From Bakula ....another one of my experiences....of ego battle!!

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You know, i get and "inside" feeling that swami knows who is writing and who is

reading on this forum!

Needless to say that my baba is probabluy smiling, if not laughing at some of my moods!

 

Anyway, here i go angain....need to share an important experience with you.....

 

I have shared many very personal experiences with you all and trust that

someday, somewhere, someone will find inspriration in them to chat to baba and

get answers.....I mean "chat" within your heart...inside the space that is

hurting in that moment in time.

 

My honest belief is that we should not JUST ask baba for this and that BUT..go

and share with him ALL our daily experiences...go into that space and tlak to

baba..he listens and responds...i know!....sometimes i get my doubts...but he

soon dispells those and reminds me of the "monkey" mind!

 

Anyway, with god's grace and because of past experiences...i have always known

that deep down if u want to achieve something...you can! if u believe u can...u

can and if u believe you can't...then u can't!

 

I prayed deep within to baba...i had a desire to present on radio! I asked

swami...actually, to be honest-i do not remember word for word...but i asked

swami to guide me...i asked swami to "allow" me to be on this (what i

considered to be the best asian radio station in the world!)...based in London

and very well known.....I knew that they did religious programmes early sunday

morning....

My age (now 44 years!) was against me....because as the mentality is with

most....after a certain age...no!no! ffor media!!

My background is not media but i love the arts....

 

Guess what! I got a call from the programme controller and was accepted to do an

early morning saturday night shift! 3am-6am.....very early! I presented the

bollywood show.....

This was August 2003.

As october approached, i was frantically praying to swami....swami please please

please allow me to present a programme for your birthday....please swami!

I then approched the Prog Controller and he said i will think.....i asked if i

could presnt an hour of bhajans and bits about baba on sunday morning religious

hour where normally bhajans are played anyway!

 

He came back to me about 2 to 2and a half weeks before the scheduled date and

said ok! u can do a programme about sai baba, he said keep it short and simple

in links(talking)...mainly bhajans and nothing contraversial...he said i too am

a follower of swami!!!

 

Oh baba! thank u thank u thank u!!!!!

I got in touch with the satya sai book shop in kingsbury london... They were

ever so helpful......gave me cds of latest beautiful bhajans and helped me with

infor on swamis projects...water,hospital schools etc....

The programme was kept simple but full of genuine non-controversial info played beautiful bhajans.

I wanted to get the birthday messege to be aired but was not able to do this.(swami's wish).....

 

I was on cloud 9! i was able to do the lord's work....

 

Later on, i was given an afternoon shift doing bollywood stuff....prime

time...and of course ego....my companion......was in control! i was so so full

of myself! here i was at the age of 44 on radio!! oh! full of

bigheadedness....then u know what happended next don't u!

 

I was due to go to my shift at 12 midday saturday...i got an email on friday

7pm...."we have had a re-scheduling of programmes....do not go to your 12 noon

shift until further notice but u may continue with the early morning shift

!"....

Was swami bringing me back down to earth???!!!!

 

Anyway, july last year i quit the radio as those timings were not helping my health!!

Important to note!

 

Swami will grant you what u desire and ask for but but but be careful what u ask for....

I had a chance to ask swami for oneness with god(himself)...what did i do?

Swami! i pray for another chance to be asked!!

Sai ram

bakula x

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om sai ram

oh!u are under the care of our beloved swami.Infact we

all are.His care only gives us the best

comfort,happiness and peace.Nothing in the world has

the ability to keep us at peace.

with love and light

sai ram

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I do agree with u that we must be careful of what we ask of our desires to Baba.

Our desires too must be relevant and a neccessity to our lives.Foolish or

unimportant desires will only bring abt unwanted consequences that are

undesirable to our lives. I have a few experiences of praying for such desires

to be fulfilled. Some were granted, some were not. I belief that those granted

was only becos' of the earnest and endless cries and prayers. It is all so

sweet at the start but temporary. Such desires have bad side effects which drag

us to bad consequences. And in those hard times, its only the compassionate

mother,Sai who takes pity on us and lifts us up again and again from such

faults foolishly and ignorantly commited by us.

Nowadays, I strongly leave it to Baba. We should let Baba take full charge of

our lives. Let only Him to plan our uncertain futures. I guarantee u that

Baba's strategies,planning and management with regards to our lives would be

beautiful and wonderful, and one that is beyond our imagination and

expectation! All we have to do is obey His words and one of which is constant

Namasrama.

 

Love all,Serve all

Anita Sakthi

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Here is a very funny Baba leela story about desire. One year at my birthday I

was thinking that one day to celebrate a birthday just wasn't enough and I

wished that I could celebrate my birthday for a whole week at a time (I'm not

greedy;))! Well, everywhere I went that week amazingly someone was having a

birthday and so I would get a piece of birthday cake. By the end of the week, I

was thinking, gee I didn't realize celebrating my birthday was going to get me

so much birthday cake when I made that wish! Boy was I sick of birthday cake by

the end of the week. Only Baba could arrange such a funny. It brings me great

joy to think about that but it also taught me a lesson about being careful what

I ask for lest I should get it!

 

 

saibabanews,

Anita Sakthi <nit552000> wrote:

> Sai Ram Bakula and sai families,

> I do agree with u that we must be careful of what we ask of our

> desires to Baba......