Prayer Request -Tabitha

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OM NAMAH SIVAYA

 

Tabitha this is something that i believe, Muktimaa, posted on the

Devi Mandir forum a couple of week ago. it stuck in my head as i

have a similiar situation. a household with couples of different

faiths can be difficult. while i realize this is not a solution to

your situation i hoped you might find this interesting and helpful,

 

An excerpt taken from the book "The Compassionate Touch of Ma

Anandamayi." She was called "The bliss-permeated Mother."

 

"One day a married woman came and lamented to Mataji, "Ma, in my

home nobody approves of puja, japa, meditation and the like. My

husband, my father-in-law, and all the rest of the members in the

family, including my brother-in-law, are opposed to it, What am I to

do?" Mataji said: "You observe so many religious vows in your homes;

don't you keep a fast on Tuesday and fast and do puja all night on

Sivaratri?

 

"Will you try to take up the following practice,? One day in a month,

from morning till night, regard everyone as a manifestation of God.

Your husband, your father-in-law, your brother-in-law -consider them

to be God in different guises. That day, look upon your children as

child Krishna and Kumari Devi. Whoever comes to your house, be he a

guest, a beggar, a hawker, treat him as a form of Narayana. If on

that day you are visited by any sorrow or trouble, welcome them as

messengers of the Lord. By continuing with this practice, you will

find circumstances becoming normal and favourable to the worship of

God. First of all, do this once every month, then once a week and you

will observe that the happiness you feel on that day will influence

all the rest of the week."

 

JAI MA

 

 

 

 

Ammachi, Tabitha Vitale

<tabitha_27_vitale> wrote:

> Excuse me for bothering the group with something that

> seems so petty, but if a little bit of prayer can help

> move things along, who am I not to ask for that little

> bit of assistance?

> A little background:

> I am a stay at home mom. We have two small children.

> One vehicle for the entire family--it belongs to dad.

> The kids' father and I are not in a relationship any

> more--we are now just room-mates, living in the same

> house in order to give the kids a mother and father

> and a more stable environment than we would be able to

> give if we lived apart.

> He is a practising Buddhist.

>

> The St Louis Ammachi satsang meets at the same time as

> his dharma group on Sundays. The satsang used to meet

> once a month at the living insights center, which is

> right up the road from our house and to Tony is an

> acceptable place for me to go. But they no longer

> hold the satsang there.

> Since I have found out about the satsang I have been

> asking if he would stay with the kids and let me go to

> satsang (our kids are 4 and 2--sitting still is not

> within their realm. The 4 yo I might consider taking

> along--but not the 2 yo--he's much too excitable

> around people--I'd spend all my time chasing him). I

> am not asking to go every Sunday. Every other Sunday,

> so we can trade off fairly. I even reached the point

> of asking just for one Sunday out of the month. But

> he seems to have it stuck in his head that him going

> to his dharma group is far more important than me

> attending anything--be it satsang or anything else.

> Basically, the vehicle is his--I am only allowed out

> very rarely--and usually I only go to the grocery

> store or to the local discount store. He resents

> having to watch the kids. I went out to the grocery

> store yesterday and took my 4 yo old with me. I came

> home to a flooded bathroom--and basement--because he'd

> been otherwise occupied with video games while our 2

> yo was busy playing in the water in the bathroom.

> So you can see--I am asking for more than just help to

> melt his heart and let me go to satsang. :-) But

> that is where I am starting.

> I am trying to get a business started where I can see

> clients at home, but in order to do that I sometimes

> need to see clients sans my children outside the home

> in order to get a decent reputation and get people

> interested. Although he complains about the lack of

> money in our household, I have watched him

> consistently sabotage my attempts to make appointments

> to work on people outside the home--and even inside

> the home if I have asked him to be around to at least

> keep an eye on the kids while I am with someone. And

> I honestly cannot say for sure that he does it

> consciously either.

> I have already gone to Amma in prayer and in email and

> in snail mail about this--several times I am sad to

> say. But lately it has seemed the harder I try to do

> things--like go to satsang, or become more

> self-sufficient, the more he is clinging to me staying

> here in a bound sort of way.

> Oh--I am so sorry to go on and on like this--all I

> meant to do originally was just ask for prayers to

> help melt his heart enough that I could get to satsang

> once in awhile. But prayers to help melt his heart

> and his resistance on all fronts would be a good

> thing, please.

> I know he is afraid that I will take the kids and

> disappear--even though I have sworn over and over I

> would never do that--not to mention I have no funds to

> do so, nor a place to run to that I would willingly

> take my children for any period of time. He says he

> believes I would never keep him from the children--he

> just doesn't want me to move far away, is the way he

> puts it. And I truly do have no intentions of doing

> either--moving to another state or keeping him from

> the kids in any way.

> Other than telling him the truth about what I am

> feeling and what I am planning--which I do--as often

> as I can--not that he can hear me when I speak--but

> still...I do not know what else to do.

> So please pray--for all of us. :-) We're already on

> the prayer list--but this not being able to go to

> satsang thing is really bothering me and I don't know

> where else to turn.

> Thank you so much for listening to me though. If

> nothing else, I feel better for having poured myself

> out here.

> Brightest blessings,

> Tabitha

>

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