Guest guest Posted April 22, 2006 Report Share Posted April 22, 2006 properties. "But if one digests it i.e., overcomes it injurious i.e., lust producing tendencies it does no harm but good" was what Baba said. So at Shirdi, as long as Baba was alive I would take onion except on Ekadashi days. Q. Did Baba rub coins smooth with mantra?. Baba occasionally smashed my programmes for visiting holy places like Pandharpur. I was keen on Bhadrapad and Aswin months- especially Aswin Ekadashi at Pandharpur. In 1916, I met Nanasaheb Chandorkar at Manmad and told him I was going to Pandharpur as Bhadrapad was about to begin. He toke me however with him to Shirdi and Baba made me do 'Saptaha' and Kirtan there for a week. When I originally began Kirtans it was at the bidding of Nanasaheb Chandorkar and in Baba's Samasthan at Shirdi. In fact I had started it in the usual fashionable.dress (i.e., head gear) etc... of Kirtankars and shone hi borrowed plumes - borrowed from Chandorkar. But Baba at once objected my adopting that dress and made rne do off it. I am doing Kirtans since then in Orthodox "Dotar" (i.e., nether cloth) I was thus detained for over one month at Shirdi. Bhadrapad was gone and Aswin was to begin. I felt chagrined at being detained from going to Pandharpur even in Ashwin. N.G. Chandorkar wanted to detain me even then. I said within myself. "How is He (i.e., Baba) a Guru who blocks my way to God (of Pandharpur)"? Baba of course read my mind and told me to go away at once to Pandharpur and told N.G.C. not to stop me. So I gladly went to Pandharpur and was there for Ashwin. Baba did not grant me some of my spiritual prayers. I wanted to get Sakshatkar (i.e., vision) of the God that I worship just as Namdev and others got. So I went to Baba several times with the request that He should give me Sakshatkar. He was saying each time "Wait, Wait" Finally (probably in 1916 the above period) I asked Him "Baba you have been long putting off my request. When will you give me Sakshatkar?" Then He said "You see me. That is Sakshatkar. I am God" I replied that I expected that He would say so; but that I was not satisfied with that. I consoled myself with the explanation that my destiny did not provide for my getting Sakshatkar and that Saints could not overcome destiny. After Baba passed away, I have been seeing several Saints. But hardly any of them satisfied me. There was one that specially impressed me. Near my place - Nanded in 1919 there was a Virakta Brahmacharl staying on a rock having no possessions and caring for nothing. I saw him first, when I was performing my wife's ceremony and was powerfully attracted. As 1 went there, to take his Darshan he turned away from me and prevented my taking Darshan. This happened thrice. I was deeply disappointed, nay mortified. Anyhow, let me have the merit of feeding him. I thought, and went home, I sent up a man to that Brahmachari with food. I was agreeably surprised to leam that he accepted it. Then I was emboldened to go to him once again and I asked him why he would not permit me to bow to him and to take Darshan. He said in reply. "You call yourself a Kirtankar. Have you left off Ahankar i.e., Egotism?" mso-layout-grid-align: none">He : No. How can I ? Each man has Ahankar. Did you not feel Ahankar. when sending me food, feeling that it was you that were sending food etc.? I : Ahankar being of three sorts Satwik. Rajasic and Tamasic some sort of Ahankar would underlie all action; only the worst forms arc to be shunned. He was not of that opinion. He wanted me to drown my Ego completely. He was always reading my mind. He gave me some samples of is power. He : Are you not engaged in writing the lives of Saints? COLOR: black; LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; mso-bidi-font-family: Arial">I : Yes. Then He quoted a few lines of verse that I had just composed six days previously and not published in any way. I has taken aback by this Antaryamitva of His. Again He asked me. Did you not get Ganga water from the feet of Sai Baba? mso-bidi-font-family: Arial"> I : Yes. He : What did you do with it? LINE-HEIGHT: 150%; TEXT-ALIGN: justify; mso-layout-grid-align: none">I : I sprinkled it over my head. He : And you did not drink it, because you thought you were a brahmin and would be polluted by drinking it. Look at your Egotism. To Be contd ---DEVOTEES CAN READ THIS BOOK FROM THE BOOK SECTION OF WWW.SAILEELAS.ORG/BOOKS/EXPPART3.HTM Jiyo cricket on India cricket Messenger Mobile Stay in touch with your buddies all the time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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