Guest guest Posted August 17, 2005 Report Share Posted August 17, 2005 Om Namah Shivaya Hare Om Dear Jyotsnaji: JYOTSNA WROTE IN THE FORM OF PRAYER; "I pray to Amma that I may likewise make the correct choices that will allow me to, in some mystical way, be similarly blessed, if not in this lifetime, then some other." Almost all of Amma's direct disciples indeed have stuck with Amma through thick and thin.. One pointed devotion to one Guru no matter what the difficulty is probably at the crux of this matter. When Amma leaves many of us suffer the feeling of abandonment. I felt abandoned by birth parents and past girlfriends and this scar has left a deep impression. Perhaps when Amma leaves North America these emotions come rushing up from the subconscious. Stop me if I resort to psychobabble. On an emotional level (please note I am not referring to the calmly rational) some of us less mature beginners (that would be me) need instant gratification. It is analogous to losing a girlfriend and seeking a companion to avoid the pain of loneliness. The mind goes oh your Guru has left. This pain is unbearable. Let us shop for a surrogate. OH NO NOT TO REPLACE AMMA! The mischievous lying mind purrs in my ear: " We just want holy company to raise the consciousness.. Heaven forbid we meditate do japa and still worse dive deep within" The mind continues: "There is another Saint coming to Northern California. Let's just seek Her holy company and chill." All of this, Jyotsnaji is to avoid the pain of separation. To use a crude term it is behaving like I am "on the rebound" The Dark night of the Soul does not need another Teacher. Amma will send me the curry of my heart if I am patient. Impatiently Patient, GeorgeSon Start your day with - make it your home page Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 17, 2005 Report Share Posted August 17, 2005 Namah shivaya OK OK I said I'll keep quiet , i know- but just this one more things and then I'll shut up - George- you are SO blessed to feel this acute sense of longing for Amma and missing Her. That longing for Amma is bhakti. The more we love Amma/God and long for Her , the closer we shall progress to God. Thats why i think Amma goes on world tours- not only to bless the people She is going TO , but also to bless the people She is going away FROM ( blessing them with this longing). Until finally all of us in the east and west will look within and find Her in our hearts "where She has always been". Then when everyone does that, our Mother will take rest and stop touring . and sleep with a smile on Her face. Praying that everyone finds the Inner Amma, bala GeorgeSon <leokomor wrote: Om Namah Shivaya Hare Om Dear Jyotsnaji: JYOTSNA WROTE IN THE FORM OF PRAYER; "I pray to Amma that I may likewise make the correct choices that will allow me to, in some mystical way, be similarly blessed, if not in this lifetime, then some other." Almost all of Amma's direct disciples indeed have stuck with Amma through thick and thin.. One pointed devotion to one Guru no matter what the difficulty is probably at the crux of this matter. When Amma leaves many of us suffer the feeling of abandonment. I felt abandoned by birth parents and past girlfriends and this scar has left a deep impression. Perhaps when Amma leaves North America these emotions come rushing up from the subconscious. Stop me if I resort to psychobabble. On an emotional level (please note I am not referring to the calmly rational) some of us less mature beginners (that would be me) need instant gratification. It is analogous to losing a girlfriend and seeking a companion to avoid the pain of loneliness. The mind goes oh your Guru has left. This pain is unbearable. Let us shop for a surrogate. OH NO NOT TO REPLACE AMMA! The mischievous lying mind purrs in my ear: " We just want holy company to raise the consciousness.. Heaven forbid we meditate do japa and still worse dive deep within" The mind continues: "There is another Saint coming to Northern California. Let's just seek Her holy company and chill." All of this, Jyotsnaji is to avoid the pain of separation. To use a crude term it is behaving like I am "on the rebound" The Dark night of the Soul does not need another Teacher. Amma will send me the curry of my heart if I am patient. Impatiently Patient, GeorgeSon Start your day with - make it your home page Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Beliefs of hinduism Different religions beliefs Hinduism religion Ammachi Hinduism Visit your group "Ammachi" on the web. Ammachi Start your day with - make it your home page Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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