To Adriane: Thanks, Hello and the Fridge

[Guest guest]

Aum Amriteshwarayi Namaha!

Sweetie pie Adriane! My goodness, you, my dear have a real gift for

writing! i am laughing through my tears! You are so blessed! Amma is

indeed always with you--fridge and all! i want you to know, also,

that the very sweet devotees of the Devi Mandir prayer group have

been keeping you on their prayer list as well, and we will all

continue to send you lots of loving energy. i am so happy to hear

that you are doing so much better. [you certainly seem to be]. Your

spirit is so..so.. well, let me say buoyant!!!!!! May your situation

continue to improve each day, and may Amma always guide you with Her

unseen, as well as Her seen Presence.

i am really smiling about the "Message from Amma" Swami E-mail, [that

is soooo wonderful], but,please forgive me Adriane, i can't help

giggling about the fridge! [although, i am sure it must have been

scary at the time!]

Thank-you so much for "baring your fears and tribulations" with your

brothers and sisters, and i commend your ability to tell it in a very

straightforward manner laced with wisdom and a keen sense of humor.

Your sister in Amma,

muktimaa

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ammachi, "n2amma" <a1driane@s...> wrote:

>

> Aum Amriteshwaryai Namah,

> Dear Fellow Devotees,

> I am just joining this group so Hello to friends in Amma. Thanks to

> everyone for your prayers. Thanks to Barb and Robin for your very

> kind messages also. They were nicer than what my own mother would

> ever say! LOL...I've heard so many wonderful things about

> this online Satsang I finally decided to "" around and join in.

>

> It is true as Robin stated, I have been going through a tough time.

I

> had a crack in my mental strength which surprised, embarrassed and

> frightened me. It is all financial-some of you have shared your

> personal stuggles with this as well. In the end, I don't think I

need

> to have cash stuffed into my grave with me anyway. lol...We all

know

> that they are far worst things than losing "things" but someone

> else's pain somehow does not diminish our own. I was worrying and

my

> mind was a freight train carrying everything along with it.

>

> I tried to ask Amma about this financial issue while in Chicago

this

> summer. I saw Swami Dayamrita on the stage and a friend kept

telling

> me "go ask Amma!" So when I finally gathered the courage to do

this,

> Dayamrita was gone! I wandered into the snack area and spotted

> another Swami whose name I do not know. I asked him about asking

Amma

> a question. He told me "No, do not ask Amma questions on Devi Bhava

> night. Are you going further on the tour?" Well..no. So he just

told

> me to ask another time. So I felt his answer was from Amma. I

dropped

> it and thought I'd be fine and figure it out on my own.

>

> I returned home and things were even worst than I thought! Warning

> warning...red alert!!! MAJOR CASH CRASH! I finally decided to write

> to a Swami to see if he would please please please ask Amma for me

> about this dire situation. After sending it, I felt a weight had

been

> lifted. But I still wanted to know what Amma might say. Any

> information from my guru was most welcome! After waiting what

seemed

> an eternity, I decided She was not going to respond. Out of the

blue,

> I received an email from Swami. He said that Amma tells me "She

asked

> me to tell you not to worry and Amma is with you. She said whether

> you worry or not we need the courage to face the challenges in

life.

> Hence please gather this. There is no use in worrying."

>

> Jai Ma! What was so unusual is I usually am able to face things and

> never like to share my problems. I usually feel strong enough and

> have faced far worst things. But I found I can be as vulnerable as

> the next person. This admission seemingly lifted me in some way. I

> burst into tears upon receiving the email knowing Amma did respond

in

> a way I had desired. I wrote to Swami telling him to thank Amma

> (though we know She already knows how grateful I am!!) I wrote how

I

> would always remember Amma now, how happy I am to have a guru, how

I

> will always always ALWAYS (ALWAYS!!!) remember Amma is with me-now

no

> matter what!

>

> WRONG!! WRONG!!! WRONG!!! I failed the first big test sent to me

the

> VERY next day!!! This summer, I am working at a school for middle

> school teens. So the next day, I had was locked in the walk in

> refrigerator at work. YIPES!!! I had gone to put up the milk from

> snacktime and grab a bottle of water for myself. I have been in the

> refrigerator numerous times but it had not ever locked behind me.

The

> door was not actually locked but the vacuum was sealed! It would

not

> BUDGE! I went into a (total screaming!!!) panic (AGHHHH!!!!!

HELP!!!!)

> The kitchen lights were out as the kitchen itself was closed for

> summer. The light from the walk in fridge window barely shone

> through to the cafeteria. I saw the teachers and children getting

up

> to file into the gym for other activities. Oh dear, this did not

look

> good! I pounded on the door in sheer (TOTAL)panic! One teacher

caught

> me in the corner of her eye and came running to help. She also

could

> not get the door to budge. She went for help.

>

> In the meantime, the door finally opened. It might have been a

total

> of 2 or 3 minutes at most. (In my mind, an eternity!) When I was

> freed, I was shaking all over from fear. Then it hit me. It hit me

> BIG. I totally had forgotten Amma was with me!! BOOM! Just like

> that. Already tested, already failed. I recognize I am one big

human

> bean after all! Thankfully Amma knows me all too well.

>

> The theme continued the next evening. I had some Chinese take out.

I

> almost forgot to check the fortune cookie. I have to admit, I'm

> always more interested in these "fortunes" than the cookie. If its

> something I like, then it's true. If it's not, then I disregard it.

I

> thought, Oh, I need to see what Amma sent me as a fortune in the

> cookie! I felt for certain Amma had sent a message. I opened it and

> it said: "Courage and optimism are your best traits." Well, maybe

She

> means that they better be!!

>

> So again thanks to all of you who sent prayers for me and my

family.

> We are all one heart in Amma. And like the lion in the Wizard of

Oz,

> I guess, I need to remember I already have courage! I have AMMA.

Let

> us all remember it always-no matter what life may bring, to

remember

> Her loving presence.

>

> on the path and in Amma's loving grace and surely in Her presence

> because She told me so,

> Adriane