General Story of my life

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When I joined few days back in this group and read couple of mails, I didn't

know wat to write or how to write. I had lots of things in mind but didn't know

how to start explaining n tell U all about it. Am sure it is gonna be long story

somehow but am very sure most of you will read not be lazy like me.LOL.

 

The truth is I never knew anything about Baba not Shirdi Sai Bab not Satya Sai

Baba. Am not very sure about the year but I think it was 2000 as I recall after

few months it was Baba's 75th Bday. But before the Bday, one of my friend who is

a Singh guy came to my office as usual he use to come. While he was leaving I

asked him, where R U goin? He said am going at Late Sunil Bhai's place to do

Baba's Darshan. I was shocked, as the way I know him it was something strange

to hear. I asked him since when U go there and how did U get into him? He

explained me about the blessings and lot's of things. I asked him is it ok if I

come n see? He agreed and took me there. I was very much shocked to see all da

blessings and Late Sunil's mom, Ramabaa explained me alot of things in a very

short time. I use to be a friend of Late Sunil but we never came into any

religious discussion ever. After I left their house, just got some feeling of

going back so I asked my friend to pick

me next thursday n he did for few more times but then his timings started

becoming abit delaying so I started goin bymyself. I started taking Prasadi and

Baba use to bless them always. I started knowing alot of things about Sai Baba

in general.

 

On his 75th Bday I did not participate 100% as was still keeping myself away and

didn't want to go fwd. But as Baba says take 1 step towards me and I will take

10 towards you. Then I came to discover about bhajans and joined and became one

of the members. Late Sunil Bhai was also participating in most of satsangs. He

finally decided to start a centre at his place and we did the opening on Baba's

Bday and did a wonderful Program at Mandir. 1 day I sat with him at his place n

may be it was the last time we sat n discussed alot about Baba. He told me alot

of things which I never knew. He promised to take me on his expense to do Baba's

Darshan in April and I was very happy. But unfortunately he had accident with

his wife in December.His memories are still with us and will always remain. We

were abit scared as we lost a sholder, so we all were wondering how are we

going to go on. But with Baba's blessings we kept going on. We did also a very

big program as Baa said we have to do it

there is nothing wrong in it.It was a great success and trust me Baba gave

blessings in each n every program we did and every Bday he has to bless.We are

very happy for tht and my heart believes he will always bless us.

 

Baa had to leave n centre got closed so we doing our Bhajans at Mandir and we

have started Balvikas also for past 1 month. When we started there were 12 kids

on the 1st day and next week we got 40 and by now we have 70 plus.The 1st day We

were only 2 people to handle the Balvikas as most of the members had some reason

of not attending n it was acceptable. I was very scared as had never handled

kids n teach them.But it was exam from Baba tht is wat I believe, he wanted me

to try n make it myself 1st rather then depending on others.Our Balvikas is

goin on very well n we have almost 7 Volunteers now and alot of supporters.

 

"FAITH in GOD". To have Faith in God it's something very amazing. I had alot of

up n downs in my life. But I believe alot in Matajee and I do till today. In

2003 I paralised whole body apart from head but God's miracle I am ok now.

Infact after 2 days my body started moving and after 3 weeks I was released

from Hospital.The left part especially the leg was abit heavy but with time it

got ok but yes am still abit weak n trying to do alot of exercise. During my

sickness I had alot of prob's also with Business n family n personal Luv life.I

kept fighting with God Y all this is happening to me.I dnt loose faith in God

but stopped getting closer to him and stopped/minimised goin Bhajans etc.I used

to think Y getting closer n so much attached while nothing goes rit. But I was

wrong n sometimes I use to think if am ok today is bcs of GOD so I start again

going to bhajans.But then whenever mind fuse gets defused again start diverging

but 1 thing always came into mind, Wat we do is

wat comes back 1 way or the other it has to effect us. So I believed tht this

was all panishment for whatever bad I did in life n I agree for the mistakes I

had done in ma past. But am happy ma parents have always forgiven me and are

always with me and tht is da bigest gift I got in life. My parents are my GOD I

will do everything for them as far as they are happy.

 

Now am back to normal as I attend Satsang and have started Balvikas and wanna do

more activities with Baba's Blessings. I looked for job n never got 1 but now I

understand why wasn't geting it. It's bcs GOD wanted me to go on strugling n

face more problems n come out of it. My business is picking up slowly and am

very happy about it. My general life is not the same anymore it's much better

but Luv life is still dark but am sure GOD will keep light into it.

 

I don't wanna write more as it will get very long so let me end here, am sure

this is more then enough. I apologize to all whoever I did something bad to

them and I to all bad things I have done in life. I thank all those who wrote

few words about Sunil Bhai and some of you knew him. His family was very good n

close to me and I miss Ramabaa alot she was very kind am sure she is ok in UK

but missing us alot as we do. We miss our centre alot and I personally dnt find

tht charm in Mandir the way it use 2 be in centre. I hope tht charm comes back

again and we enjoy our activities once again. I have requested Baba to fulifill

my bigest wish which am not gonna tell U now but pls pray for me tht I should be

granted my wish before ending this year. I will definately share with U once my

wish is fullfilled. Am sure he will grant me as till now whatever I wish by

heart it happens sometimes it takes time but at the end of the day it happens.

So I have the Faith that he will bless

me once again. Something I forgot to share is tht most of our family members are

believing in Saibaba also now a days.

 

Sai Ram.

Vishal Dass Choudhry

Mwanza,Tanzania,East Africa.