To val about meeting Amma

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vals wrote:

 

Hi all, I went to the public program in melbourne on Wednesday 5th and

saw Amma for the first time. This was an awesome experience, when i

first saw Her, i couldnt stop grinning... But...the hall

had a curfew so darshan was sped up... i understand this but i am

worried. I dont know if perhaps i had unrealistic expectations of

receiving Her blessing hug? i thought/hoped i would feel a change

within myself but i felt relatively indifferent...im so confused about this.

I am not complaining at all...Im just so worried that theres something wrong

with me...Any advice yous can give me will be a huge help!

 

 

 

Dear vals,

 

I'm sure you'll get a lot of responses to your questions, so I'll do my best

to be brief. For all the years I was able to see Amma, each time the

experience was different. Each time one aspect of the experience reached me more

than another. One year it was the Pada Puja and actually having the chance to

drink some of the water with which Amma's feet were bathed. Another time, it was

my small seva of preparing Her "rest room" on the stage, and making Her bed.

This was a huge gift.

 

Another time it has having her throw a "ball" of flowers right into my face

at Devi Bhava ... home run ... big smile on Amma's face. One year it was

especially the hug where She pulled me close and whispered, "Daughter, daughter,

daughter," in my ear. So I'm guess what I'm saying is that your experience of

seeing Amma for the first time, and that grinning from ear to ear feeling was

"it." And maybe there were several "its," because for me, there always were,

but, like for you, it wasn't always the hug. Still the effect of that hug

goes with you, and Amma may show up when you least expect Her, to lend support,

to whisper in your ear ... you just never know until it happens, but when it

does, you feel it, and then you'll know.

Blessings ~ Linda