Seattle blessings and inexplicable miracles...

June 6, 2005

Om Amriteswaryai Namaha!!!

My dear, dear brothers and sisters. I apologize for not beginning to write this

the moment I returned from Devi Bhava this morning. I hadn't slept, of course,

and had to rest for a few hours because I was starting to hallucinate.

First, thank you everyone for your wonderful responses and blessings. Yogaman,

yes that was me eating. You described me and the way I bless my food perfectly,

I have no idea how you knew it was me, but after the last few days, nothing that

happens in Mother's presence suprises me. Please, if you see me in the other

cities, come and give me a hug! I have loved your posts over the last few years

and more than once you have lifted me out of sorrow and back into Mother's arms.

Also, I have lots of Devi Bhava petals and will be happily sending them along to

anyone who requested, or would like to request them.

Friday night of the retreat was beautiful. I sat very close to Mother for

several hours (on my blessed sheepskin!!) and experienced some of the deepest,

sweetest meditation of my life. She has said that the best place to meditate is

in the presence of a Sat Guru, that around a Sat Guru meditation simply happens,

spontaneously, and it is absolutely true. I think if anyone just watches Her for

a while, it is almost irresistable, falling into that stillness. Sometimes it is

not stillness at all, but tremendous purification... tears, fears, fire, humilty

and finally, awakening to a deeper (if still mostly ignorant) understanding of

who She is and what She is doing.

Mother doesn't make big miraculous public displays of Her greatness. She is so

completely humble that you have to get very close and watch carefully to see how

every move She makes is done with such total awareness, such incomprehesible

compassion. Late friday night She got very playful. Someone brought Her a toy

that was like a little flying saucer with a remote control. She would push the

button, and the thing would go flying up over our heads, hover, and then come

falling down. Everyone was laughing so much, and Mother was just like a child,

giggling and teasing. She gave really long hugs throughout the week because the

crowds were very modest and intimate. It was a nice chage for me, because I'm

always in San Ramon and LA, where the crowds get pretty big.

Big Swami's little brother is on the tour. I'd never met him, and had the

opportunity to chat with him Friday night. Wow! He's wonderful, and he sings

bhajans like a ghandarva. So much subtlty and awareness. When he speaks, his

eyes twinkle and the little lines on his face are those of one who has been

smiling and smiling for years. Anaghan (Matraba) and I have been calling him

"Little Swami!"

My grandmother was only able to come for Saturday, but she made it through the

whole day of programs, by Ma's grace. Our morning darshan was one of the best

I've ever had. She held me for a million years, I think, or maybe just took me

into some sort of alternate universe where time works differantly, because I

practically took a nap in Her arms. I remember reading in the forward to my copy

of the Ramayana an interesting note on time in the hindu scriptures. In the

Satya Yuga (age of truth), dharma walks on four legs (is predominant). But as

the yugas go on, and dharma walks on three, than two, than one leg in the

present Kali yuga (dark age of adharma), time sort of warps and these yugas are

increasingly shorter. So in Mother's arms, where dharma not only walks, but

dances, on four legs, time must surely be stretched...

My grandmother loves Amma so much. After our hug we sat down close by and she

just watched Mother for hours with the biggest, beaming smile on her face. She

kept saying, "She's WONDERFUL!!" to me with so much devotion and joy. After

morning darshan, I wanted Gram to be able to touch Ma's hand as She left the

hall, but Gram moves very slowly, and Amma moves very quickly, and everyone was

crowding and clamouring as usual and it didn't seem possible. Somehow I got

seperated from Gram and Anaghan, so I didn't see it, but they both told me

afterward that as Amma was coming through, She actually stopped and reached

through the crowd for Grams hand, and gave a little pat. Gram still can't stop

talking about this. It's really amazing how Mother is totally aware of what is

in Her children's hearts. Gram was not even very close to where Amma was coming

through, but She went out of Her way to grant the wish of Her devotee. What

compassion!

