Guest guest Posted April 16, 2006 Report Share Posted April 16, 2006 I am a former catholic. My birth family placed me in a catholic orphanage at birth and I was baptized in that faith. I am a survivor of sexual abuse in the orphanage and suffered greatly for many years. I saw hypocrisy and a huge lack of love toward me as years went by in Catholic schools. I believed in God all that time, I just knew for me that organized religion was not my path. I lived in fear and guilt and confessed to so many "sins" and when God didn't speak to me on my Confirmation Day I turned away from anything to do with religion. Until I met Amma I had not been able to experience love from anyone, including myself. Even now I am struggling to love all of myself, so many wounds and scars are healing slowly with the love of Amma. I am truly blessed to be able to receive and give love today. If my heart had not been opened by Amma's love I would be dead some time ago instead of alive and able to give and receive love. I see the organized churches differently now. I realize that all faiths and organizations have people who are hypocritical, insincere, ignorant and mean. And at the same time, each person's journey is not mine to judge. I have met people of all faiths who are sincere in their love for their "God/Goddess", people who walk in love are everywhere and it is not my job to figure out what works for them. I have learned that my pain, suffering and guilt were from keeping secrets from myself and others. Today I am learning to love, to change all the bad self-talk, the lack of love and compassion, the fear and shame I have carried for so long is leaving me now. I am happy when someone can see and give love for themselves, whatever form that takes. I am happy today because I have love in my heart. My prayer is that more hearts will open like the lotus blossom and spread love like a beautiful fragrance to all my brothers and sisters. Happy Easter! Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service, Supriti Omenka Nnadi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 16, 2006 Report Share Posted April 16, 2006 Namah Shivaya Supriti, Like you, I grew up in an abusive situation and pretty much hated myself for a very long time. Every once in a while I would become aware of a "goodness" within me. I just knew that somewhere inside of me there was something so good. I know now that "goodness" was God, it was who I really was, despite who I was outside. We all get negative messages growing up, and throughout life. As kids, we take it on and believe it. If we all really knew who we really are we would love ourselves and everyone and everything. It doesn't matter who or what we are on the outside. Inside we are all that is. Inside we are just total love. Love to all my sisters and brothers, Prasadini Omenka Supriti Nnadi wrote: > I am a former catholic. My birth family placed me in a catholic > orphanage at birth and I was baptized in that faith. I am a survivor > of sexual abuse in the orphanage and suffered greatly for many years. > I saw hypocrisy and a huge lack of love toward me as years went by in > Catholic schools. > > I believed in God all that time, I just knew for me that organized > religion was not my path. I lived in fear and guilt and confessed to > so many "sins" and when God didn't speak to me on my Confirmation Day > I turned away from anything to do with religion. > > Until I met Amma I had not been able to experience love from anyone, > including myself. Even now I am struggling to love all of myself, so > many wounds and scars are healing slowly with the love of Amma. > > I am truly blessed to be able to receive and give love today. If my > heart had not been opened by Amma's love I would be dead some time ago > instead of alive and able to give and receive love. I see the > organized churches differently now. > > I realize that all faiths and organizations have people who are > hypocritical, insincere, ignorant and mean. And at the same time, > each person's journey is not mine to judge. I have met people of all > faiths who are sincere in their love for their "God/Goddess", people > who walk in love are everywhere and it is not my job to figure out > what works for them. I have learned that my pain, suffering and guilt > were from keeping secrets from myself and others. > > Today I am learning to love, to change all the bad self-talk, the > lack of love and compassion, the fear and shame I have carried for so > long is leaving me now. > > I am happy when someone can see and give love for themselves, > whatever form that takes. I am happy today because I have love in my > heart. My prayer is that more hearts will open like the lotus blossom > and spread love like a beautiful fragrance to all my brothers and sisters. > > Happy Easter! > > > Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service, > > Supriti Omenka Nnadi > > > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > ------ > > > * Visit your group "Ammachi > <Ammachi>" on the web. > > * > Ammachi > <Ammachi?subject=Un> > > * Terms of > Service <>. > > > ------ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 16, 2006 Report Share Posted April 16, 2006 Thank you all for all the beautiful messages that you are sharing with us today and always... Prasadini wrote: > Namah Shivaya Supriti, > Like you, I grew up in an abusive situation and pretty much hated myself > for a very long time. Every once in a while I would become aware of a > "goodness" within me. I just knew that somewhere inside of me there was > something so good. I know now that "goodness" was God, it was who I > really was, despite who I was outside. We all get negative messages > growing up, and throughout life. As kids, we take it on and believe it. > If we all really knew who we really are we would love ourselves and > everyone and everything. It doesn't matter who or what we are on the > outside. Inside we are all that is. Inside we are just total love. > Love to all my sisters and brothers, > Prasadini > > Omenka Supriti Nnadi wrote: > > I am a former catholic. My birth family placed me in a catholic > > orphanage at birth and I was baptized in that faith. I am a survivor > > of sexual abuse in the orphanage and suffered greatly for many years. > > I saw hypocrisy and a huge lack of love toward me as years went by in > > Catholic schools. > > > > I believed in God all that time, I just knew for me that organized > > religion was not my path. I lived in fear and guilt and confessed to > > so many "sins" and when God didn't speak to me on my Confirmation Day > > I turned away from anything to do with religion. > > > > Until I met Amma I had not been able to experience love from anyone, > > including myself. Even now I am struggling to love all of myself, so > > many wounds and scars are healing slowly with the love of Amma. > > > > I am truly blessed to be able to receive and give love today. If my > > heart had not been opened by Amma's love I would be dead some time ago > > instead of alive and able to give and receive love. I see the > > organized churches differently now. > > > > I realize that all faiths and organizations have people who are > > hypocritical, insincere, ignorant and mean. And at the same time, > > each person's journey is not mine to judge. I have met people of all > > faiths who are sincere in their love for their "God/Goddess", people > > who walk in love are everywhere and it is not my job to figure out > > what works for them. I have learned that my pain, suffering and guilt > > were from keeping secrets from myself and others. > > > > Today I am learning to love, to change all the bad self-talk, the > > lack of love and compassion, the fear and shame I have carried for so > > long is leaving me now. > > > > I am happy when someone can see and give love for themselves, > > whatever form that takes. I am happy today because I have love in my > > heart. My prayer is that more hearts will open like the lotus blossom > > and spread love like a beautiful fragrance to all my brothers and > sisters. > > > > Happy Easter! > > -- Be Love, Egyirba -=-=- .... To the heavens be peace, to the sky and the earth, to the waters be peace, to plants and all trees, to the Gods be peace, to Brahman be peace, to all men be peace, again and again--peace be also to me! --Atharva Veda. From "Teachings of the Hindu Mystics," © 2001 by Andrew Harvey. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 16, 2006 Report Share Posted April 16, 2006 this is so beautiful and once you get a glimpse of this ,you begin to contemplate all of AMMAs children who have not yet begun to realize how loved they are and that they are in fact that very love.you begin to realize how fortunate you are to have recieved this priceless gift.you begin to realize that the only way you keep this gift is to give it away. now that we have tasted this love ,it is all that we truly want.even before we tasted it,itwas all we truly wanted.to truly have tasted it is to want it for everyone with all of your heart. may we all become totally identifiied with HER LOVE ALONE.may we all embody that very love and like sunshine ,shine this very love on everyone. >Prasadini <ganesh1008 >Ammachi >Ammachi >Re: Suffering, pain and guilt >Sun, 16 Apr 2006 11:34:21 -0700 > >Namah Shivaya Supriti, >Like you, I grew up in an abusive situation and pretty much hated myself >for a very long time. Every once in a while I would become aware of a >"goodness" within me. I just knew that somewhere inside of me there was >something so good. I know now that "goodness" was God, it was who I >really was, despite who I was outside. We all get negative messages >growing up, and throughout life. As kids, we take it on and believe it. >If we all really knew who we really are we would love ourselves and >everyone and everything. It doesn't matter who or what we are on the >outside. Inside we are all that is. Inside we are just total love. >Love to all my sisters and brothers, >Prasadini > >Omenka Supriti Nnadi wrote: > > I am a former catholic. My birth family placed me