Amma experiences (was: Kali dream)

[Guest guest]

"it might be difficult for some to accept. experiences are true only to the one

who has experienced it."

 

Yes, when I related the experience & Grace that put me onto a spiritual path,

someone asked if I had ever taken hallucinagenics.

 

"i know i have someone in the group with whom i can relate to my experiences &

understanding."

 

I think there are many here!

 

"by relating them to the group, the members might gain positively from it."

With that thought, here are some expereriences I've wanted to share for some

time.

 

At Amriavarshini, I sat towards the back & under the stage chanting archana,

until Security asked me to move. My intention was for it to reduce suffering

from the dark time foreseen by Amma. Along with a feeling of wonderful energy,

Amma's floral scent became very strong!

 

My mind tried to logically explain away the scent, yet I still longed to smell

roses while physically away from Amma. Last year I really wanted this after

reading here about others' experiences, such as Robin's.

 

Someone related an experience of merging with Amma during a darshan, wherein she

felt she became the entire universe. Hearing about it, I also wanted that

experience! Last Nov. Amma gave me a darshan, during which it felt my upper

chakras were merging with Her. So, She gave me a tiny taste of it. What Grace,

but then She let go! Afterwards my mind adamantly told God that I could not

except a "no" to my desire to try to live as a renunciate with Amma in India.

While sitting with these thoughts, Amma kept looking at me. While driving away

from the temple, I was still saying this to God, like a stubborn little toddler.

In the car, I kept smelling a floral scent, but couldn't find the source. I

think this stopped sometime up the road from the ashram.

 

While my car was being repaired this year, I took a bus to work & arrived before

anyone else. Then began a routine of chanting Amma's names & doing IAM in an

office. One morning while chanting, Amma's presence felt strong, & a desk lamp

audibly clicked off. This large switch needs to be rotated a good bit before it

turns off. Then I smelled a floral scent. The next breath it wasn't there, but

then during the next breath, it was there again. I looked for something

flowering outside near the window, but never found the source or smelled it

again.

 

This summer, while walking near the shoe racks in San Ramon, I prayed for a more

compassionate heart. I don't think anyone was around me, but a floral scent was

there again.

 

It seems that Amma gives us attention when we're doing something that pleases

God. So, I better start getting to work early

 

This was at Amritavarshini. When Amma walked onto the stage on Her BD, Amma &

the area surrounding Her, inluding a swami, began to appear wavy. It looked

like the heat rising from a hot, paved road. It progressed so it seemed they

might completely if disappear! After this, I had a different perception about

being near Amma's physical body. It was hard to believe my eyes, & still

wonder if I was hallucinating from the heat!

 

With love,

 

Sweta