(This soul shouts:) Swamiiiiiiiiiiii !!!

[Guest guest]

Dad, dont You have mercy on me?

why do You let me be surrounded by such a thunderstorm in my mind?

 

If I am misunderstanding the very Energy You send towards me, why dont you save

me from such ignorance?

 

Dad, I know you are testing my devotion. Haa!! I can see your intention...this

is the only explanation that gives me a glimpse on all this history. But let me

tell you that I shall not give up of You !!!!!!!!!!

 

I am weak, sinner, disconcentrated, but one thing I am quite sure: You are my

Sun. Far from You I do not have life. Simply I would be dead although

embodied, far from Your warmth. I shall follow you even when Your Truth seems

so hard to assimilate. I shall forget this matter that makes me confused, until

for your own Sankhalpa you turn on the Light in my Heart and Mind and give me

the Insight to get it all crystal clear.

 

My mistakes, my sins, so much impurity, so much desire and bad actions, bad

thoughts, bad words, bad deeds, words that have hurt others, everything of me,

even the "good" part of myself too, I leave them all at your Lotus Feet. Do you

accept me, Dad? Am I worthy of calling you Dad? Am I worthy to call you my

Cosmic Husband ? Am I worthy to call you my God and Guru and Master and Lord?

 

I do not think I am.

 

but this is Your Sweetest Miracle! You ALLOW this unworthy being to approach

with you and you transform all evil in YOUR OWN LIGHT, FOREVER, like the

fragrance that gets the ambient and dont leave it ever anymore.

 

And the same power that before knowing YOU attracted me to the worldy life, now

it is turned into desperation for Your Love.

 

Don´t you ever leave me, Dad. Do not ever leave me alone with myself until I

grown up and be able to be a mature soul.

 

DAD, GIVE ME THE WORTHY DEVOTION TO YOUR LOTUS FEET, GIVE ME BHAKTI TO YOUR LOTUS EYES.

 

I have realized that Shanti is the same than Devotion. When one can feel

Devotion deep inside the heart, it is complete syntony with the waves of

Divinity, and Shanti is the consequence. Hence this is the only thing in life

that I need- Pure and everlasting Devotion.

 

I love you, Dad. I love you raa.

[Guest guest]

Sairam to all,

 

I really don't know who wrote it, While reading this my eyes filled with

water and I can not even finish the last line.

 

Thanks for writing so kind words to our Lord.

 

Srimanta

 

 

 

>Jai Sai Ram <jayasathyasai

>[saibabanews] (This soul shouts:) Swamiiiiiiiiiiii !!!

>Sat, 23 Apr 2005 23:48:32 -0700 (PDT)

>

>Dad, dont You have mercy on me?

>why do You let me be surrounded by such a thunderstorm in my

>mind?..........

[Guest guest]

Very INSPIRING!!!

Someone mentioned how their eyes filled with tears as they attempted to read

your 'Jai Sai Ram's' Mail...The same thing happened to me....May God bless

You!!!!!!

Sai Ram