Guest guest Posted November 25, 2005 Report Share Posted November 25, 2005 Aikya wrote: ....There was a bigger healing this time, however. I realized that most of my life, I have been walking around with an underlying emotional drone--if life is a song, this is my key underlying all the modes--of dread. If I have worried more than necessary, the worry arose from this basis, the underlying expectation of something awful about to happen. This was such an important realization since, once seen, this drone can be eliminated. Over a full day with Amma, I remembered exactly when this sense of dread began. I also realized that my own life experience, my physical experience, directly contradicts and proves false this sense of dread. My life experience says that greater good than the "experts" predict can and does happen. It is this lived experience of the victory of divine grace over human expertise that is why I can work with brothers and sisters in prison. Dear Aikya ~ thank you so much for everything you shared and especially about this deep emotional healing. I too have spent more than I care to account for, too many days walking through my own funhouse of monsters. It is still there sometimes, but I have more of an ability, not to go through the door. To me this too is a miracle because, for so long, I didn't seem to have a choice. It was like living in the Walt Disney version of Snow White, where, when she went through the forest, the very trees grabbed out at her. I don't walk through this forest anymore, and I am so grateful to Amma and the other Helpers who helped me move through that. Jai Ma ~ Linda Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 25, 2005 Report Share Posted November 25, 2005 Namah Shivaya Aikya, Linda and all, This is so interesting. I can see that you maybe had the courage, Aikya, in Mothers presence to face this sense of dread and it's cause. Often we are the way we are and we don't even know it. And if we know it, and if we don't know why, we don't know how to stop feeling the way we do. Earlier in my life I spent a lot of time in therapy, and learned why I felt the way I did, but didn't know how to stop feeling that way - therapy, at least then, didn't teach us that. So we go on being the same person, but a little more enlightened. I love what you say about "throwing it in the river" Linda. What a concept! Just get rid of it, even though we may have to keep throwing it into the river over and over until we finally let it go forever. It all reminds me of my very favorite quote of Mother's I read in an old "Amritanandam", now "Immortal Bliss". Mother says, and I'm paraphrasing, "You children like to play with Mother, but you don't know what Mother is doing..Mother has to work from the inside and has to remove many things. Sometimes this is very painful". I'll try next week when I have time to find the exact quote. It will give me an excuse to to through all of those old Amritanandums. Anyway, our minds are full of negativities that are seemingly unremovable. Often we don't know they are there. Only Mother does. Only She can purify us and free us of them. Jai Ma! Prasadini nierika wrote: > > Aikya wrote: > > ...There was a bigger healing this time, however. I realized that most > of my life, I have been walking around with an underlying emotional > drone--if life is a song, this is my key underlying all the modes--of > dread. If I have worried more than necessary, the worry arose from > this basis, the underlying expectation of something awful about to > happen. This was such an important realization since, once seen, this > drone can be eliminated. Over a full day with Amma, I remembered > exactly when this sense of dread began. I also realized that my own > life experience, my physical experience, directly contradicts and > proves false this sense of dread. My life experience says that > greater good than the "experts" predict can and does happen. It is > this lived experience of the victory of divine grace over human > expertise that is why I can work with brothers and sisters in prison. > > > > Dear Aikya ~ thank you so much for everything you shared and especially > about this deep emotional healing. I too have spent more than I care > to account > for, too many days walking through my own funhouse of monsters. It is > still > there sometimes, but I have more of an ability, not to go through the > door. To > me this too is a miracle because, for so long, I didn't seem to have a > choice. > It was like living in the Walt Disney version of Snow White, where, > when she > went through the forest, the very trees grabbed out at her. I don't walk > through this forest anymore, and I am so grateful to Amma and the > other Helpers > who helped me move through that. Jai Ma ~ Linda > > > > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > > > Mata amritanandamayi > </gads?t=ms&k=Mata+amritanandamayi&w1=Mata+amritanandamay\ i&c=1&s=26&.sig=DYRmPW4tjbUZrNprNMY6xw> > > > > ------ > > > * Visit your group "Ammachi > <Ammachi>" on the web. > > * > Ammachi > <Ammachi?subject=Un> > > * Terms of > Service <>. > > > ------ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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