On dreams , experiences etc ...

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Namah Shivaya

 

Once up on a time, not too long ago, I used to wonder why it is that I

don't seem to experience what other devotees are experiencing.

I did not have dreams in which Amma came or atleast I never remembered

if Amma came to my dream. This used to bother me a lot.

 

One of my cousin used to tell me his experiences during meditation.

To me he did not seem to be meditating more than I was or doing

anything special (seeing with my limited myopic eyes).

 

The only thing I could think of during my meditation was everyone

telling me their experience and thinking ok I am going to get some

experience today.

One day I got a reminder from Amma . The reminder came through Awaken

Children. I dont have the exact words but it goes something like this.

 

A swamiji had asked Amma why is it that he is not having any

experience while meditating.

Amma asked him how long does he meditate ? He said may be 8 hours.

Then Amma asked what age did he start meditating and how old he was

now. So he has been meditating for about 4 years. And he was about 32

years at that time. And in that 8 hours how many hours of

concentration does he get ? Then Amma said even if you dont believe in

rebirth in this birth itself you have spend about 28 years not even

knowing in theory about self realization and accumulating vasanas.

 

Even to get a college degree you have to work for atleast 15 years.

Then Amma said patience is the most important virtue for a spiritual

aspirant. Just do your sadhana or spiritual practice.

Just like when you travel in an aeroplane you may sometimes not be

aware of its movement (if there are no reference points) or even the

speed with which it is moving, every time you do your spritual

practice it does take you forward.

 

I kept thinking about this over and over again and then experiences

became immaterial to me. I could be at peace with myself when some one

came and said Oh I had this experience etc...

 

Later after this, I did have some experiences and recently also Amma

had come in a dream. But it did not leave me excited or sad. I was

neither happy that it happened or sad for it.

 

Even the smallest things Amma is there to help me.

 

I have never been able to do sadhana regurlarly. I wanted to do it

every day with out a break. But it just never happened. I guess I did

not try harder. Few months back with Ammas grace I have been able to

do it every day with out a break. It just happened. Ever since I

learnt to do IAM I had not missed it a single day.

 

Next step in my mind was to do it at the same time every day. I am

struggling with that but I am sure with Ammas grace it will happen.

 

Today morning I woke up at 4:00 AM and after a bath started to do my

sadhana. 5 minutes into it and I started to feel sleepy. My mind came

up with 108 excuses to go back to sleep !! Then I blew the lamp

(deepam) off . I thought I will wake up in an hour and do it at that

time and so I did not want to turn the electric light off. I got up to

go back to sleep and suddenly the light turned off ! And then it

turned back on again ! That moment what ever sleep I had also went

away !! A chill ran down my spine !

One can come up with any number of explanations for it to happen.

But I have no doubt in my mind it was Amma doing it.

 

After that I was able to do my sadhana with out sleep disturbing me !

This is just one small thing.

 

Thinking back to see how I developed what ever little faith I have in

Amma I can only say it is Her grace. I dont care to know or want to

know about how it happened.

 

If there are few in this group who like how I was before, wondering

why is it that I am not getting any such experiences, dont worry about

it.

 

If you feel it is important for you talk to Amma about it. Just take

any picture of Amma and talk to her. With Her grace it will happen.

 

Aum Amriteswariyai Namah

[Guest guest]

Very nice post. Ammachi is there, amazingly in all our trials. If

you do any Seva around Amma it is amazing how she will show her

appreciation. Even for the smallest help. You will recognize the

thank you.

 

We helped clean a house that Amma was going to sleep in during the

tour. We spent all day getting everything spotless. About an hour

before Amma was to arrive, the hostess told us it was time to leave

because this was to be a private welcome for Amma.

 

We were just happy to have helped clean because, of course that

blissful feeling had come over us while we were helping. As we went

to go to our car to leave, guess who pulls up early? Good old Ma.

