Guest guest Posted September 10, 2005 Report Share Posted September 10, 2005 Let me share my personal experience with you.....I started deeply praying to swami in 1990 for a problem i had. I had gone from pillar to post before i was reminded about swami! I mean, when i was about 5 or 6 baba had come to Kampala, east africa....i remember standing in a crowd of people and someone giving me vibhuti in my hand. Since this contact with baba.....i was "reminded" about baba in 1990! (long time hey!)... Anyway...i continued to read books about baba to learn more and more....I remember my first book was Tranformation of the heart...... I started to have dreams galore of baba....one of the dreams baba asked me "when are u coming to see me?!"...i was in high heaven....BUT i did not realise the value of the gems he was giving me! I remember meeting a lady called margaret...she told me...Bakula, u r so lucky having dreams of swami...remember to cherish these and write them down...for u know not when they will stop! Ah! that's jealousy i thought! Baba will never stop letting me have dreams!!! I enjoyed a journey to beloved baba in 1991, went with my mum....swami totally blanked me! He did not even take a letter from me....After all the dreams and asking me to come here...why is baba ignoring me! Sad but not sad (as i "knew" i was coming back)..i left parti without even one look from swami.... 1992...went to parti with a group of 9 from manchestr.....Barbara was the leader.....I still had frequent dreams from swami.....but my mind was even more confused!! We were called in for that most wanted and most precious gift...interview...baba gave me some very direct answers and very direct questions! Blessed and in the highest of high heavens i was! Today Alexandra....i have not had a dream of swami(apart from one)...since then.....In between i have felt that swami is very far away from me....I have not had any direct or indirect communication.... HOWEVER, IF I WAS TO THINK OF THE TIMES I HAVE BEEN SAVED FROM EVENTS OR ACCIDENTS OF LIFE ETC....THEN I WILL SAY THAT BABA HAS ALWAYS BEEN WITH ME...IT IS ONLY I THAT WAS UNABLE TO RECOGNISE HIM......BABA tests....... Do not give up...do not feel hurt and please do not stop thinking of him...he will surprise u soon! I pray for this..... Baba....continues to look after us and guide us...a couple of days back i had a strong inner urge to write to swami...as soon as i put pen to paper...things started to work out one by one...i feel that closeness to swami...i know that he is guiding us as we sppek right now.... Hope this "little" expereince has helped a little and i pray from my heart that swami leads you even closer to him and quickly! love bakula xreikiacademy <reikiacademy (AT) earthlink (DOT) net> wrote: Dear Friends:I am most curious to know if anyone feels that Baba withdraws his personalattention/communication from us at times. ..... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 10, 2005 Report Share Posted September 10, 2005 Sai Ram Alexandra, Here is a possibility to consider: As we all know Baba never "leaves" us, his presence is constant within us every second of the day and it can never be otherwise. Perhaps you are actually graduating to a higher level of awareness in which you and Baba become One. He ultimately leads all of us to the place where there is no "other" and we are completely merged with him. Therefore he may be nudging you to no longer look to him as separate from yourself, as a separate being that you need to ask for guidance. Perhaps he wants you to experience your own inner Divinity (which is the very same as Him!) and not see him as outside of you. He may be helping you to develop trust in your own inner voice and wisdom as a stepping stone to full realization of yourself as God. I also have noticed times when he would not give me an answer to a big dilemma, and that was because he wanted me to arrive at the answer myself through life experience because that is how I would learn the most. Always know that he is RIGHT HERE inside of you and is aware of every little thought that flits through your mind, every concern no matter how minor, because in fact you and he are the very same being, experiencing life together. I hope these thoughts are helpful, Love, Laura Brainard ************************************** Message: 4 Fri, 09 Sep 2005 21:32:02 -0700 reikiacademy <reikiacademy (AT) earthlink (DOT) net> Baba, Baba , wherefor art thou?! Dear Friends: I am most curious to know if anyone feels that Baba withdraws his personal attention/communication from us at times. ..... Attachment: (Image/jpeg) classic_border03.jpg [not stored] Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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