My Dearest Sai Brothers and Sisters

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SAI RAM TO ALL YOU EMBODIMENTS OF LOVE ...

 

My Dearest Sai Brothers and Sisters ...

 

I do not know how to adequately respond to the recent

string of emails claiming my sacrifices and my seva ...

I read these emails and I think to myself .. they can't possibly be speaking of

me ...?? Please no more compliments for doing my duty ...

 

I do though .. wish to make a confession to my loving

Sai Family ... and I hope that you will for a moment indulge me... so that maybe

you will understand.

 

There is NO NEED to EVER thank me for what I do for the prayer list .. nor do I

consider my seva any special feat or act of heroism ... I do not do it for

solicitations or praise ..

 

I do it literally ... because I love you all ....

 

AND ...

 

because I asked God for some small seva that I could do as a householder and a

mother that would help me to overcome my anger and my pains from my

childhood...

 

I prayed for years .. For Swami to give me some small way... to serve you all and to serve him ...

 

That would ONE .. NOT feed my ego ..

TWO ... would help me to give love to those who need it

THREE .. would help heal my heart and make me more compassionate towards my

fellow brothers and sisters.

In short .. make me more loving ...

 

I HAVE SO MANY FAULTS ... I WEEP AT THOUGHT...

 

Please understand .. I grew up in a household that was deeply destructive and

abusive .. My mother has been mentally ill my entire life ..

 

As soon as I was born .. my mother and fathers marriage deteriorated due my

mothers worsening mental condition .. she became literally a fanatically

religious paranoid schizaphrenic ...

 

She feared and hated God ... She felt that the ONLY way she could save herself

from her demons was to constantly

'Pray for Protection'.

 

She used to wake up screaming in the middle of the night and my childhood

memories are of me as a little girl ... consoling my trembling Mother, brushing

her hair, singing her to sleep and telling her that were NO monsters under her

bed trying to kill her.

 

She used to get me up at 4 am as a small child and make me recite the Lord's

Prayer out loud 500 times before she would let me go to school because she told

me if I didn't God would smite me and I would die. When I came home from school

I had to do the same thing before I could go outside to play. We would argue

often about this .. for I refused to believe that her version of God was true

... I knew in my heart .. that God was loving .. I just couldn't .. find him.

 

My mother suffered endlessly from her demons when I was a child .... This was

terrifying as a little girl and it was deeply confusing ..

 

How could God .. who makes such beauty in the world .. be so cruel or mean?? I

did not believe it .. I could not believe it to be true ... These were my

childhood thoughts ...

 

As I grew older .. it was PEOPLE whom I began to fear and despise ... This is a

true confession .. I was so angry in so many ways ... and the angrier I got the

farther God seemed from me.

 

When I first started reading about the lives of saints .. though I didn't like

the idea of religion itself .. I LOVED and deeply ADMIRED the lives of saints,

how they lived simply and more importantly .. how they prayed and drew strength

from God deep within themselves when everyone else had abandoned them or when

others were abusing them ...

 

I know this feeling very well .. I have endured it many times in my life .. and

I have deep empathy and compassion for anyone who suffers this kind of pain and

misery.

 

Do not thank me .. for doing this seva .. do not praise me or emulate me ...

 

For through the gift of this seva .. that Sai has so wonderfully blessed me with

and you all so wonderfully support me in ... Please know ... that It is you all

... who have saved ME..

 

 

The act of praying .. connects me to God .. the act of giving .. heals my heart

of pains and angers past ...

the very idea ... that I am some great soul ... is not true ...

 

For it is only through Sai and through you .. that I have been given my own salvation ...

 

***

Though weary and tired

I struggle in the night

and the desert winds

blow endlessly

all hopes from my sight

 

In God on high

I will hold unto tight

 

For his grace moves me

each step ... he guides me

 

and with his love

in the depth of the darkest frights

 

I see his love surround me

as the shining stars fill the coming night

 

And in him ..

I know in all certainty

 

That my rising dawn is not far away

 

***

 

My love to everyone ...

Your Sister in Sai always

Humbly .. very humbly ...

Melody

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cs rao <mrcsrao

Fri Jan 13, 2006 0:50pm

Re: [saibabanews] My Dearest Sai Brothers and Sisters

 

Dearest Sai Ram Sister,

We respect your feelings and we respect you for coming

through trying times, especially as a child.

