To Amarnath on spiritual journeys

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Amarnath wrote:

 

>> I was once a physicist 35 years ago.

>> Thanks to the deepest grief in my life, I started my spiritual quest.

>> Lost 40 lbs, meditated a lot, ate veggies and fruit and nuts, spend a

>> month with Maharishi, fasted, read spiritual books for the first time

>> instead of technical books, enjoyed nature, had an ice cream cone

>> single dip once per month, etc.

 

>> One day, I determined to solve all my doubts, uncertainties,

>> indecisions by formulating a cosmic formula ~ in my head appeared

>> beautiful mathematical logical thoughts of symmetries, infinities,

>> point values

>> ~ BUT STILL NO CLUE WHETHER IT'S DHARMIC TO EAT THE ICE CREAM OR NOT.

 

>> Mind completely exhausted descended from head to rest in the heart.

>> ~ PEACE, STILLNESS, SILENCE

>> ~ then something unusual, unfamiliar ?

>> ~ what is this ?

>> ~ could it really be after 31 years of life ?

>> ~ for the first time ?

>> ~ the non-verbal answer was

>> ~ YES THIS IS GOD'S LOVE IN ITS PURITY ! very softly

>> ~ so subtle yet so powerful

>> ~ seemingly permeating, maintaining all

 

>> For a second, the head asserted itself with this doubt :

>> ~ oh yeh! can the heart tell if it is dharmic to eat the ice cream or not

?

>> ~ doubt followed by great fear

>> ~ realizing the great danger of staying in the HEAD

>> ~ quickly took refuge in the HEART

 

>> God's Love still there.

>> ~ started so gently so silently

>> ~ yet expanding ?

>> ~ later exploding in BLISS, in LIGHT

>> ~ yet peace, stillness, silence still undisturbed

 

>> This was God's Gift to me who doubted His existence but several

>> months before...

 

 

 

Dear Amarnath ~ what you wrote was nothing short of beautiful. In some ways,

I could almost envision it as a book like some other seekers have written,

and which now grace Amma's bookstore. I think such a book, of a spiritual

journey, by someone, a physicist to boot, would be a wonderful addition to the

library. (Don't mind me. I'm a writer, so I always think of sharing ... and

making the sharing wider.)

 

What you state regarding what led up to your taking this journey and some of

your explorations along the way is clear and crisp. What follows is sheer

poetry. And it is so true ... the Love is always there, nestled within the cave

of the heart (the Bhagavad Gita uses this term, which surprised me when I

first read it because many decades before I had written a song called "Cave of

the Heart"). I remember my own quiet, sweet delight, when after one of my TM

meditations (having been meditating for quite some time), my inner voice so

innocently stated, "Oh!

I AM a soul." It was as though I had never known this. Perhaps

intellecutally, but to actually feel the reality of it, in the heart's cave is

an entirely

different matter, as you so eloquently share. Thank you. Jai Ma ~ Linda