We all loved the Q&A session out on the lawn. It's really the little

expressions, gestures and subtle vocal inflections that make Mother so

irresistably delicious. I doubt there has ever been a being so funny, warm and

adorable in the entire history of this earth. Maybe, what do I know? I'm sure

Christ and Buddha and all those masters were pretty wonderful to hang out with

too, but were they so unbelievably yummy?

The best question was from a guy who was new to Amma. First he said that he

thought Amma was just wonderful, and that he wanted to marry Her! Swamiji

translated this to Amma and She burst out with the most adorable sort of yelp

and covered Her face, hiding and giggling. It was maybe the cutest thing I've

ever seen. He said that he looked down at his retreat wristband, which says

"Fill your heart with love and then express it in everything you do," and he was

wondering how does one go about filling their heart with love? Amma's whole

answer was incredibly profound, and I refuse to butcher it by paraphrasing, but

the part that made my heart skip a beat was this:

"You don't need to fill your heart with love, because you are love. Simply GIVE

love, and you will realize that you ARE love." -Amma June 4, 2005

After Amma served us dinner we took Gram home, because she was totally satisfied

and didn't want to stay longer. All day today she has been quietly saying "Amma,

Amma," under her breath. Jai Ma.

Devi Bhava was also just wonderful. Amma wore a stunning golden/amber sari and

looked like a thousand blazing suns. It was a small crowd, very intimate, which

was nice because I usually get a little overwhelmed at Devi Bhava. Once again,

Ma granted the desire of my heart and I got to do line assisting, my favorite

seva, which is typically only for local satsang members. Dinner was delicious,

by the way, if anyone here had a hand in preparing it. It tasted full of

mantras...

So here comes the best part. I had, at some point during the retreat, decided to

take the prayer list to Amma during Devi Bhava, as it was sunday, our prayer

day, and it just felt right. I asked Gita to please explain to Amma about the

and our prayer list, and as Amma was hugging me I heard the pages

slowly turning behind me, and felt an ENORMOUS outpouring of love, concern and

divine grace. I felt that Amma was totally aware of everyone and everything on

that list. After my hug, Amma handed me the printed pages of our prayer list,

and I saw that She had smeared sandalwood paste down every single page of it!!!

She then sprinkled some flowers on it and handed it back to me, nodding slowly.

I guess I'd been expecting Her to just tap it to Her forhead or something, but I

swear She blessed those pages with such deep reverence and total presence, it

seemed as though She were doing puja to the list. Incidentally, dear ones, I had

also written my godmother's name, and "All of

Amma's children who are unable to be physically with Her this summer" on the

list, so please take heart, those of you who that applies to. Anaghan, who was

right next to me, said that when She did it, everyone around went silent and

that Amma's expression was so full of reverence and deep, deep love. Jai Bolo

Satguru Mata Amritanandamayi Devi Ki....

So, that's about as much as I can process right now. I'll be spending a few more

days here with my family, and then will be meeting up with the tour again on

friday.I'll try to keep updating you all, I consider it a blessing and an honor

to serve Her children in this way.

pranams,

Prajna

June 6, 2005

Prajna, thanks for the update. My daughter and I just returned from Seattle

with our hearts filled with Amma's grace and love.

Om Amriteshwaryai Namaha!

Archana

barefootlotus

Austin, TX

June 6, 2005

Namah Shivaya Prajna,

Thank you so much for your update. It is wonderful!

Jai Ma!

Prasadini

:

June 6, 2005

Thank you! thank you Thank you so much!!!!!

Om Amriteshwaryai Namah.

Prajna - Brianna wrote:

> Om Amriteswaryai Namaha!!!

>

> My dear, dear brothers and sisters. I apologize for not beginning to write

this the moment I returned from Devi Bhava this morning. I hadn't slept, of

course, and had to rest for a few hours because I was starting to hallucinate.

>

> First, thank you everyone for your wonderful responses and blessings. Yogaman,