Swami's Blessings are always with you.

csrao

 

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"saijyoti - viswanath" <sai_09v

Fri Jan 13, 2006 0:06pm

Re: [saibabanews] My Dearest Sai Brothers and Sisters

 

sairam sister melody,

 

Reading your letter brought tears to my eyes.I will only ask swami

to bless you and give you lots of strength for the service you are

rendering.

 

take care,sairam

sailove,saijyoti

 

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"R R" <radheyr

Fri Jan 13, 2006 10:36pm

RE: [saibabanews] My Dearest Sai Brothers and Sisters

 

Om Sai Raam....Sister Melody...

 

You are truly embodiment of LOVE....You are love itself!

 

May Swami continue to bless you and those around you, may Swami

forever guide you...

 

For Swami is the Eternal Absolute!

 

You are the spiritual director...a small part but huge

offering...Spiritual direction is the contemplative practice of

helping another person or group to awaken to the mystery called God

in all of life, and to respond to that discovery in a growing

relationship of freedom and commitment.

 

Spiritual direction is, in reality, nothing more than a way of

leading us to see and obey the real Director — the Holy Spirit

hidden in the depths of our soul. That omnipresent, omnipotent and

omniscient lord of all lords...through your kind efforts...

 

Thank you for sharing your experiences with your Sai Family....

 

Lots of love to you...

 

[ ®Åе£¥]

 

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Dahyabhai Lalbhai Patel <dlpatel

Fri Jan 13, 2006 11:55pm

Re: [saibabanews] My Dearest Sai Brothers and Sisters

 

Sai Ram, Melody

You have touched our hearts. Please do not despair. God may have

given you tough times but we feel His intention could be that you be

a bright shining star of this day and for all of us. We are grateful

to Swami for having amongst us a hardworking , considerate, caring

and loving person who is willing to sacrifice so much time and

effort for the betterment of us all. We are proud of you Melody and

pray to Swami to bless you more.

Sai Ram

Dahyabhai Patel

Auckland, New Zealand

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

saibabanews, "Melody McClarty"

<blngs2sai@t...> wrote:

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> SAI RAM TO ALL YOU EMBODIMENTS OF LOVE ...

> My Dearest Sai Brothers and Sisters ...

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OM SAIRAM MELODY,

Sharing your story with us shows that you really feel us as brothers

and sisters. What a generosity ! I wanted to say many many compliments

to you but I know you dont like it. So I have only to say that I

LOVE YOU and THANK YOU. Your story will help many many others to GO ON

their lives with Baba's guidance.

IRENE/Shantimika

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When I´ve read this

 

"Please know ... that It is you all .. who have saved ME.. "

 

I had tears in my eyes. Before such a pain in your past that could have guided

you to a bitter character, no, YOU HAVE CHOSEN GOD AND LOVE and it just make

you more divine to us all thank you for sharing your seva to us all, Sai

children.

 

Love,

 

 

Jai Sai Ram !

Meerabai

 

http://0saibhakta.multiply.com

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caught my attention. I saw ADD/ODD/ED/LD among children who were verbally

abused, physically abused and sexually assaulted. They are the examples of

living Dead at times. Lost in the world to confusion and self rejection. Acting

out of teh brain stem but not from the NEO CORTEX. There is a very strong back

ground that will take a book to express my experiential learning about the

selfishness in the society and the individual, who is a biological Unit of the

society. I personally was a giving person only focused on helping the needy and

never looked at my personal financial or societal benefit. Never accepted any

positions offered in any community or spiritual organization, but felt as a

duty for being a human to help other human beings. I to this day is a victim of

emotional,

financial and personal exploitation and abuse. People used me for the benefit

of getting Visas, education, certificates, shelter and so on. After getting

what they can get, start the scheme for back stabbing. Still happens. I was

very angry, as the cheater gets the upper hand as they are polished on their

outer appearances. For me being one on the inside and being the other for teh

materialistic world is HYPOCRISY. I still can not do that. I SHALL ALWAYS BE

TRUTHFUL. I was getting ideas to be like Demoniac RAVANA, when Swami pulled me

into his FOLD. In the first Interview, 1988, July 5th, he looked at me and said

"Why one should be angry, when one does the right thing. Be detached to the

wrong doing of the others. In God's directory the rightful

person gets a check mark and a "X" (Fail) mark for the wrong doers. That can not

be escaped". He made gestures with his hand about the check mark & the "X" mark.

