Bickering, Sarcasm And Vasana Hurling

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Lovely Ananthashree,

 

Thank you for writing this. I am sure that there are many of us who

feel this way but don't get it into writing because we don't want to

join the fray.

 

I have a nickname for you... the lovely devotee. That is how I think

of you because of the way you use your artistic and creative talents to

express your love for Amma.

 

I am glad that you included your webpage address. I looked at it again.

 

I have had that same feeling of disconnect lately. It is as though

someone anesthetized my heart. It is far worse than the pain of

longing and loving. I don't feel alive. I think it is what the

mystics call the dark night of the soul. How many times do we need to

go through this? Until we are truly awake?

 

The restaurant where I work has a new piece of art. A woman completely

covered all the walls of the lavatory with overlapping pages of Rumi

poetry. He certainly had an overwhelming passion for the Beloved.

Maybe we should do the same with Amma's words. Of course there would

be the risk of never emerging from Her Love again.

 

Blessings, sister and ALL,

 

Pahari Maa

 

 

On Mar 15, 2006, at 10:18 PM, Ananthasree wrote:

 

> Namah Shivayah,

>

> I am just wondering why time is being wasted bickering and fighting

> on this list? Not only

> is it disappointing, but it is boring as well. Can't this be done

> off-list? Amma's grace and

> love is all over this online satsang, and this fighting and picking

> like hens at the faults of

> others is like a brawl breaking out while we are waiting in the

> darshan line. It's like a car

> crashing through your living room wall while you are offering

> devotions to Amma. Need I

> come up with more analogies?

>

> I don't think I am speaking for only myself when I say how I have

> been avoiding this list

> for months for this reason. Wheras, in the past, I would check this

> list sometimes 3 times a

> day for a glimpse of Mothers love...now I find myself tensing up as I

> scroll through the list

> of first sentences...and every other sentence is laced with sarcasm

> or a sense of absolute

> righteousness.

>

> If I wanted to hear this kind of banter, I could turn on the News or

> go to any number of

> online forums reserved for those who enjoy debate or enjoy hearing

> themselves type....

>

> Truly, I would love to hear how Mother touched your heart today, or

> graced the life of

> someone you love. Mostly, I would love to hear how you saw her spirit

> reflected in the eyes

> of a stranger, how your day today was touched by her grace, how you

> touched another

> person through her.....how you remembered your first darshan today

> and cried....how you

> fought with your Guru today, fell at the feet of your Guru

> today....learned something about

> yourself today....filled your empty space today....realized your

> perfections and

> imperfections today.....some humility, some open wings, some

> honesty,some creativity,

> some beauty, some love.

>

> Mostly, I think I am just looking for the heart of this Satsang

> again. Honestly, it has been

> displaying the side of our humanity that I try to avoid in my daily

> life (ego-throwing,

> gossiping, back-stabbing, picking, etc)...

>

> ~*~*~*~*May we all feel her love washing every other petty thing

> away~*~*~~*

>

> Jai Ma!

>

> Ananthasree

>

> http://www.ammaschildren.com

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