Loving God

[Guest guest]

Sai Ram All ,

 

I was reading all about Love and Swami's 80th day Birthday celebration

experience which was pouring from our brother's and Sister's.

 

Love for Swami is just Divine Love which is totally inexplicable which can take

place only by His grace. Meerabai , Chatanya Mahaprabhu , Ramkrishna Parahams,

Radha all had experienced this love ,and they use loose their body

consciousness craving for this Love.

They want their beloved nothing else, Chatainya Mahaprabhu use to cry out

eveyrday and use to wander in the streets of Jagannath- asking every one - Have

yu seen my little Krishna?

same with Ramkrishna crying loudly for Mother Kali- Radha use to pine for

Krishna so much that sometimes she use to utter have you seen my Radha? How can

you measure their Love- so pure Love for their Beloved Lords ,it goes to such

extent that they were ready to shed their mortal coils.

 

Well this kind of Love developed in me for Swami ,no barriers could stop me and

I use to go every year to Parthi to see my Beloved Swami and have His

Darsan,sparsan and Sambhasan(as if Swami use to pull Me).

 

How can I describe those moments? my heart use to pound for Him and use to pray

-please Swami look at me- why you are so far away from me ,you are always with

scholars ,rich and famous- then I use to have His Darshan in the Bhajan hall

front row just behind the students, and His sudden burst of laughter,His finger

going up writing in the air, and then complete silence eyes closed with His

middlefinger touching His eyebrows.How captivating? what aura? then patting His

lap with the beats- what beauty? it is feast for the eyes-

 

Darshan oh what majestic- like floating in the air and then quick glance to

someone and then pouring vibhuti uttering soft words- Santhosham or very Happy

- Accha Accha - bahoot khush,

or Hey Pakora Kaab aya ? or telugu word Kuccho Kuccho- One day I tried to

control my mind with all fleeting cravings coming rapidly in Parthi ,and while

I was having cup of tea prior to evening darshan-just looked at Swamis photo

and said to myself if this kind of thoughts come here in His presence then I

have to go to mental hospital(just said to myself)- Now after the tea I went

straight from canteen for evening darshan- Lo and behold in my darshan line He

just came to me(front row) and said pouring vibhuthi in my hands "if this

doesn't help then go to mental hospital"- a devotee who was sitting beside me

asked me so you have mental problem- I simply replied "Yes".Oh Lord Sai please

dont leave me-Then another day I saw a 6 year old kid running all the way during

evening bhajans, just to hand letter to Swami and then where the gents line end

,and Swami about to go to ladies side - this Kid (background Bhajan going on

Guru deva priya deva sai deva

daaya maya) was desperate to hand the letter with his little hand extended asked

Swami - Please Swami my Sister will she be okay- Please Swami ! and Swami

accepted his letter and said "Yes Yes Yes" - so compassionate was His look and

Swami holded His hand for five to ten seconds.OH my Lord what Love-

 

Then in the inteview room how he closes the door, how he talks- oh what manners-

what etiquette-the way He wipes His face with handkerchief and then He

questions Kiya Samaachaar ?Kaisa hai/ how is your health ?His humour - His

smile - revealing inner secrets to you in another room- only Omniscient

Bhagavan can do this- well He is Lord of Lords.Asking the grroup who am I ?

everyone in chorus said Swami you are King of Kings- Lord of the universe and

Swami replied "No No - I am servant of servants whoever calls me I am there".

 

Oh Lord of Lords -My beloved Lord SrI Sathya Sai Please return my Darshan

,Sparshan and Sambhasan- dont abandon me - I have been far away from you my

Lord.Please my Loving Lord dont leave me- Oh Lord you are now surrounded with

students and Doctors- dont leave me- I will not leave - I 'll be standing still

until your loving eyes do turn on me and call me.

 

OH ! Brother's and Sister's dont forget our Beloved Lord - Chant His name always

He is Premaswaroopa - He will never forsake you never never. He will fulfill all

your wishes.

 

Loka Samastha Sukhino Bhavanthu

 

At the feet of Sai

 

Soumendra