This does not mean that GOD will look at the bad differently. He is the eternal

witness who assigns the KARMA that is DUE. He will be indifferent and will not

take any one side. KRISHNA stayed with Arjuna secondary to his DHAARMIC nature

and TRUTHFUL nature. I became crazy about his teachings. Seeing the scarred

hearts of the children became a second nature. Wanting to share Swami's love

and taek it to the communities in USA through schools, day care centers and teh

SAI CENTERS became a personal craze and a vision for me. Knower of all, Our SAI

KRISHNA, did give me the boon of The SAI Institute Of Educare to me in USA,

March 16th, 2002. He will guide and take the work to the communities, so that

every house holder will benefit from his teachings.

I eagerly await that day, when scared and broken hearts like Melody's will

benefit from Sai love through the Public School System and the community

support systems without any effort on their part. SAI LOVE is the respite for

overcoming this scarring effect and the "HEART BY PASS" the children

experience, in similar situations . We now know that the GENES have nothing to

do with the emotional disorders, as long as the environment is stable.

Schizophrenia may be an exception. Experience that nurtures the NAture of teh

CHild with love and discipline in the first 5-6 years is teh source of Golden

Age Of Sai. This can only happen through Intensive education of teh mothers

even prior to marriage and child bearing. I have many victims of abuse who

were called AUTISM SPECTRUM disorder or PDD who improved through extensive

parenting EDUCARE type of

coaching and SAI EDUCARE for home practice in child rearing practices. I can

feel the work that is offered by sister Melody is coming from Love, Sympathy

and empathy. The richness of Swami's love passed on through his instruments is

THE TRUE SAI EDUCARE in the current society. It is not a structure or a

building, but a walking selfless Temple. I will attach a sharing from my parent

surrogates who grew up in the cycle of violence. How SAI LOVE and SAI LENS

taught them to not dependent upon drugs. I wanted to share my feelings as I

still go threough abuse by the society but I endure it In SAI LOVE, FOR LOVE,

WITH LOVE, TO LOVE and IN LOVE. Thank you fro reading my feelings and an

opportunity to share

Feelings fro Swami's Mission and Vision Meena Chintapalli

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Dearest Sister Meena

 

I was SOOOOO HAPPY .. to read your post!!

 

This is a Topic ( though I rarely write to the group about things unless its

about the prayer list or I'm asking a question )... this is a topic

that is REALLY where I come from and where I live .. Everything that you

describe Meena .. I too have come across .. I was so angry at peoples

hypocrasy .. thier dishonesty ... my so called friends and even spiritual people

would use me for what they needed .. but they would do it in such a way that

they were so polished on the outside ....

 

It took me a long time to really understand this behavior .. I personally worked

and did everything from a place of genuine caring and wanting to help .. I

believe that the truth should ALWAYS come first .. no matter what .. we should

not speak the truth only when it is convenient to us. Swami has taught me that

If you protect Dharma .. then Dharma will protect you .. I live by this creedo!

I will not forego the truth to take the easy way .. BUT .. how to do this with

compassion?? Some people are blantantly 'Demonic' for lack of a better

description .. they have no virtues .. no truth .. they are selfish to the

extreme and see absolutely nothing wrong with thier behavior or how they hurt

others ...

 

Being an Aries fire sign in astrology .. it was very hard when I was younger not

to take the stance of a warrior .. but I soon realized that not everyone need to

be 'Smited' so to speak and that God alone knew who would or wouldn't be

punished for thier misdeeds ... It has been many years of tremendous humility

building on Swami's part for me to get even remotely a sense of calm tranquil

detachment .. Experience is always the best teacher.

 

There are people in this Kali Yuga age that through thier vasanas attract very

dark things to them ... They function entirely from a warped or selfish

perspective .. the best guide and light on the path .. is to follow and stick

to the dictates of Dharma ALWAYS... because these people are focused and adept

at trying to lead you off the path .. just because your on a path! There are

many emotional, physical and financial vampires out there and it being the Kali

Yuga .. they thrive in this environment ...

 

My husband and I have been togeather since high school .... we have been

togeather for 26 years .. of which we have been married for 21 years.

We have 3 children .. Our first son .. Aeron ... is 16 now .. but was born

Autistic .. He had no eye contact and no responses .. He was 3 weeks late and

the Placenta had seperated .. Due to Doctor negligence .. he and I both almost

died due to internal bleeding .. When Aeron came out he was a whopping

24 inches long and 12 lbs at birth .. HE IS A BIG BOY!! LOL none of my other

children are this big but he is and has always been big .. But this biggness

was very difficult for him as a child for it took far longer for his body to

get the strength for little things like crawling and walking ... He also was

born with

a Hydroseal ( a pocket of reoccuring fluid ) on his testicles and he had a

double hernia .. so at 3 months old he was in surgery and sick for about the

first 1 1/2 of his life ... during this time .. I had to drive all the way to

Boston once a week to take him to the Childrens hospital .. It really wasn't

until he was about 2 1/2 that we were really sure that something else was wrong

with him ... we took him to a nuerologist and they diagnosed him as Autistic/PDD

...

