Guest guest Posted August 4, 2005 Report Share Posted August 4, 2005 OM NAMAH SIVAYA first of all, hi back to you Ardis(west side in the house!). while i can't speak for others, i, for one, am glad that your post was posted to the whole group. while i never like to hear of others suffering, for me it serves as a great reminder that no matter the hardships one may endure, has endured, is enduring we don't have the benefit of knowing the whole story. we don't know the purpose of the experience. and like you said in your post, everything that happens to us is for a reason, to move along the path towards Home. there are no coincidences. your story is inspirational in that it has led you to a better place and even more than that has helped you towards our goal. one that Amma has reached and is leading us all to. JAI MA Ammachi, Ardis Jackson <ardis1@v...> wrote: > Excuse me I thought that this long response was going directly to > Linda's private email. I didn't mean to share it with the entire > group. > > Namaste > > Pahari Maa > > On Aug 4, 2005, at 1:23 PM, Ardis Jackson wrote: > > > > > > Dear sweet sister Linda, > > > > I really felt the "need" to respond to this post. > > > Dear Ananthasree ~ me either; what a wonderful story of Amma's > > > omniscience. > > > I hope this doesn't start another thread of people writing back and > > > forth in > > > support of or in dispute of Amma's omniscience. I have read too > > many > > > stories > > > not to believe in both Her omniscience and omnipresence. How > > > wonderful for > > > your partner. > > The first time I met Swami Satyananda Saraswati he told me "at last > > you have come." I have never been able to get him to explain to me > > when we had been together in the past, but he made it very clear that > > we had been. Another time he was giving a class and he looked right > > at > > me and said "Oh yes, you saw me. You saw me meditating in a cave in > > India and recognized your devotee. You were Durga then and you were > > flying over the Himalayas." Then he bowed to me. > > > > > > > > > I sometimes feel, Amma is like Glenda, the Good Witch in the Wizard > > > of Oz, > > > floating around in Her cosmic bubble with Her magic wand, sprinking > > > Divine > > > Love Dust here and there. And no kidding, this recently came up > > in a > > > pyschic > > > reading I had done. A Glenda-type great soul appeared to me in a > > > cave and did a > > > healing on me. She told me I had agreed to come to this Earth and > > > take on > > > these difficulties for the benefit of "my people." > > > > In the 1950's I saw a copy of Life Magazine that included an article > > about Sikkim and Hope Cooke, the American socialite who married the > > Crown Prince of Sikkim. When I saw the pictures of the land, I "knew" > > that I had been there. When I went to Sikkim in 1992, I felt that the > > Sikkimese people were "my people". I felt such a oneness with them. > > Much more than I usually feel with Americans. When I had to leave, a > > Sikkimese woman washed my hands with her tears. She did not want me > > to > > leave. It was a very powerful moment. I told her that that was the > > only visit "home" that I would make this lifetime. > > > > > > When she left, I was on a grassy hillside with a beautiful but > > simple > > > village below. Everyone was rushing to greet me and say how happy > > > they were to see > > > me. I spent a little time there, and then I said I had to go; I > > > wasn't done. > > > > > > Since then, I have since visited this place again and spoken with > > "my > > > people" some more. Now that I know where they are, I told them, I > > can > > > come back for > > > visits. They took me to a beautiful lake on the other side of the > > > simple, > > > but beautiful village, and led me to a gorgeous huge lake with a > > > white bridge > > > crossing it (no railings). The lake and bridge had not been there > > > before, and I > > > asked them when they had made it. They said, "We just decided," and > > > let me > > > see that just by choosing something, so it is. Two of them led me > > to > > > the > > > center of the bridge, and I could see everything. I was somewhat > > > overwhelmed by > > > the beauty of it all. I said, "Oh I wish I could fly." Without a > > > word or a > > > warning, my companions pushed me off the bridge and I took what > > was > > > like a long > > > flying glide into the lake. It was wonderful. They reminded me > > > before I left, > > > "It is always only a matter of choosing." > > > > My father and I were always very close. I consider him to be my first > > guru. (in this lifetime) He taught me the value of silence and > > simplicity, of peace and unconditional love and service. In 1968 he > > had a dream. In this dream he was told that if he took a certain trip > > with my mother to British Columbia and Washington state that there > > would be a terrible accident and he would die. He came to me and > > asked > > me what I thought. I told him that I thought some dreams were > > predictions of the future but that some were not. Only he could > > discern the significance of the dream. He told my mother about the > > dream. She reacted in a very selfish way "oh no, you are not going to > > use a stupid dream to get out of this trip! I have wanted to take > > this > > trip for 40 years. There is NO WAY I will let you cancel this trip." > > In a strange way, both my mother and I "forgot" about the dream. My > > father spent the last six months of his life happier than I had ever > > seen him... walking on the beach... sitting under the apple tree... > > not > > letting my volatile (bipolar) mother get to him...no worries. Then > > they went on their trip. My husband and I also were away on a trip to > > the Grand Canyon. When we got home the first call we got was from a > > hospital in Washington saying that there had been a terrible accident > > and both of my parents were in critical condition. My father passed > > away the next morning. I was en route to see him when he passed. To > > this day my mother swears that there was "no dream". My father was 61 > > years old. My mother is now 90 and still in excellent health. > > > > A couple of years after my dad died, my husband, baby and I were > > visiting an acquaintance in Santa Fe. It turned out that she was a > > psychic and performed seances. She asked us if there was anyone on > > the > > other side that we wanted to contact. At first we said "no" but then > > I > > thought of my father. I had always had doubts about the way he left. > > Our friend spoke saying "Is there anyone who wishes to speak