Miracles Galore

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Miracles Galore

And then He touched me...with His Miracles.

 

The sequence of events in every test always goes like this. He weaves a complex

situation which creates tension. It might involve physical or mental strain or

moral and spiritual dilemma or all of them together. He rolls me in them, tests

me in all possible ways. What I learnt was to take a step, right or wrong, but

always in accordance to what the conscience says, and then leave the result to

Him. Never to ask Him for any particular thing, but believe in Him,

unconditionally, that He knows the right moment, when to give me what. It was

the final year of my graduation. We had to apply for internships at various

companies. My CGPA (percentage) was not great. I just thought, I would be happy

if I could make it to TI (Texas Instruments) in Banglore. They pay a decent

12000 rupees per month as stipend and I thought I could buy some nice clothes

for my parents and grand-parents with that and save the rest for future. That's

the best I can do for them, who took loans and toiled for my studies.

 

I submitted my application and sat for breakfast with one of my friends.

 

"What are you expecting?", I asked him.

 

"Not TI for my CGPA of 8.5", he replied.

 

My heart dropped. If he cannot hope for TI with 8.5, how about me with a CGPA of

7.5? I felt very low. I felt all my dreams of gifting mom and grandmother

collapsing. I went to Swami. My faith was still strong. I knew He would give me

TI, if I asked for it. Yet, I did not. Rather, I could not. I just said, "Your

wish" with a smile and returned.

 

One month after, the results were announced. I did not get TI. No.

 

But I was selected for internship at INSEAD Business School in France and was

paid around 1500 Euros per month! I could repay all the loans I took for

studies and use the rest for auspicious events like marriages!!

 

What I expected was to buy a saree for my mom. What He gave me was the ability

to pay back all my loans. His Hand is always bigger than what we can ask for.

So, leave it to Him to decide what to give you. His plans are always grander

than what we can imagine. So, leave it to Him to plan your life for you.

"Adagakuve O Manasaa..." (Oh mind, do not ask...He knows what is best for you.)

Now, the college asked me to submit my passport. Actually, one year before, I

told my dad that I want to apply for passport and that I want to write GRE. He

said, "NO, You better be in India". Whatever be his reason, I did not want to

argue. I told Swami, "You ask us to obey our parents. I am doing that. Rest, I

leave it to You."

Now, after I got this offer from France, my father was happy and agreed for my

flying to France. He was happy. But where is the passport? I have to submit it

within a week days. My uncle came to Pilani and took me to the passport office.

They told it will take 15 days. The college gave me only a week!

 

Again my heart sank. But my uncle did not want to return. We were just sitting

helplessly in the office. We do not have any political/social influence to get

things done fast. We only have Baba.

 

And there comes an old Musilm man in dusted clothes and asks us, "What do you

want? Passport?".

We say, "Yes. I need it for my internship ..It's my future."

 

He grabs me by my hand and says, "The passport officer is my friend. Come, I

will introduce you to him." We met the passport officer and I got my passport

in THREE days. No one in college ever believed when I told them what happened.

Nor could I trace back the old Muslim man who came and helped me. No prizes for

guessing who he would have been.

When no one is there to rescue, God is the only rescue. Swami will not hesitate to take any form.

The last day, when my uncle is supposed to call me saying that the passport is

ready, he did not call me at all. He was alone in that city, and somehow I felt

so afraid. As usual, standing before Swami's photo, I started complaining. "Why

do You put me through all these tensions? It would have been better if I never

got this internship offer. You gave me the offer and You brought all the

worries along with it!". I was uttering them aloud to Swami's snap, not in

mind. My words did not even complete, the phone rang.

"Arey chinni, the bus was late. So, I could not call you earlier. Your passport

is ready." my uncle says on phone. I drop the phone and run back to Swami's

snap. It is now my turn to say a thousand sorries to Him for all the blame I

have put on Him, for no fault of His. It was a sweet moment when I returned to

my room. I could not look into the picture. I was feeling so guilty. For all

the miracles and favors He has done to me, what all He got in return from me is

my blame and accusing. But He maintains the same smile in His Snap. For He is

moved neither by praise nor by blame. Only love can move Him.

 

After 6 months, I came back to India for a month break. After the break, I was

on a local flight from Hyderabad to Delhi. There were some weather problems and

visibility failed, I guess. So, the plane could not land! And the fuel was

getting over. People around me started getting tensed. But somehow I could not

feel woried at all. :-) I strongly felt Swami's presence with me. I just kept

chanting SAIRAM. The plane changed the course and landed in Ahmedabad. The

confirmation of His presence continued thus.

 

One more incident again in Delhi airport. We were waiting at the airport for our

travel agent to bring our tickets. We did not get them. The plane was about to

take off in a few minutes. Everyone was cursing the agent. I was trying to call

him up but no-one was picking the phone up. I was calm but there is no time

left.

 

I said to Swami, "What a big deal! I will lose my ticket money (a 50,000

rupees), if the agent does not come. That's it right? If it is Your will, let

it be so."

 

And then I just said SAIRAM aloud and dailled the number for the last time. It

was lifted! Someone answered saying that we dont need to worry, since our

flights were postponed to evening!

 

That year was filled with miracles and miracles reconfirming His presence with

me always. There were still more subtle confirmations every now and then,

through-out the year. I will continue them in my next mail.

 

Somehow, I had always enjoyed sitting and enjoying music and imagining Swami

more than travelling. Many of my friends preferred to make best use of the

chance to travel in Europe during weekends. I used to sit with my earphones on

in my corridor or just go for walks on the tranquil village roads with my MP3

player and a paper and pen.

 

France days in my life have very fond memories with Swami's Leelas.

 

Jai Sai Mana-Mohana!

[Guest guest]

Jai Sai Ram,

Respected Sai Brother SaiSandesh ji,

 

Very happy to read your e-mail and narration of

Baba's Leelas! I just pray that we all acquire the

same tranquility during our testing time! May we all

be Blessed by Baba.

Today I was stepping out to take my husband for

his medical appointment and these words came to my

mind - Ok, Baba, you play the Dice and I will follow

the move"

WE are in Arizona where the sky is wonderful,

wonderful with fascinating colours and various types

of clouds and one has to BE here to witness Baba's

leelas in the sky and the colours that HE spreads from

his palatte.

I will be eagerly waiting for your next e-mail

showing Baba's grace upon you.

Take care.

Jai Sai Ram.

Meera

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And then He touched me...with His Miracles.