satsang

[Guest guest]

Hi,

 

I'm kind of shy and for other reasons (time as well- I go to school full time

and work full

time- I don't regularly attend weekly satsang. I do try to attend at least a few

public

programs when Mother comes to the U.S. and many times have saved my money and

gone

to a retreat or two. Whenever I have attended satsangs I have at least attempted

to have

my focus on meditation, singing and my trying to be kind and welcoming rather

than on

what everyone else is doing. I have usually felt welcome, but I do agree

sometimes, like in

any human group (and sometimes I think in spiritual groups our stuff only comes

up

more!) there is gossip, exclusion, in-crowd ploitics, etc. For me satsang is not

just about

my truth above all others, but about at least trying to share truth with others,

speaking

and listening with kindness, not perfectly, but at least trying. Sometimes my

temper gets

the best of me too!

 

So, I am one of "those people" who doesn't attend weekly satsang and who mainly

sees

Amma on tour. I'm not rich although I wouldn't mind prospering, I'm not a big

meanie

(most of the time!) and I try to spread the essence of what Amma teaches

wherever I am.

 

This group even though I rarely speak, is one of my"satsangs".

 

with lots of love for all,

Upasana