Guest guest Posted March 5, 2006 Report Share Posted March 5, 2006 Dear Sanatini, Thank you for sharing your story. It was wonderful that you were aware of Mother's hand in your troubles and clung to Mother. In the past several years, through reading the stories of others, I have come to realize that Mother does not fool around. Some times she really holds our feet to the fire! She is very serious about Her job of taking us to the goal. She is also serious about not taking away the karma that can't be taken, but is very compassionate in that She makes it easier to bear, both by lessening the suffering, as in the case of your ruptured artery, and by being there for us, and in the process drawing us very close to Her as we seek Her for refuge. There are times when She is the only place to go. I don't know how serious I am about my sadhana, or how serious I am about reaching the Goal. But when I think of going some place where She is not, where I don't know Her or of Her, I can't bear it. And to think that when I met Her so many years ago, I just thought She was a very nice Indian woman who gave so much of Herself and worked too hard. My husband kept saying "She's the real thing, She's the real thing". And I was not serious about it at all. There have been times when I have asked Her in person, or in a letter, or in my heart, to remove whatever separates me from Her, or to let me want only Her, or to merge with Her, thinking that I really need this, but am totally unprepared for the ax that falls shortly thereafter. It's like "Whoa - I didn't mean THAT". I guess our souls want union with Her, our hearts can't bear to be without Her, and like touching the hot stove, we have to know it will be really hard, but we ask anyway and grit our teeth. And then hang on for the wild ride that follows. Thank you so much for your kind, encouraging and insightful words. And I used to think that all of this was window dressing! Because of Mother, this life has been more difficult, and more wonderful than I ever imagined it would be. Having Mother in our hearts is the most wonderful gift the universe can bestow. And for that my gratitude is endless. In Amma's Love, Prasadini sanatani urban wrote: > Dear Prasadini, > > You are not alone. Many fearless (or not so fearless, like me) > sadhus have tread the same path of Kali destruction and resurrection > as you are now. Remember Joan of Arc, St. Francis, St. Theresa, St. > John (who went on to write a very beautiful book on the "Dark night of > the soul"), and the many stories of the saints of India. The one > thing they all have in common is their undying love for God, and their > inevitable suffering (oops..that's two things). Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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