Pervasive Development Disorder .. They told us that he would probabaly never

live on his own .. never speak or dress himself and that he would never

go to main stream school .. At this time Aeron started having severe and almost

debilitating nightmares which he couldn't speak to us about yet because he

really didn't know how to talk ...

 

When this diagnosis came to us from the doctors .. for we got several opinions

... my husband went into shock about it .. blaming himself I guess and it was

very hard for him to accept that his first child was like this .. My reaction

... was A- typical Aries ... I told them all to go to Hell .. that in my

personal

opinion Western science was in its infancy at best .. and it wasn't the only

medical system in the world .. They wanted to put him on Ritalin and number

of other hard core chemical substances to make Aeron socially acceptable ... I

told them that his mind was just growing and if they couldn't tell WHAT

EXACTLY was wrong with him .. how the HELL could they possibly know that this

stuff would HELP HIM .. and I most certainly wasn't interested in just

making him socially acceptable .. I wanted him BETTER!! They told me that he

would never BE better .. and I told them that they were WRONG!

 

Anyways ... this started a whole new direction in my life .. I gave up my career

at NSA .. National Security Agency where I had worked after getting out of the

Army .. I was in Army Military Intelligence and traveled the world ... BUT God

had different plans for me and I am so thankful .. because I would not

be the person I am today if I hadn't left that life behind me .. and nor would

my son be who he is today ...

 

When I came home to be a wife and mom .. which was virtually unheard of at that

time .. for all women were basically working unless you were either very very

rich or very very poor. When I came home to be a wife and mom .. it was hard

for me emotionally .. but I started studying all I could on holistic medicine

.... on Autism .. PDD .. ADD .. ADDH and so on ...

 

I can tell you right now .. with all certainty from experience .. that thier

home environments .. MAKES A HUGE DIFFERENCE in thier growth and thier disorder

...and that it DOES change over time .. it is not set in stone .. like a person

who is born blind or born with a missing limb.

 

These kids are HIGHLY empathic .. they need to be taught all the social cues

...and many parts of thier problems are a direct result of confusion

due to a conflict in cues ..meaning thier taught to read facial cues but thier

bombarded by unseen emotional empathic responses that they can't

process or filter out .. they literally cannot read the difference of thier own

feelings and someone elses .. thier like sponges ..

 

They need a STABLE LOVING ENVIRONMENT with a strict adherence to structure and routine ...

They need to be out in Nature daily .. for Nature is God's own stress reliever

and filter to negative Ions and Negative emotions ...

 

They all have sleep disorders that are usually never addressed and half thier

symptoms can be directly related to the sleep disorder alone ...

When you fix the sleep disorder you can actually eliviate a number of thier

symptoms and get to a base line of thier personality and thier problems.

 

Each one of these children is DIFFERENT! .. They are all gifted in one way or another ....

Almost ALL of these kids have a deficiency of a vitamin or mineral ...

 

A really good multi vitamin and mineral daily is essential ...

They all have bowel problems which leads to certain toxicities in thier systems

and thier brains .. so foods geared to keeping thier

blood and thier colons clear is really important as well ... Apple juice ...

ect... If you can introduce fresh wheat grass juice with like V8 as well

you'd be AMAZED at the clarity that returns to these kids!!

 

talking to them about thier dreams and giving them a VERY VERY safe emotional

place with a steady routine and structure gives them stability

and safety ... it tremendously relieves thier stress, fears and anxieties ...

 

Hands on things ... crafts that are simple .. or living animals .. puppies,

kitties, horses .. are truly a wonderful balm for them .. because Animals

help ground and diffuse the emotional bombardments they feel empathically and psychically ...

 

Positive verbal reinforcement verbally .. from others and for themselves ..

helps to reprogram negative tape recordings of debasement these kids seem to

have in thier heads ....

 

Many of these children avoid eye contact .. not because they can't look you in

the eyes but literally because .. the eye is the window of the soul and when

you connect with someone in thier eyes .. you can really connect and read them

emotionally .. thats if your healthy and normal .. a SENSITIVE would

been blown away with that kind of contact .. and if they can't understand it,

read it or filter it .. then they at least know instinctively to avoid it!! So

they

AVOID eye contact ... when they are grounded and recovering and desensitizing ..

you would be amazed on how this no longer becomes an issue for them.

