Experiences with Swami

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Experiences with Swami

 

Aum Sai Ram

 

I would like to give lots of Pranam to the lotus feet of Bhagwan Sri

Sathya Sai Baba.

 

I lay myself down at his lotus feet. I have found the Father, the

Mother and the Guru who is always with me.

 

The most precious thing one can have is Ananda. And that is what I

would like to share with you.

 

Baba came in my live in April 1994. It was a hard time in my life. I

was looking for a deeper meaning of life. My niece told me about

Baba and I got curious. I read a book from Hislop, `My Baba and I`.

In this book Hislop tells the reader how Baba takes someone's soul

to another planet and gives him more vital strength. That is when I

thought that no ordinary man could do this. Only God. Slowly I began

to focus more on Baba. Especially on his feet. (Nowadays his feet

mean a lot to me).

 

I began to pray every morning and every night. I prayed for over 10

to 15 minutes. I sang Bhajans. Did the Aarti ceremony, did Seva

besides my work. Now after 7 years and a lot of beautiful

experiences I donut want to think of anything else but Swamiji. I

feel Him in my heart. If I don't think of Him during the day, even

it is only for a few minutes it seems to me like I haven't even

thought of Him for a long time. I truly love him. And my heart only

wants to chant his name.

 

My friends and family didn't approve at all. They thought it was

weird that Baba was weird. They asked weren't supportive at all. But

I thought that if he was real and if my love for Him was true and

pure, he would reveal himself to me. I didn't let anyone get between

him and me. I had a lot of trouble in seeing him in other people, in

everything actually. Because I saw haw many faults I had myself and

how couldn't I than judge other people? I learned that you have to

be alert every second to make sure that nothing bad comes out of

your mouth. That also counts for anger, pride, jealousy and so much

more. Therefore I ask Swamiji everyday to fill me with his love.

 

I had a lot of experiences with Baba. But the biggest miracle took

place in myself.

 

The first time when I became aware of the fact that Swamiji is

always with me was around Christmas 1995. I stood near my son who

was sitting at the dinning table. He was swinging his chair back and

forth, up and down. My feet were under the chairs legs at the time

when my son went up. If he would have come down I would have enjured

my foot badly. This was the first time when I heard a voice. The

voice commanded me to look down. I looked down, saw that my son was

going down with his chair as well and removed my foot.

 

One time I heard a voice telling me: `Look out. Today you can get

hurt. You have to go through a small karma. You must not cross the

street where the stoplights are broken`. The voice repeated this to

me the whole day. I ignored it. When I went to work I, ofcourse,

crossed the street where the stoplights where broken. That is when a

woman on a bicycle hit me.

 

At one night I dreamed that Baba forbid me to smoke a cigarette.

Like a teacher his raised his finger at me and told me not too. I

didn't smoke that much though, in a month I would smoke two to four

cigarettes. The next day I went to visit an acquaintance. She asked

me if I wanted a cigarette. As usual

 

I forgot Swamiji`s warning and accepted a cigarette. After the

first sip it felt as if my bowels came out of my stomach. Still I

took another sip again. When I got the same feeling I immediately

stopped. Much later that day I remembered my dream. I never smoked

again.

 

One time I sat before the altar in my bedroom, and asked Swamiji if

I could come and see him in Puttaparthi. That same night he came in

my dream. My son stood next to him on the right, my daughter on the

left. He held his arms around them and he simply said: `Come`. The

three of us went to India in 1999. This was two years after His

invitation.

 

Now I would like to share with you a miracle that happened in my

house. (I live in my current house since 1993). Baba often talks

about love, that all beings are the same and we should love all. I

thought to myself: `How can I love all people if I can't even

remember all the names and forms of God? There is only one God.

Just like there is one sun. Only in every country people have a

different name for the sun. And that is also how it is for God. One

God, but a lot of different names. At first I had the following

forms of God at my altar: Shirdi Sai, Parthi Sai, Allah, Buddha,

Jesus. (I myself am a Hindu). In December 1995, at 22.30 A.M, I

spoke to Baba and said to him that Hislop had seen him in the form

of Krishna.

 

At that moment an innervoice told me to make a picture of the

altar. So I stood up, took the camera and made one picture. Than

the voice told me to make another picture. Finally after six months

I developed the film. The first picture didn't came out. Because I

was tired didn't pay much attention to the picture. Swamiji told me

to take another look I still didn't.He had to tell me this four

times when I finally looked at the picture again. I than saw a white

statue of Holy Mary. I was awake at once. I didn't have a statue of

Holy Mary. Much later I discovered that the statue came out of

Baba`s third eye.I am very happy with this picture. After all the

Lord manufactured the statue of mother Mary from his third eye!

After two months I discovered more things in the picture: the Ohm

sign, smoke appeared on a picture from the Islam. This picture shows

verses from the Koran. They say that Allah is without a form and

that explains the smoke. On my statue of Buddha I saw a bright

light. On one of his picture there is a little light spot near his

heart. This is the place where his Atma is. With this sign Baba

tells us that we all are the Atma. And that he is the `Paratma`. The

souls of souls. I also see his appearance in all the little bottles

of perfume. Which also stand on the altar. But for me the most

beautiful thing is that he has left his right Lotus foot on the

picture.

 

I hope that you understand that this picture is my most precious

possession. When I pray, I pray to this picture.

 

In the morning of 15 July 1999 I arrived at Puttaparthi with my son

and daughter. We were very tired from our journey so we rested for a

while. That afternoon I went to Darshan. It was magnificent to see

the one who lives in our heart. And than you see his body walking in

Puttaparti. The one who is always with you, your best friend...

 

Swamiji says that he has come here to give us Moksha (liberation).

But only a few of us ask him that he says. Because of this I try o

see my body as a thing. I tell myself that I`m not the body. But

that my body is a thing that comes and goes. Lives and dies. I

repeat this often to myself and hope that Baba, with his grace,

will make sure that this life is my last life on earth.

 

One time during my sleep I heared Baba saying:` I gave you gold and

jewellery` But everytime when Swamiji says something to me or warns

me I forget it. I forgot what he had said this time also. So the

next morning when I stood in the queue of the canteen and saw a

woman wearing bracelets of glass. I found it beautiful and told

myself that I would go shopping outside the Ashram after lunch. Than

I heard the same voice saying:` I gave you jewellery`. In other

words: stop being so greedy! And here I was staring at bracelets of

glass! This was for me a sign that I shouldn't run after material

things.

 

Because I was so happy with the picture Swamji gave me, I wanted to

share it with the Seva Dals and the Indian people. So I took it to

Darshan. They said that I was very religious. Why else would Swamiji

have given me this? I don't know if I am very religious. I truly

love Swamiji and try to love all he has created. The day before my

flight back home, I did the Aarti in my apartment. (I did this

everyday before I went to the morning Darshan). During Darshan I sat

with my daughter at the front row. After the Bhajans Swamiji went

back to his private rooms in the Mandir. I had to go to the toilet

and went back to my apartment. On my way back to the Mandir I heard

the voice of an angry Baba telling me: ` I send you to your room to

get the picture, and now you didn't even bring the picture with you!

`. So I rushed to my room and took the picture with me.

 

I hope that whatever you do, wherever you may be, whether you are

young or old. Please, never feel alone, lonely or not loved. Because

you are loved. Very much so. If you are looking for God he lives in

your heart. His embodiment lives in Puttaparthi.. His love is pure

and strong. He will shower you with his

love.

 

Sai Ram,

A devotee

 

Source: http://www.saibabapranam.com/