Names

[Guest guest]

I have a couple of stories about my name:

 

My name prior to Supriti was Omenka (still my legal testified in court name) and

I got that in Nigeria when I went on a 5 month adventure in 1977. I had always

hated my christian name and it was such a liberating feeling to name myself. As

an orphan doing my own name set me free from all kinds of past trauma and hurts

and I felt so happy about that.

 

Twenty years went by before I met Amma in 1998. I remember being so excited

when I found out that She would give me a name. I was frantic, utterly frantic

to have a name from her. It would mean that I was her child, I would have a

MOM. A real MOM.

 

So I asked immediately and was told yes. I got in the line and received my name

Supriti. I thought Amma said "SO PRETTY" - lol.

 

So the miracle about this is that one of my hugest vasanas was a stone heart

which I had closed down when I was five years old. I lived in my own fantasy

world and would become whatever the people around me wanted me to be. I let no

one in, loved no one (specially myself) and what I gave out was just a show. I

hated women.

 

I kept a light inside me and didn't consciously let it out (thankfully there

were kind people along my path that saw my light even though I thought I was

hiding). Then when Amma gave me Supriti as a name and I found out that it means

SUPREME LOVE" also "LOVED BY ALL" depending on which people are interpretting

it - I was amazed. It was the perfect name for this Amma's girl.

 

I get to hear I AM LOVED everytime someone called my name and this forces me to

remember all day every day that I am LOVED, I am LOVE and I am capable of

LOVING. Talk about being stunned and so grateful. I grinned from ear to ear

for the longest time after getting my name. It is the perfect name for me and I

truly love it and have learned to accept that I can love and be loved (trust is

still an issue I am a little thorny about, I am working on that too).

 

Amma is so dear and sweet to me and She knew exactly what to call me to melt my

stone heart. When people ask me who named me, I say "MY MOM".

 

 

 

 

Om Namashivaya - In Amma's service,

 

Supriti Omenka Nnadi