Guest guest Posted June 17, 2005 Report Share Posted June 17, 2005 Om Namah Shivaya Hare Om Dear Prajna: I feel that Amma is ignoring you for another reason. In fact, Amma has avoided eye contact with me for this tour as well. Therefore I will tread on safer soil, and speak for my own experience. What is yours Prajna may be different. Prajna alludes to Amma's Kali-ness. Kali is a fierce warrior (no doubt). Put what is her prey? Who is Kali slaying? This fallen soul feels it is my EGO. With Love, GeorgeSon Mail - You care about security. So do we. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 17, 2005 Report Share Posted June 17, 2005 Namah Shivaya Prajna, Thanks so much for your latest report. Mother is certainly working on you. As my husband says, you're getting your money's worth! I love what you said about Her lap extending everywhere and is everyone. Due to illness, I can't be with her - so far. Want to make it to LA. We'll see. It is the same lesson for me. Last Summer She made it so clear to me that it is all about love, our hearts. But Her physical form os sooo hard to resist. She is so lovable, so charming, so beautiful, so funny, so loving. It is impossible to get enough of that personality, that face, those incredible eyes, her soft, beautiful skin, those arms that hold so gently and firmly, Her voice speaking softly in our ear, the wonderful feeling of being so totally loved, even when She refuses to look at us. Close your eyes and think about it and you are having Her Darshan all over again. And we can do this whenever we want. I believe that we are having Her Darshan just by remembering Her Darshan. And yet we still want that physical Darshan again and again because we (I should say I am) still so attached to the world, the outside, even though I know better.. Oh Mother! Jai Ma! Prasadini Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 17, 2005 Report Share Posted June 17, 2005 Yep, George, She is pursuing my ego like a fox after a hare. There's nowhere to hide! She's coming to get me! Aaahhhhrrgggghhhh (anguished screams)!!!!!!!! You know, I don't know if any of you are or were dancers, but I used to do ballet and modern professionally, and there is an interesting point which comes up in Martha Graham's choreography. There is a classic Graham movement called "Pleadings," where the dancer contracts the abdominals, as if being punched in the stomach, and then exposes the jugular and wrists. She said that when two animals fight to the death, there is a moment when one of them realizes it is going to die, and in that moment it surrenders and exposes the jugular. She was fascinated with this type of surrender (although she referred to herself as "incredibly egotistical") and it was a recurring theme in her choreography. So I am praying for the moment when I can just bare my neck to Kali Ma and let Her bring down that great sword, but for now I still find myself struggling... getting weaker and weaker.... Mercy, Ma, Prajna GeorgeSon <leokomor wrote: Om Namah Shivaya Hare Om Dear Prajna: I feel that Amma is ignoring you for another reason. In fact, Amma has avoided eye contact with me for this tour as well. Therefore I will tread on safer soil, and speak for my own experience. What is yours Prajna may be different. Prajna alludes to Amma's Kali-ness. Kali is a fierce warrior (no doubt). Put what is her prey? Who is Kali slaying? This fallen soul feels it is my EGO. With Love, GeorgeSon Mail - You care about security. So do we. Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Ammachi/ Ammachi Read only the mail you want - Mail SpamGuard. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 17, 2005 Report Share Posted June 17, 2005 Dear Prajna: Here are some quotes to help stiffen the spine in the midst of the Kali inter-action. "This is no time for ease and comfort. It is the time to dare and endure. Winston Churchill This is courage; to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends. Euripides ONS, GeorgeSon Ammachi, Prajna - Brianna <prajnaji> wrote: > Yep, George, She is pursuing my ego like a fox after a hare. There's nowhere to hide! She's coming to get me! Aaahhhhrrgggghhhh (anguished screams)!!!!!!!! > > You know, I don't know if any of you are or were dancers, but I used to do ballet and modern professionally, and there is an interesting point which comes up in Martha Graham's choreography. There is a classic Graham movement called "Pleadings," where the dancer contracts the abdominals, as if being punched in the stomach, and then exposes the jugular and wrists. She said that when two animals fight to the death, there is a moment when one of them realizes it is going to die, and in that moment it surrenders and exposes the jugular. She was fascinated with this type of surrender (although she referred to herself as "incredibly egotistical") and it was a recurring theme in her choreography. > > So I am praying for the moment when I can just bare my neck to Kali Ma and let Her bring down that great sword, but for now I still find myself struggling... getting weaker and weaker.... > > Mercy, Ma, > > Prajna > > GeorgeSon <leokomor> wrote: > Om Namah Shivaya > Hare Om > > Dear Prajna: > > I feel that Amma is ignoring you for another reason. > > In fact, Amma has avoided eye contact with me for this tour as well. > > Therefore I will tread on safer soil, and speak for my own experience. What is yours Prajna may be different. > > Prajna alludes to Amma's Kali-ness. > Kali is a fierce warrior (no doubt). Put what is her prey? > Who is Kali slaying? This fallen soul feels it is my EGO. > > With Love, > > GeorgeSon > > > > > > Mail - You care about security. So do we. > > > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > > > Links > > > Ammachi/ > > > Ammachi > > Terms of Service. > > > > > > Read only the mail you want - Mail SpamGuard. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 17, 2005 Report Share Posted June 17, 2005 Yes, I've also felt Her deliberately ignoring me, in the service of poking at my ego. I remember Dayamrita Swami talking about this a couple of years ago in NYC. I can't recall if he was describing before or after he became a swami, when Amma began ignoring him completely and how excruciatingly painful it was for him. Even though I felt compassion for his experience, I also felt relieved that it wasn't just me She was ignoring at times! ;-) I've felt two things....one, in terms of the desire for her attention, the desire to feel special...and one in terms of finding internally what I was seeking externally. Namah Shivaya, Iswari Ammachi, GeorgeSon <leokomor> wrote: > Om Namah Shivaya > Hare Om > > Dear Prajna: > > I feel that Amma is ignoring you for another reason. > > In fact, Amma has avoided eye contact with me for this tour as well. > > Therefore I will tread on safer soil, and speak for my own experience. What is yours Prajna may be different. > > Prajna alludes to Amma's Kali-ness. > Kali is a fierce warrior (no doubt). Put what is her prey? > Who is Kali slaying? This fallen soul feels it is my EGO. > > With Love, > > GeorgeSon Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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