butterflies and tears

[Guest guest]

Robin I wish I had dreams so you could interpret them for me...

 

Re: another Guru - I have my hands and heart full with Amma thank you I cannot

see me having time for more...

 

On fragrances - China Rain is great, I found mine at the dollar store too!

 

Found a feather this morning when I was weeding a little piece of land next to

the ashram in Ann Arbor, it was very very tiny like a 1/2 inch and I smiled when

I saw it and put it up in a window sill near where I was working so it would not

blow away...I wonder about west nile virus though and have stopped collecting

the feathers I find, makes me sad...to think they could be harmful to my health

now...

 

I am working a landscape job and have been having the most incredible encounters

with butterflies lately, there are a lot of plants around for the

butterflies...it seems like soo many come to visit me...this morning there was a

black one, all black! and I just stood there with my mouth open and wished it

would stay longer but it flew away before I could see it better, it was all

black though. then I was watering the sedum and I saw two little twin orange

and black butterflies with about one inch wing spreads happily visiting the

yellow flowers on the sedum I planted in front of the bhudda statue on the deck.

there have been huge swallowtails, lime green transluscent ones, big orange

ones, little tiny white ones, even yellow butter colored ones and they just come

and land and look at me and sometimes make circles around me - it is such a

beautiful visit from Amma. then when the spiders come to visit I hold my

breath and try not to stomp them because my fear of spiders - my fear is

getting less and less but my stomach still turns a little so I wait for the

spiders to move because I know it is just Amma helping me to get over my fears.

 

My friend suggested they could be DIVINE butterflies - anyone know about that?

 

On crying when Amma leaves, OH MY GODS, I cried and cried and cry and after five

years of crying when she left I got mad at myself and asked WHY and the answer I

got was that because it is a habit related to being orphaned and abandoned by

people so much that when Amma left I just repeated the old pattern. Amma never

really leaves so I decided that I should try and not cry - it didn't work, I

still cry some, but not the gut wrenching way I used to... It still hurts when

she leaves the US, and I console myself with seeing her in all things when I can

think of it...which is comforting except when she comes as a spider...

 

love you all brothers and sisters, enjoying all the words and pictures and

prayers and songs and love and humor

 

 

Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service,

 

Supriti Omenka Nnadi