To Themba on life situations ~ the negatives becoming positive

December 2, 2005

themba wrote:

MOTHER says we all long for the same thing.TRUE LOVE.my mother use to have

me buy weed for her at 13 years old and then she would kick me out.i would be

sleeping in the hallway...i have forgiven my mother...at some point as a

teenager the inner AMMA reminded me that her soul was sick...when i got

older i

just wanted her to say that she was sorry for what she had done.i realized

that she may never do this.it has effected my growth,however it has also

enabled ,me to be more sypathetic towards other peoples pain...it has

allowed me to love on a deeper level.WE ARE STRONGER

WITHIN THEN WE THINK.AMMA IS WITHIN US THROUGH US AND AROUND US.AMMA HAS

BROUGHT JOY INSIDE OF OUR TEARS.YOUR PAIN IS THE SAME AS MINE MY DEAR SISTER

LINDA.WE ARE ONE.THE DETAILS MAY BE DIFFERENT BUT IN ESSENCE IT IS ALL THRE

SAME...we are now more deeply

installed in each others hearts.THAT IS AMMAs GREAT HEART WORK.love,your

brother themba

Deat Themba ~ your beautiful, heartfelt words have touched my wounded heart.

Yes, the details of what we went through were very different, but we both

had similar feelings and a desire for the same thing, as you said ~ Love. It

amazes me that you can look back on your life and say that the inner Amma helped

you forgive your mother. To have that realization, that Mother was working

in your heart, even before you knew of Her ~ that is an incredible blessing.

Also, like you, the abuse I went through made me more empathetic to others

in all types of circumstances, but especially those who were suffering for some

reason. So I have always believed that there was a positive within the

seeming negative because this empathy has created a lot of positiveness, wonder

and love in my life. I like what you said about being installed in each other's

hearts. I can feel that. And that is what Amma wants for us ~ for Her to be

installed in our hearts. Sometimes, it seems, She comes into my heart through

the love and empathy of others. Thank you dear brother. Love ~ Linda

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