 

Going to bed at the same time every night is essential to get them to

reorientated thier sleep clocks in thier body .. Melatonin is excellent to help

them replace the seratonin levels in the body .. its non addictive and not

harmful in any way .... These kids wake up every two hours because they

never get real REM sleep ..and over time even in a healthy person this can cause

psychosis which if unchecked in a young adult .. will development into severe

emotional problems and behavioral issues ...

 

At night .. they should listen to soothing music as they go to sleep .. to

offset thier racing minds and to prevent nightmares ...

I personally use the Mrutanjaya Mantra sung by Sri Karunamayi .. the vibrations

are a mantra of Lord Siva that can be sung out loud and help

clear, heal and strengthen the aura .. not too mention keep icky things away

energetically ... So my son Aeron goes to bed surrounded in

a coccoon of soft loving vibrations ...

 

ALL of these kids have a severe VATA imbalance ... something as simple as

Maharishi VATA tea .. can greatly improve them over time .. if given

to them daily.

 

Lavender and Almond massage oil .. can help tremendously with thier tactile

dysfunctions and hay wired sensations they get through thier skin.

TOUCH is very grounding and important to them .. even if they complain they

don't want to be touched .. then they need to have a massage oil

that helps to deaden the annoying sensations they feel through thier skin so

that they can be touched and desensitized to thier negative feelings

through the skin .. some of these kids hate the feeling of certain clothes or

fabrics or even furniture ...

 

THESE kids NEED constant work and support to really improve .. Parents in this

society are in NO WAY prepared or able to handle the work and stress involved

.... especially when thier whole focus is that they NEED to have two people

working so to get more monetary THINGS!! ...

 

My husband and I have learned .. through Aeron .. that it is the FAMILY unit

that is essential to bring back humanity .. to humanity!

In the old days .. Dharma was taught to everyone .. through Tribal or Natural

Law .. this gave everyone an emotional safe zone and structure and support that

is essential to any and all happy life....

 

Emotional imbalances and behavioral issues start in the home .. and then outward

into society .. America is a diseased society .. My husband and I fight daily

with something as simple as my 12 year old son who wants to go over a friends

house .. and yet the friend is allowed to swear constantly .. watch horror

movies or treat women in a demeaning fashion ..... I mean all of our children

are surrounded with destructive behaviors .. The school systems are a complete

manifestation of dysfunction and thier breeding intolerance, arrogance,

selfishness and so much more ... I have personally fought with the school

district for years over getting a program for my son Aeron .. I have threatened

them to the highest courts to follow through and had to hound

them like a dog to the point of having to sit in the class room on a daily basis

until they complied ....

 

My husband and I are committed to living simply and green conciously ... Finally

Swami has blessed him with a job that will help us do this ...

The company itself is helping the environment and very open minded and earth and

society concious .. They are activists in creating community in thier area which

is why my husband and I are hoping to move in the next year or so to Vermont ..

Though we'll still keep the house in New Hampshire ..

we want to build a holistic self sustaining household .. and our kids are wholly

involved in this ... We teach them .. to make good choices .. Swami's

teachings have the ability to heal and give humanity back to humanity .. I've

watch it do it to my sons and my husband and myself ...

 

I have watched Swami's teaching heal in many many ways .. and I can't believe

how blessed we are to be here ... living in this era when he

is here walking the earth .. Though I wish that I could just be in Puttaparthi everyday!!

 

Anyways .. I think I've babbled enough .. Sorry .. I guess Meena .. you hit

something that I can talk for days about!! LOL

My best wishes and love to everyone ...

Your Sister in Sai Always

Melody

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5 senses with rich sensory experiences through Swami's program is palliative to

curative.. Very preterm 24 week fetuses that survived, are going to regular

schools in my practice through SAI EDUCARE parenting to enhance parent bonding

and love before the critical 3 years. There is so much that we can do by taking

this program to day care centers and public schools. Please visit teh web site

www.uth.edu/tececds/ Please go to Go to search for trainer and scroll down to

my name and click to see the courses that can be offered. CEU's can be given for

these courses. The program should impact before the end of 2007. I am impressed

with your knowledge on the matter. Have you visited William's (Spencer) web

site. HE

is an Autistic savant. I met him in Laredo. HE is making GPA of 4.2. He is a

senior at KAty High School, a Houston suburb. I will give his web site and I

think the address is at my office. Every child can improve. Hope to meet you

sometime and chat and exchange experiences. In Sai Service Sister Meena