in a catholic > > orphanage at birth and I was baptized in that faith. I am a survivor > > of sexual abuse in the orphanage and suffered greatly for many years. > > I saw hypocrisy and a huge lack of love toward me as years went by in > > Catholic schools. > > > > I believed in God all that time, I just knew for me that organized > > religion was not my path. I lived in fear and guilt and confessed to > > so many "sins" and when God didn't speak to me on my Confirmation Day > > I turned away from anything to do with religion. > > > > Until I met Amma I had not been able to experience love from anyone, > > including myself. Even now I am struggling to love all of myself, so > > many wounds and scars are healing slowly with the love of Amma. > > > > I am truly blessed to be able to receive and give love today. If my > > heart had not been opened by Amma's love I would be dead some time ago > > instead of alive and able to give and receive love. I see the > > organized churches differently now. > > > > I realize that all faiths and organizations have people who are > > hypocritical, insincere, ignorant and mean. And at the same time, > > each person's journey is not mine to judge. I have met people of all > > faiths who are sincere in their love for their "God/Goddess", people > > who walk in love are everywhere and it is not my job to figure out > > what works for them. I have learned that my pain, suffering and guilt > > were from keeping secrets from myself and others. > > > > Today I am learning to love, to change all the bad self-talk, the > > lack of love and compassion, the fear and shame I have carried for so > > long is leaving me now. > > > > I am happy when someone can see and give love for themselves, > > whatever form that takes. I am happy today because I have love in my > > heart. My prayer is that more hearts will open like the lotus blossom > > and spread love like a beautiful fragrance to all my brothers and >sisters. > > > > Happy Easter! > > > > > > Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service, > > > > Supriti Omenka Nnadi > > > > > > > > > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > > > > ------ > > > > > > * Visit your group "Ammachi > > <Ammachi>" on the web. > > > > * > > Ammachi > > <Ammachi?subject=Un> > > > > * Terms of > > Service <>. > > > > > > ------ > > > _______________ Don’t just search. Find. Check out the new MSN Search! http://search.msn.click-url.com/go/onm00200636ave/direct/01/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 16, 2006 Report Share Posted April 16, 2006 Namah Shivaya Temba, You are so right - we are so lucky to have found Mother and Her love. And to think we thought we were what we look like, or how smart or non smart we are, and what we do for a living, or how much money we do or don't make, etc., etc, etc. Look who our Mother is!! Prasadini temba spirits wrote: > this is so beautiful and once you get a glimpse of this ,you begin to > contemplate all of AMMAs children who have not yet begun to realize how > loved they are and that they are in fact that very love.you begin to realize > how fortunate you are to have recieved this priceless gift.you begin to > realize that the only way you keep this gift is to give it away. > > > now that we have tasted this love ,it is all that we truly want.even before > we tasted it,itwas all we truly wanted.to truly have tasted it is to want it > for everyone with all of your heart. > > may we all become totally identifiied with HER LOVE ALONE.may we all embody > that very love and like sunshine ,shine this very love on everyone. > > > > > > > >> Prasadini <ganesh1008 >> Ammachi >> Ammachi >> Re: Suffering, pain and guilt >> Sun, 16 Apr 2006 11:34:21 -0700 >> >> Namah Shivaya Supriti, >> Like you, I grew up in an abusive situation and pretty much hated myself >> for a very long time. Every once in a while I would become aware of a >> "goodness" within me. I just knew that somewhere inside of me there was >> something so good. I know now that "goodness" was God, it was who I >> really was, despite who I was outside. We all get negative messages >> growing up, and throughout life. As kids, we take it on and believe it. >> If we all really knew who we really are we would love ourselves and >> everyone and everything. It doesn't matter who or what we are on the >> outside. Inside we are all that is. Inside we are just total love. >> Love to all my sisters and brothers, >> Prasadini >> >> Omenka Supriti Nnadi wrote: >> >>> I am a former catholic. My birth family placed me in a catholic >>> orphanage at birth and I was baptized in that faith. I am a survivor >>> of sexual abuse in the orphanage and suffered greatly for many years. >>> I saw hypocrisy and a huge lack of love toward me as years went by in >>> Catholic schools. >>> >>> I believed in God all that time, I just knew for me that organized >>> religion was not my path. I lived in fear and guilt and confessed to >>> so many "sins" and when God didn't speak to me on my Confirmation Day >>> I turned away from