To Umesh on discovering his inherent goodness

[Guest guest]

Umesh wrote:

 

I have a really neat story about a friend of mine who visited Amma

for the first time during her summer tour.

 

He (Peter) is a lifelong schizophrenic...I don't pretend to understand all

of his difficulties but I do know that his primary worry has always been that

he is eternally damned because he has "sinned against the Holy Spirit in his

mind."

....For all his life he has been in great fear of

literally spending eternity in hell with flames burning him. He had

a VERY BAD Catholic upbringing.

 

Peter and I met several years ago because we live in the same

apartment building...I started to invite him

over to my apartment to watch spiritual videos and he was always the

perfect gentlemen, thanking me and being so grateful that I would

invite him, a schizophrenic, to my place.

 

So when Amma came I asked him if he would like to see her...He

was nervous in the car but in Amma's presence he was so still. When

he got hugged by Amma she also patted him on the cheek. Afterwards

he kept saying that he met a real saint. A few months have gone by

now and every Friday when he comes over for a video he always brings

Amma up. She is quite clear in his mind (that's interesting too

because he has severe memory problems). Yesterday he said that when

he went up to Amma he didn't feel that he was a sinner or evil, but

that "I felt like she was the mother and I was the child." WOW!!!

What a testimony to Amma's Shakti!...

Dear Umesh ~ also being a recovering Catholic, I can testify to the intense

fear inculcated of burning forever in hell. I was taught that I was inherently

evil, and this only layered over the abusive messages I was getting at home.

This fear is so real, so palpable, that it is hard to ever be free of it.

Only after many years of work and personal deprogramming (and reading Eastern

literature and works by Gurus like Paramahamsa Yogananda) did I finally

realize, oh!, I am a soul; I am not the body; my inherent nature is good, and

anything overlayering that goodness is due to life experiences. It is a heaven

sent blessing to people like me and your friend to be relieved of this

obsessive

fear. This is a wonderful story; thank you for sharing it. Blessings to you

and your friend ~ Linda