Smilingly. And in that fun voice, which is a cross between a crow

crawing and someone laughing Amma said gently, "Namah Shivaya, Thank

you!" We all got a beautiful meeting with Ma.

 

Someone looking "scientifically" from the outside would side this

was just a coincidence etc. But how can you describe the warm

emotion involved? The relationship with MA is just indescribably

sweet.

 

 

 

Ammachi, Vipin Pavithran <vipin.p@g...> wrote:

> Namah Shivaya

>

> Once up on a time, not too long ago, I used to wonder why it is

that I

> don't seem to experience what other devotees are experiencing.

> I did not have dreams in which Amma came or atleast I never

remembered

> if Amma came to my dream. This used to bother me a lot.

>

> One of my cousin used to tell me his experiences during meditation.

> To me he did not seem to be meditating more than I was or doing

> anything special (seeing with my limited myopic eyes).

>

> The only thing I could think of during my meditation was everyone

> telling me their experience and thinking ok I am going to get some

> experience today.

> One day I got a reminder from Amma . The reminder came through

Awaken

> Children. I dont have the exact words but it goes something like

this.

>

> A swamiji had asked Amma why is it that he is not having any

> experience while meditating.

> Amma asked him how long does he meditate ? He said may be 8 hours.

> Then Amma asked what age did he start meditating and how old he was

> now. So he has been meditating for about 4 years. And he was

about 32

> years at that time. And in that 8 hours how many hours of

> concentration does he get ? Then Amma said even if you dont

believe in

> rebirth in this birth itself you have spend about 28 years not even

> knowing in theory about self realization and accumulating vasanas.

>

> Even to get a college degree you have to work for atleast 15

years.

> Then Amma said patience is the most important virtue for a

spiritual

> aspirant. Just do your sadhana or spiritual practice.

> Just like when you travel in an aeroplane you may sometimes not be

> aware of its movement (if there are no reference points) or even

the

> speed with which it is moving, every time you do your spritual

> practice it does take you forward.

>

> I kept thinking about this over and over again and then experiences

> became immaterial to me. I could be at peace with myself when some

one

> came and said Oh I had this experience etc...

>

> Later after this, I did have some experiences and recently also

Amma

> had come in a dream. But it did not leave me excited or sad. I was

> neither happy that it happened or sad for it.

>

> Even the smallest things Amma is there to help me.

>

> I have never been able to do sadhana regurlarly. I wanted to do it

> every day with out a break. But it just never happened. I guess I

did

> not try harder. Few months back with Ammas grace I have been able

to

> do it every day with out a break. It just happened. Ever since I

> learnt to do IAM I had not missed it a single day.

>

> Next step in my mind was to do it at the same time every day. I am

> struggling with that but I am sure with Ammas grace it will happen.

>

> Today morning I woke up at 4:00 AM and after a bath started to do

my

> sadhana. 5 minutes into it and I started to feel sleepy. My mind

came

> up with 108 excuses to go back to sleep !! Then I blew the lamp

> (deepam) off . I thought I will wake up in an hour and do it at

that

> time and so I did not want to turn the electric light off. I got

up to

> go back to sleep and suddenly the light turned off ! And then it

> turned back on again ! That moment what ever sleep I had also went

> away !! A chill ran down my spine !

> One can come up with any number of explanations for it to happen.

> But I have no doubt in my mind it was Amma doing it.

>

> After that I was able to do my sadhana with out sleep disturbing

me !

> This is just one small thing.

>

> Thinking back to see how I developed what ever little faith I have

in

> Amma I can only say it is Her grace. I dont care to know or want to

> know about how it happened.

>

> If there are few in this group who like how I was before, wondering

> why is it that I am not getting any such experiences, dont worry

about

> it.

>

> If you feel it is important for you talk to Amma about it. Just

take

> any picture of Amma and talk to her. With Her grace it will happen.

>

> Aum Amriteswariyai Namah