A Devotee Opens His Heart

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(Adopted from Scribblings of a [shirdi] Sai Devotee, by Suresh

Chandra Gupta, the book can be read at www.saileelas.org)

 

A Devotee Opens His Heart

 

Sai!

Whether you are a saint or Bhagwan, Avtar or 'Parabrahm'

Whatever you are,

You are unique

And my own.

But if I say something to you

Kindly do not take it amiss.

You do discriminate between your devotees.

On some you have bestowed the power of "Vaksiddhata"

On some capacity to foretell events,

Many you have turned into Gurus and Sadgurus in no time

On others you have bestowed immeasurable wealth

and luxuries of life

But on me, your humble devotee

Who has endeavoured to serve you heart and soul.

You have bestowed no such favours

Neither do I have the capacity to see the future,

Nor do I possess wisdom

Nor even wealth.

If nothing else,

You could have given me your pure unadulterated devotion

Even that you have not given me

If I had even pure devotion

I would have had the satisfaction,

That pure Satvik Bhakti flows within my veins

And encompasses my whole being.

Even that I do not possess.

Sai, I know

That by attributing the charge of discrimination

against you

I am committing a sin.

I do accept, however,

I have never asked you for all this

But haven't you said,

"Everyone asks from me wealth, progeny and

luxuries of life,

But nobody asks from me

A chunk from the great treasure, I hold

And which I want to share with him."?

If having taken your words as a gospel truth

I did not beg from you the objects of pleasure,

Did I commit a sin?

O' my Baba!

I implore you not to mind my words

I am a petty human being

Who hasn't risen above the limitations of

the physical frame.

I am your child

Ignorant and uncouth,

DO pardon me.

You have given me something unique

Filled my heart with abounding love and compassion

Sai, I need nothing more

I beseech you,

Bestow'on me the unique honour

That when I leave this transitory world,

You shall take me in your own arms

And merge me in your bosom,

So that for all times to come,

I become your own.