FORGIVE ME MY TRANSGRESSIONS (June 1986) by P.P.Sharma

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FORGIVE ME MY TRANSGRESSIONS (June 1986)

By: P.P. Sharma

Forgive me my transgressions mostly born of my ignorance in superimposing on

You, O Limitless, the configurations of my little mind.

Failing to grasp Your Reality

transcending the three gunas when I pray and sing

attributing qualities

all foreign to what you are am I not taking liberty with you, my Lord?

Who has vision so large

as to encompass

all the Leelas you are performing

some visible, some not,

some spectacular, some common

like the light of day.

Isn't it a travesty to pickout some

and ignore the rest?

 

Enamoured of your mop of hair

the glow in your eyes

the shape of your nose

the curl of your lips

the flush on your face

the contours of your neck and arms

your cool tapering fingers

the two lotuses half-screened

by the flowing robe

(I know not when to stop in this itemization)

how can I visualize you

without form when you

yourself have come in flesh and blood,

in mortal human frame?

 

The great monkey-god Hanuman

well-versed in all the branches

of learning and replete with wisdom

cared for no other,

pined only for Kodanda Rama.

Is my offence uncondonable

if my heart is exclusively fixed

on you Shirdi Sai Rama?

Where the milk maids had failed

how dare I hope for better luck?

 

Fever raging in their veins,

they would scamper through the woods

looking for the traces left by Krishna's feet

to track him down on hill, in dale.

They would mutter incoherently while asleep

trying to seize the elusive beloved

by the trailing yellow garment.

Would you still reprove me, Sai,

if driven by madness

I run helter-shelter in search of you?

 

If I'm floundering You have to take charge

If I'm going astray you have to set me right

If I'm amidst shadows you have to lead me unto light.

O Teacher Divine

You alone know how much this pitcher of mine

will hold of the boundless deep

If you want to hold it more

You have to make it more specious.

 

 

Prof. P.P. Sharma

Indian Institute of Technology,

Kanpur 208676, UP

 

(Source Sri Sai Leela Magazine June 1986)