to > > Ardis?" > >  "Is Charles Daniel O'Brien Jackson there? After a pause, she said > > "he > > is here Ardis, ask your question." I said "Daddy, why did you commit > > suicide?" She said "He's laughing. He says ' Is that what you > > thought'"? I said "well you had warning and you still went on the > > trip." He said "I had used up my last extension. I was needed here. > > Couldn't you tell that I was happy to return Home? Oh, Ardie, it is > > soooooo beautiful here. You can't imagine it. It is so far beyond > > any > > of the beauty on Earth. I never dreamed that I would be able to go to > > such a place." I started crying and said "Oh Daddy, if you didn't > > believe that you would go to such a beautiful place, you were the only > > one! Everyone who knew you knew that you would go to the best place > > in > > creation." Then my dad said "well Ardie I enjoyed this visit but I > > have to get going. We have lots of work to do here." > > > > He came to me once again in 1992 when I was planning my trip to > > India. > > He told me that I was going to be in danger. If I wished to do so he > > would set up a daily appointment with me at 5:30 pm. I could ask any > > questions or share any feelings and he would respond through automatic > > writing. My daily visits with him had a lot to do with my "surviving" > > the danger in Nepal. At age 51, in the midst of a biiss-filled > > pilgrimage, I was raped by a "high Tibetan rimpoche". My father > > couldn't warn me specifically of the danger or prevent it, but his > > loving presence surrounded me and was more "real" than the rape. When > > I read about your abuse and illness I wish that you had a pure father > > to guide you and surround you with love. But you have Amma and > > Swamiji. Amma did not want you to be abused or ill. She does not > > want > > that for any of her children. We come in with vasanas. They need to > > be lived through. > > > > When I was 18 I told my first formal spiritual teacher that I wanted > > to > > be fully enlightened by the time I was 21 or at the very latest 25. > > She got a shocked look on her face.  She knew how very difficult it > > would be (if not impossible) to clear all the vasanas in such a short > > time. I certainly set the bar high for myself. She started talking > > about the Golden Years, the time after 50 when all of one's spiritual > > work starts to pay off. She made it sound so beautiful. She also > > said > > how wonderful it was that I was already on a serious spiritual path at > > such a young age. I am in the Golden Years now and they are truly > > beautiful. I have had lots of suffering in my life ... an abusive > > mother... a terrible faithless marriage of 12 yrs... being a single > > parent and sole support of my daughter... a lifelong struggle with > > mental illness including many hospitalizations. But it is all so > > beautiful now. It has all been worth it. As Swamiji says "if you > > like > > where you are now... thank the ancestors... thank all the teachers... > > thank all the experiences. Just be here now. " > > > > I know that it may seem easy for me to say. I do not have your > > physical situation. I pray that these difficulties will be lifted. > > Don't ever think that Amma wants you to suffer. If she did, She would > > not be the Avatar that She is. I wonder if your abuses and illnesses > > are because as a very young child you placed the bar very high for > > yourself. My intuition is that you, gorgeous sister, have always been > > on the "right" path and have always kept the light in sight. > > > > Blessings, > > > > Pahari Maa > > > > > > So, first I will remind everyone that this was a visionary > > > experience, but I > > > do feel it is connected in some way to Amma. I would love to ask > > Her > > > about > > > it. I know there are other planes of existence and beings living > > on > > > other > > > planets (okay, now you all know I am certifiably nuts). I thought > > > this experience > > > might be taking place on the astral plane where thoughts become > > > reality ever > > > so much more quickly than they do here. Interestingly, this > > reading > > > and > > > vision connect back to a "memory" I had when I was very little > > > (around 5 or so). > > > I remembered a place, beautiful and simple, with green grass and > > > trees, > > > fountains spraying water into the air, and the most loving beings > > > walking around > > > conversing. I remember something about 7 levels ... and that is > > all I > > > remember. > > > > > > If it is Amma's will that I grew up abused and that I now struggle > > > daily > > > with this illness, for the sake of any others, then I gladly offer > > it > > > to Her > > > Lotus Feet. Amma, Amma, Amma, Ma, Ma, Ma ~ Linda > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > >      ▪       Visit your group "Ammachi" on the web. > > >  > > >      ▪       To from this group, send an email to: > > >  Ammachi > > >  > > >      ▪       Your use of is subject to the > > Terms of > > > Service. > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > > > > > > > > > > > > ▪  Visit your group "Ammachi" on the web. > >  > > ▪  > >  Ammachi > >  > > ▪  Terms of > > Service. > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 4, 2005 Report Share Posted August 4, 2005 i second that, ecjensen! she always has the best stories! ecjensen_us wrote: >OM NAMAH SIVAYA > >first of all, hi back to you Ardis(west side in the house!). while >i can't speak for others, i, for one, am glad that your post was >posted to the whole group. while i never like to hear of others >suffering, for me it serves as a great reminder that no matter the >hardships one may endure, has endured, is enduring we don't have the >benefit of knowing the whole story. we don't know the purpose of >the experience. and like you said in your post, everything that >happens to us is for a reason, to move along the path towards Home. >there are no coincidences. your story is inspirational in that it >has led you to a better place and even more than that has helped you >towards our goal. one that Amma has reached and is leading us all to. > >JAI MA > -- "Naan Amme Snehikkunnu" Be Love, Egyirba (Berijoy) http://www.egyirba.net The Lord of Love is before and behind. He extends to the right and to the left. He extends above; he extends below. There is no one here but the Lord of Love. He alone is; in truth, he alone is.-Mundaka Upanishad Excerpted from The Upanishads, translated by Eknath Easwaran, copyright 1987. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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