anything to do with religion. >>> >>> Until I met Amma I had not been able to experience love from anyone, >>> including myself. Even now I am struggling to love all of myself, so >>> many wounds and scars are healing slowly with the love of Amma. >>> >>> I am truly blessed to be able to receive and give love today. If my >>> heart had not been opened by Amma's love I would be dead some time ago >>> instead of alive and able to give and receive love. I see the >>> organized churches differently now. >>> >>> I realize that all faiths and organizations have people who are >>> hypocritical, insincere, ignorant and mean. And at the same time, >>> each person's journey is not mine to judge. I have met people of all >>> faiths who are sincere in their love for their "God/Goddess", people >>> who walk in love are everywhere and it is not my job to figure out >>> what works for them. I have learned that my pain, suffering and guilt >>> were from keeping secrets from myself and others. >>> >>> Today I am learning to love, to change all the bad self-talk, the >>> lack of love and compassion, the fear and shame I have carried for so >>> long is leaving me now. >>> >>> I am happy when someone can see and give love for themselves, >>> whatever form that takes. I am happy today because I have love in my >>> heart. My prayer is that more hearts will open like the lotus blossom >>> and spread love like a beautiful fragrance to all my brothers and >>> >> sisters. >> >>> Happy Easter! >>> >>> >>> Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service, >>> >>> Supriti Omenka Nnadi >>> >>> >>> >>> >>> >>> Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! >>> >>> >>> ------ >>> >>> >>> * Visit your group "Ammachi >>> <Ammachi>" on the web. >>> >>> * >>> Ammachi >>> <Ammachi?subject=Un> >>> >>> * Terms of >>> Service <>. >>> >>> >>> ------ >>> >>> > > _______________ > Don’t just search. Find. Check out the new MSN Search! > http://search.msn.click-url.com/go/onm00200636ave/direct/01/ > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > Links > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2006 Report Share Posted April 17, 2006 Ammachi, Prasadini <ganesh1008 wrote: >... Inside we are just total love. > Love to all my sisters and brothers, > Prasadini >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Yes we are LOVE; Amma tells us so. But just a note; if we go just a little inside, we encounter our mind/ego which may not be so pleasant and loving. So, we need to go a little deeper inside ~ from head to heart like Amma says. amma's blessings, amarnath Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted April 17, 2006 Report Share Posted April 17, 2006 Thanks for sharing. May you be well and happy. Amma Bless Donn Ammachi [Ammachi] On Behalf Of Omenka Supriti Nnadi Sunday, April 16, 2006 8:45 PM Ammachi Suffering, pain and guilt I am a former catholic. My birth family placed me in a catholic orphanage at birth and I was baptized in that faith. I am a survivor of sexual abuse in the orphanage and suffered greatly for many years. I saw hypocrisy and a huge lack of love toward me as years went by in Catholic schools. I believed in God all that time, I just knew for me that organized religion was not my path. I lived in fear and guilt and confessed to so many "sins" and when God didn't speak to me on my Confirmation Day I turned away from anything to do with religion. Until I met Amma I had not been able to experience love from anyone, including myself. Even now I am struggling to love all of myself, so many wounds and scars are healing slowly with the love of Amma. I am truly blessed to be able to receive and give love today. If my heart had not been opened by Amma's love I would be dead some time ago instead of alive and able to give and receive love. I see the organized churches differently now. I realize that all faiths and organizations have people who are hypocritical, insincere, ignorant and mean. And at the same time, each person's journey is not mine to judge. I have met people of all faiths who are sincere in their love for their "God/Goddess", people who walk in love are everywhere and it is not my job to figure out what works for them. I have learned that my pain, suffering and guilt were from keeping secrets from myself and others. Today I am learning to love, to change all the bad self-talk, the lack of love and compassion, the fear and shame I have carried for so long is leaving me now. I am happy when someone can see and give love for themselves, whatever form that takes. I am happy today because I have love in my heart. My prayer is that more hearts will open like the lotus blossom and spread love like a beautiful fragrance to all my brothers and sisters. Happy Easter! Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service, Supriti Omenka Nnadi Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! • Visit your group "Ammachi" on the web. • Ammachi • Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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