

countless previous births started fructifying exactly at this point. I was

introduced to Bhagavan Sri Sathya Sai

Baba. I did not believe in Him initially. Dont know why but I did not believe in

Him. My father got the application form for Swami's college. In the application

form, there was a column which is something like, "Your objective/aim in life".

I wanted to write a big story there, putting all my aspirations and

inspirations. I was a bubbly young lad then...lol..... My father dictated what

I should fill there....in just one sentence - To become a noble and worthy human

being.I did not want to put the whole thing in such a simple sentence as I

thought my ideas and ideals were much higher and complex....lol...I cannot stop

laughing now when I am reminded of the mindset I had in those days... But my

father is not an easy person. It is not easy to say no to him, I had to write

what he said. Then I went and gave the entrance test on my father's force.

Inspite of all my efforts to write the exam as worse as possible, I was

selected for admission. My father was very happy while I refused to join the

institute. He said, "You are going to study in Swam's college till post

graduation. And then I want you to apply for a teacher's post there and settle

in Prasanthi. This is my prayer to Baba." '"No way!" I shouted back. "I am

going to study computers and then MBA. I want to help all the people in need. I

want money for that! I cannot become a teacher." My father patiently replied,

'"You are still a child. I am showing you a path that is best for you. A path

that sanctifies every moment of your life". I retorted strongly, "Dad! You have

always thought very less of

me. I am not a silly brat as you think. I too have great ideals. I too have

noble thoughts. I too know what is body, mind and soul...I know what is

spirituality....If you want a proof, see this..." So saying I ran and got my

diary in which I made a silly translation of a part of Sri Aurobindo's Savitri.

After that, an hour of much more senseless yap about my wonderful comprehension

of human life came from my side, all of which could just bring a smile of utter

sympathy from my father's face. He finally said one word, 'I am sending you to

the Feet Of God'. I did not listen to him. But I knew he would not leave me

without joining the school. So, inorder to esacpe the admission date, I ran off

to Tirupathi (a holy shrine and pilgrimage centre in India) . When I came back

home, the admission date had already passed and my father was rendered

helpless.

I was afraid he would scold me or even beat me. But he did not. He simply picked

up one edition of Sananthana Sarathi and showed me a poem of Swami and went

away. I dont remember the whole poem but the last sentence, I remember as

clearly as sky. Because that is the sentence which I was to repeat with eyes

full of tears in the coming days. That is: "Poyina dhorikadhu Partheesuni

Paadha Sevayandi"(meaning "Once you loose the chance of serving the Lotus Feet,

you will not get it again easily") I did not realize the truth then. I did not.

Hmmm.... When I ran away to Tirupathi to avoid admission in Parthi, I ran in

search of God to save me and lead me in future!!! I don't know if I ran

"towards" God or "away from" God!!! But Bhagawan always comes towards us,

irrespective of our direction of running. His effect still continued on

me. I managed to join a private college in my hometown itself. I still kept

reading Sanathana Sarathi and other books of Bhagavan. I dont know...I started

missing Him. See how compassionate He is! I could clearly feel one distinctive

feature in those Discourses. They were not simply words of morality or

inspiration. There is something more in them. It is in fact the same truth that

you find in scriptures, the same philosophy, but....there is more. It took time

for me to realize what distinguishes His words, but I realized......They are

the very words of God. Yes, God Himself. Not just one time, every time I read

them, I find newer meanings. Not any meaning which I cannot correlate myself

to! He speaks to me! Directly to me. They answer my questions, soothe me and

guide me. Only later, I found that this happens to every Sai devotee - finding

answers to all their

doubts in Sai literature, whenever they want, wherever they are. I learnt much

later that it is a common practise, a speical boon to all Sai devotees! All my

arrogance became ash in no time. I just could see what all I dreamt, what all I

wanted to achieve was in fact, nothing but His Love. That till then, I was just

deluding myself with many lofty ideals covered with a sense of self-achievement.

I could see a path, the Sai path that is far more nobler than patriotism. An

outlook digging into the very existence of me. An idealogy that encompasses all

the good and noble idealogies that have ever existed in the world from times

unknown. A superset of all that is pure, auspicious and virtuous. The path that

gave me a feeling which is much more than self-confidence. Self-realization? I

started reading Rama Katha Rasavaahini. I was just crying all the while I read

it. For every page, I cried. If someone of you has not

read it, I sincerely urge you to read it. You might have read many other

Ramayanas. But they are all third person narrations. This one is first person

narration. As original as it can be... A caption could have been added to the

book's title as " Rama Katha RasaVaahini - The AutoBiography of Rama". As you

can expect, Swami delineates the whole plot from the viewpoint of Rama. It

fills you with inexplicable love, bliss and faith. No words. One day, while

reading it, I got a strong impulsive desire to go to Parthi. I took permission

from college hostel and went and told my desire to my dad. He smiled. I still

remember how his eyes shone when I said I wanted to go to Parthi. His eyes

said to me, "I knew you would say this, for He promised He would not let anyone

fall away from Him...and I believed in His promise". He assigned an uncle of

mine to take me to Parthi. But through-out the journey, I never remembered that

there was another person with me. I was simply chanting His Name continuously. I

did not know how 13 hours of bus journey went by. I was almost in a state of

unconsciosuness. When I think of that journey now, I cannot believe myself that

I could feel so much of longing for Him during that journey! As the bus entered

Parthi, I felt homely. I felt its my home. The feeling I did not have the

previous time I came. I realized it after I lost the chance of being there in

His school. Friends, one moral this unfortunate soul, would like to convey to

you all through his experience is, "Friends, never ever lose an opportunity

Swami has given you. Never." I think I am like Ravana, who gives a message to

the world when he realizes his faults just before dying. But Swami is more

compassionate now than when He was Rama. He makes Ravanas realize their

mistakes much

earlier, not exactly when they are about to finish their tenure here. ...thus

giving them a chance to make up for their mistakes. I had just one day to

spend there in the Divine Abode. But that was completely and thoroughly

fruitful because every moment I beholded Him, I beholded God. I just felt God

was speaking to me. He gave a Discourse that day which ended with the Bhajan -

Sathyam Jnaanam Anantham Brahma....I remember every detail! They were not

words of inspirations but commands. Ready-to-assimilate guidelines for me. Made

specially for me. And then when Arati was being performed, I just cried and

cried. My uncle who does not believe in Swami was sitting beside me. May be he

would have felt strange, I did not care. I just cried. We came out of Darshan

and went to a restaurant. Even there, I did not speak a word to him. Actually I

am very close to that uncle. We talk a lot each other, but I did not know, I

did not care to

strike a conversation. I was feeling very disinterested. And from that Darshan,

my exciting Sai journey took off. Hope I did not bore you. I shall continue with

my actual experiences of Swami's Love ( 'miracles' in common parlance ) in my

next mail. Thanks to ur patience, if you had reached till this point. May

Swami help us to make full use of His existence amidst us. JAI

SAIRAMSandeshsourced from group/saibabanews/message/12983

PersonalsSingle? There's someone we'd like you to meet.Lots of someones,

actually. Try Personals

Enjoy this Diwali with Y! India Click here