To Prasadini on To Adriane, Linda, Kitchu. and all on Keeping Mother Withii

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Prasadini wrote:

 

We are so fortunate that we have a Guru who gives us so many ways to do

sadhana - and who isn't a stickler for detail. She even encourages us to

think about God on the toilet! I always thought that was rather funny,

and it shows Mother's very practical nature and her equal vision,

everything is all the same! And it allows us to think about God all the

time.

 

....I used to hate Thanksgiving because it was another crazy family holiday.

Now I love it, because it reminds me to be thankful for everything, and

I wind up praying for everyone...

 

We are so lucky to have this life and to know Amma as our Mother and

Saviour. So lucky!

 

 

 

Dear Prasadini ~ thank you so much for everything you said. What you said

about Amma encouraging us to think of God/dess even while on the toilet made me

smile. At the same time, it gave me an even deeper appreciation of Mother's

understanding of us as Her children and an thankfulness that She doesn't miss

an opportunity to suggest we think of God/dess.

 

This year, as Thanksgiving approached, I was feeling very bad. I will never

spend another Thanksgiving with my family, partly because of their decision to

punish and exclude me. At first that made me sad. Then I, as my hubby likes

to say, "threw it in the river," which is a Native American practice. It is

like throwing the rice into the homa fire representing us letting go of our

negativities and karma.

 

My stepdad's birthday is right before Christmas, and I agonized for weeks

over what to do. Finally I put my judgements and hurts aside and sent him a

handmade necklace of a sterling silver heart with an inlaid jasper goblet and an

inlaid turquoise holy ghost bird above the goblet. I had given my mother the

same necklace about a year ago. I sent a copy of one of my new drawings,

"Wolf Shield," framed in the only frame I had on hand. My stepdad loved them

both

and said he would never take the locket off, except when he takes my mother

to the pool for pool therapy.

 

For me, I wanted them to have the matching necklaces because, despite

everything, I know how much my stepdad loves my mother, and she has begun the

process of leaving the earth. Today I talked to them all, my brother was there

too, and it was very nice, a little bittersweet. I also talked to my daughter

Amy and we talked about my visiting her sometime next year, which I am bound and

determined to do, even if someone has to tie me into the seat on the plane.

 

For the first time in years I felt free of the sorrow, the guilt, the

confusion ... it was as if they had found the wings that Kitchu so eloquently

spoke

of and flown away, a flock of beautiful butterflies.

 

And yes, we are so very lucky to have Amma, who is with us through thick and

thin, who speaks to us through the daily events of our lives, who speaks to

us through one another, who speaks to us through Love. Jai Ma ~ Linda