Digest Number 1887

[Guest guest]

Sara wrote:

 

>> ...Come to learn later that he molested my daughter, (once, only, thank

>> Goddess) who was three at the time...

 

Dear Sara ~ my initial instinct was to respond to this, and then I didn't.

Then, after "outing" myself as someone who does self-harm behavior, I felt I

really needed to write to you.

I also was molested, at about 2 1/2 years old; there may have been other

incidents, but

I have no memories...just frightful nightmares, a "startle" response, and,

occasionally, flashbacks that are like little fragments of a broken mirror.

 

How old is your daughter now? Even though she had therapy after the

incident, it may not be enough. I also had physical (hitting, violation of

privacty,

etc.) and emotional/verbal abuse.

I am still in therapy. I have been in therapy ever since I left home. When

people express surprise at this, I tell them, without the therapy, I would be

dead or in jail. There is still powerful Thought/Feeling "Bot" inside me that

I have to step over, battle (like Durga; I think she is helping me now),

talk to ("go away,you don't own me").

 

The self-harm behavior