To Sweta on experience with Amma

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Sweta wrote:

 

Monday night I was grieving deeply, over a situation with a family member.

It seemed I had no family, other than God. Then, my lying mind thought

maybe I was insignificant even to Amma, just one of millions of people, & that

She didn't really consider me as Her daughter. I think Amma embodies God in a

human form, but I'm not advanced enough to always perceive God everywhere.

So, I wanted so badly for Amma to give me a sign that I am Her/God's daughter.

Due to these feelings & because I was getting sick, I got a darshan token

for the MA Center's first public program. Then it was announced that due to

the large crowd, darshans would be shorter than usual...Late in the day

someone handed a token to me, saying Amma was now stretching out darshan...

At Amma's feet, She pulled me in for a hug, then pulled me back, (touching

my chin/jaw?), Her eyes appearing full of compassion & concern & looked into

my eyes, saying a word in Malayalam with a questioning inflection. Then She

hugged me a second time, repeating daughter, daughter, daughter ....

Dear Sweta ~ I am so happy that you got to have such a wonderful experience

with Amma. I always feel Amma is thinking of all of us, the number does not

matter. Many times she has said, the reason we are drawn to her in this life is

because we have been with her in the past. And my last experience with Amma,

when she pulled me toward her, I looked up at her with tears streaming down

my face and asked, "What must I do about my pain?" Amma pulled me very close

and rocked me, saying "daughter, daughter, daughter." I can't describe how I

felt because it is beyond words, but just thinking of it, I feel as if my

heart will burst from overflowing joy and a great sense of peace. Thank you for

sharing ... now, does this make us sisters? (rhetorical question) Shanti ~

Linda